havent been updating blog. bad kala *slap* lol xD well.. obviously alot of shit happens. but for now i wun write here. cos theres really too much to say..
ok im promoted to sec 4E next yr. but now.. to me.. so wad? get promoted means i'll do well in Os? ..now i feel the pressure. but i aint working hard. WHY? i duno. sick of studying. its like this week out of three schooling days. i only went once. and the amazing thing was that my mom din scold me. cos she knew i played computer games till late at nite. been rather in bad mood recently. in skool and on fone. duno wad came over me. sry guys. =(
maybe u guys dun see me blogging abt him anymore. do i still love him? yeah perhaps. but i've changed into a more moody person partly cos of him.. nah not him.. partly cos of wad he said when we quarrelled. "u treat me as a fren? but u're expecting from me as much as a bf" sometimes i duno how to put words across hes mind. yes true im not hes gf. thats why i cant say much. he doesnt love me. only i do. i love him. thats all.
sometimes i really hope he could swop places wif me to feel wad im going thru. but cant. cos life is nv fair. and i cant say such things to him cos hes rite.. "u treat me as a fren only?" i duno.. but after that quarrel we had like a week ago. things just keep spinning in my head till now. last nite. i saw some stuff which reminds me of how sweet he was and how much he used to care. i cried myself to slp. hate being weak. crying for a guy who doesnt care for u much is BAD.
"now u noe why i dun wana have a gf. troublesome. always got problems. mus care abt how they feeel. dun tok to them one min they kp." this was something like wad he said. yeah this and other statements definately pierce thru my heart rite in the middle. why do i always fall for such guys. guys who doesnt care for me. doesnt dote me and doesnt like me at all. what i need is not there. but i dun wan is everywhere.
for now. i concentrate only on my game. i dun care abt the rest anymore. not even my frens. im neglecting all now. seriously i duno wad the fuk i wan ZZZZZZZZZ im just sick of being sad hurt and. . . . . . i cant keep crying over the same guy. -.- i need a break.
screw PT's admin,
kalafilochi