i din go skool today. wasnt feeling too well in the morning.. so i met my frens in the afternoon.. why? coz we're all going for asthetic nite... its a skool concert. event. held at singaporepoly.. i met my frens. we went bowling and stuff. oh. the WE were guo teng. edd. sarah.. yu yeng. kelvin. and me. ya. den the 6 of us squeezed into a cab to sp coz we were kinda late. den we reached there. as usual. steffi chua the vain queen. she super overdressed. mel.. ok la she looks quite nice.. grace.. she disappoint me. lol her dressing. XD den after concert i went off wif the "WE" again. oh. rui shi sang super well. i saw the band.. i mean of coz everyone did. i felt kinda guilty coz i was suppose to be there and paul was playing my part. LOL. bet he was forced to.. oh bingjian.. u played well for the musical piece. the "everytime' and the other song. gd job. u surprised me.



i saw him at asthetic nite.. honestly i find him ugly.. but today.. when i really look at him. for the 1st time i got "eletricuted".. after knowing him so long. den i realised hes.charm... when i reached home jus now. i sat down at the play ground for about 20mins b4 i went up. why? i was tinking.. i was in deeep tots.. i was wondering why i was so dumb. honestly.. if i can do this. i would wana get into an accident.. to see who really cares for me.. i mean the main objective is to see if he really stilll cares for me as much as he used to. the day he left was the day i regretted letting him go. but we din hav a choice. it wasnt in our favour.


when i see him. i really wonder if i like him. coz wad im feeeling towards him is nothing from wad i used to felt towards paul. z this feeling.. is neither here nor there. but after so long. yeah i still care for him. somethings cant be forgotten in a week.. or weeks.. or months.. he really got my attention today. sometimes when i got the chance to even speak to him properly. i hope the moment would stay on. coz its only the 2 of us. and i actually wan it to last forever. i dun wana go home. i dun wana go for class. i dun wana walk away. i jus wana sit wif him and jus be wif him. but prob is theres no love.! asljkdnasndlandlnlsdflknadfglknadgndjlfng but i really miss the old times we had. during that period of time i told myself that i mus treasure every moment of it or i'll regret in the future. i did cherish those moments. but i still regret for not cherishing more of it!! oh god i feel like a retard. i really wana tell him how i feel. but now that we're on the rocks. i scared i might screw things up and we might on even be on the rocks. maybe the rock would even break into PIECES!



yeah u see me going boi crazy by saying "OMG THIS GUY SO CUTE. THIS GUY SO HANDSOME" ..i do that. to try to get him off my mind. my frens noe im not those type of boi crazy type. but nicholas was gd looking today. steffi mel and grace wana snatch him awawy from me! but i told them hes minE! haha.. but honestly.. nah im not interested inhim. coz my hrt might be taken already.. i told nicholas b4.. "eh..u v gd looking u noe.. but one sad thing is that im not attractedd to u. so sry." lol. pretty mean? XD kinda..



sometimes i hope u can see this. coz this is wad i really wana tell u. but i dun hav the guts to.. harfia.. u tink i got such courage? i tink it went missing. XD DO U NOE HOW FUKING MUCH I MISSED THE TIMES I HAD WIF U?



no love for no one. only HIM.
kalafilochi
OH GOD!