tell me.
Do You ORO?
nice song.. but this time round.. the lyrics in the song is not implying to wad im feeling.. maybe the 1st two lines. but.. hahah not sure. coz i dun cry over .. .. . . . .. . . lol!
mommie allowed me to pon skool today! woohoo! coz today skool shld be rahter boring. so i din wana go. =) thks mom.. manda came over last nite.. shes soooo silly.. im not gonna write wad happened last nite.. but.. i can definately say this aloud. SHE MOLESTED ME ON MY BED.!!! sad.. she raped me upside down last nite and this morning.. yeah she stayed over nite at my hse. slp on MY bed. >.< den we woke up ard 9-10am. had breakfast den go her hse.. waited for her to bathe.. den i went to kim seng to meet yu yeng kelvin edd and austin..
b4 i reach there... yu yeng was telling me something.. i felt soooo crap after that.. its like. i was angry jealous and sad. lmao i wasnt happie the whole day. nth could cheer me up. except for one thing.. but.. it did not happened either. anyways.. all of us. we went to bowl. only bowl a game. coz kim seng had competition.. so they needed the lanes. aunt winnie very nice.. she let me rent the shoes for free.. lol.. why she so nice? i oso duno. hahah
den we all went to great world to sit down.. den sarah joined us. i felt so horrible. zzz den i called manda. she came. 1st thing i did was hug her.. den i walk away frm the gang. as in i told them i'll brb.. ya.. den i tok to manda. i thrashed things out wif her abt wad im feeling and why im feeling this way. she said im tinking too much and she tinks im falling in love. lmao. falling in love? naaaah it wun happen for a long time to come. that i noe for sure. =D provided theres a miracle..
den i join back the gang. the talk was rather short. but i din tok to the gang. at all.. manda n me.. we went to delifrance to eat. manda was eating. i din hav to mood to eat at all. today whole day was rather draggy.. den the gang left. wifout saying bye. they went bowling again. but i couldnt be bothered wif them no more.. only yu yeng came to me. we tok things out oso. coz aside from manda. she the nex person who noes abt why im feeeling this way. actually SHES THE CAUSE OF IT! hahah nah kidding. i was too sensitive i guess. yu yeng said u wanted conf at nite.. so here i am. waiting and waiting. i told yu yeng if u're going wif them. 1st thing u do when u reach home is definately SLP. coz thats sort of ur daily routine.
ok u wana noe why i feeel so farked up today?
let me tell u.
i actually dun intend to.
but i tink if i thrash things out wif u it would be beta.
i treat u as one of the most important ppl in my life.
aside from my family members.
i love u soo much as a fren.
even more as a gd fren.
i nv felt this way b4 but i get jealous when u tok to other ppl.
especially wad i heard from yu yeng today.
that gal kept pulling ur shirt. asking u to company her.
i dun wana say out the gals name but u shld noe who im refering to.
to me. today she is acting quite bitchie when im not ard.
den i take the pulling shirt issue as flirt.
i dun actually dun intend to voice this out
coz i dun wan u to stop doing wad u're doing coz of me
im only ur fren. i dun wan u to stop doing things coz of my jealous-ness.
and it sux even more when im so down and u show me attitude.
and i somehow feel we're drifting away.
and really. i dun like that feeling. but i cant help it
coz i noe most of the frenship.. they dun last long.
but i wan our frenship to last forever.
although i only noe u a few months. u've already become one part of my life
u manda harfia yu yeng steffi = all my oxygen.
wifout any of u. i would die.
life would b very meaningless to me.
but i jus hope if u happen to read this.
i jus hope that things would be normal
im taking a risk now coz u might not tok to me after reading this as u might be freaked out.
coz if im u. i would get freaked out.!
im so sry that im so sensitive.
but thats me. u hav to either accept it. or dun mix wif me.
understand daddie?
yeah the whole paragraph.. i was actually tokin to u, daddie.
feeeling like crap.
kalafilochi __ screw urself gal!