today.. i woke up at 6am. went skool myself. mom not in town. i managed to like take bus and mrt everything.. 1st time going to skool myself. then met amos along the way. he damn kan chiong man.. walk super fast. he was scared lata late. but hes abit tooo kanchiong liao. hahaha keep on rushing me.. >.< nah its ok. im fine wif that. once i reach skoool was damn hot la. coz i chiong until liddat. =/ den i went up to level 4. i look down and i saw him.. then i was tinking of the great and fun times we had yesterday.. den my mood was super high again la. keep smiling and cant stop luffing.

den i met him in the afternoon. i heard from eileen tat muthu shouted very loudly.. saying "I DUNO WHY KRYSTAL LIKES A FAT BASTARD LIKE U?!".. practically half of hes class and my previous class heard it. but i wasnt upset over that. i was jus damn embarrassed. i was upset the line b4 that. which was wad he said to muthu.. thats why muthu cannot tahan and shouted that. once again. muthu. im not angry. coz u did it to me b4.. remember zul's incident? yeah u can say im used to it already. den after i heard wad muthu said about wad he said about me. i went toilet and cry. it jus hurt me right in the heart. it wasnt anything mean but.. ok he said he tinks my fren is prettier than me. so for me. wad i tink is he was trying to say im ugly. so i was freaking sad la. so i cry la. cry until can fill up 10 bottles of those 1.5litres coke bottles. i cried during band break time. then i asked him if i could slap him. he obviously said no. but that period of time i really hated him alot. i hated him and i loved him. zzzzzzzz i nv ever felt liddat b4. i noe he'll nv like me but im jus simply happily wasting my time on him.. everytime he make me so so so so soooooooooo happie then nex day CFM make me super sad. although maybe alot of ppl noe who he is liao.. im still not gonna reveal his name.. coz YOU THE READER..duno. =] then he and a few other frens suppose to come my house to.play games. then in the end. one of hes frens din wana come. then he folo hes fren go. make mi wait for 20mins. then he turn around and said "eh i not going byebye" then he jus walk away.. this is like probably one of the worst day of this month for me. i was so freaking sick of everything that i took a cab home. i even cried in the cab. duno why i cry. duno why i so bloody weak. its like. i was nv like this. NEVER. at this pt of time the person i tink of 1st is my mom and my sis. REAL BLOOD ONE.. when i was crying in the toilet.. i suddenly miss them alot.. and was oso wonder wad my brothers were doing.. heard they are kinda suffering in melbourne.. haiz.

i wana forget him... but each time when i make that decision. i would fall for him even more. am i hopeless? no nid u to say. i oso noe. seriously.. i've nv seen such a foool in love b4. not jus any fool.. but the biggest foool in love. ( THATS ME =D ) nah im not proud of it. i jus wana treat him like normal fren. but i cant do it...... HOWWWWWW!!!!