when they are alone together.. none of them spoke. not even a single word to each other. it wasnt exactly a cold war but kala knew that he was upset. it was her birthday. ok lets give her a name. paris. ok? lol.
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paris is a gal who holds such a high position in hes heart. kala knew hes mind was tinking all abt her. cos he smsed her. but she din reply.. kala din wana say a word cos nth she said could change hes mood. kala was upset and hurt. cos 1stly she could not make him happy. and 2ndly no matter how hard kala tries.. she can nv replace paris in that guy's heart.
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kala thought to herself "lol u're such a fool." paris replied hes sms thru kala's fone. thking him for the wishes. kala couldnt wait to tell him that paris replied. cos he would be on cloud no 9. but kala would be on the ground.
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last week. kala made a decision and she told fifi. kala wanted to stop liking him. wanted to give up. din wana hold on anymore. cos wads the point of holding onto something which wun have an ending or an answer. fifi respected kala's decision.. but one day when he got whacked. kala told fifi "i pretending to luff along. but when i saw him. all i could feel is real ache. real acheness in my heart. i wanted to sayang him. but.. zzz" fifi said.. "why do u feel ache? tot u said u wanted to stop liking him?" haiz kala couldnt answer fifi's question.
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kala loves him so much. even if he loves kala. he would nv love kala as much as he loved paris. kala really feel so low. now on kala's winamp is "You're Beautiful - James Blunt".. the song.. its so true.. "u're beautiful.. u're beautiful.. u're beautiful its true.. i saw ur face in a crowded place and i duno wad to do. cos i'll nv be wif u.." the ending part of the song. is even more true. "but its time to face the truth.. i will never be wif u.."
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kala listens to this song and blog. yes shes fuking hurt. SHE DOESNT LIKE THE FEELING OF BEING HURT. she tries to act normally. pretend everything is alrite. but at the rate that she's going. she can really go crazy. INSANE MADNESS! oh noe why kala often slaps herself? cos the pain she felt physically is NOTHING compared to wad she feels inside her heart.
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and now tears roll down her cheeks.
U'RE CRYING AGAIN.
hopeless bitch.
