KaLaCoCaCoLaFiLoChI SiMpLy rAwKxXxXxXx~!

2007-02-17T22:09:00.000+08:00

wow long time no blog. well i got back my O lvl results. im actually quite happy with my results. for r4, i got 18. to some ppl its bad. but to me, im satisfied. cos i expected to get 20 + at least for a r4. but its cool cos at least i can get into poly =)
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well havent not been going work lately. been rather lazy and stuff. and of cos playing overnight mahjong. yesterday was zul's birthday party. not really a party but a gathering. we went to lao ba sha to eat. oh my god can. i was wearing heels and stuff. cos i've never been to lao ba sha. so i duno how its like. i wear until like ..... so... .... .... i could have worn jeans instead. seriously.
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so it was at night. and we went pool after that. aw man so long never play. i so PAJIAO!!! keep on missing hahaa so paiseh. i tried to stop my classmate frm smoking. cos i noe he quit once, and only until Os den he start picking up again. i was actually happy to find out that he quit smoking cos. smoking is bad for health la like who doesnt noe. but as a fren. its just quite upset to see him smoking again. and i mean AGAIN. he put a cigarette on his mouth. i took it off his mouth lol. den i wanted to take his smoking box. i actually managed to obtain it. but we played pool. one game to determine if i were to return him the box or not. and yeah i lost. i returned him the pack unwillingly. just hope he would stop smoking. really dun wana see any of my frens taking the risk of shorting their lives.
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well its chinese new yr. i packed my room. found many sentimental value items in my room. wanted to just throw them all away. saw pictures which i took last time. pictures i took with kelvin, pictures i took wif my ex bfs, pics i took with my old old old old good mates. sometimes yeah i do miss those days. cos those were happy days too. looking at my class photo. i still can see the days when i was in school. wearing that purple skirt. my classmates would be like small children. playing with each other by hiding each other bags and stuff. yeah its very kiddish. but that is how joy came about and how frenship was being forged.
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i do miss schoool. i remember when i went back to school. i met some of the teachers whom i respected alot. like mr justin. and u might be shocked. but miss jo leong was one of the teachers i respect too. in fact i feel very grateful to her. she helped me alot along the way. altho shes well known for sarcasm and insulting ppl indirectly but she meant no harm. which teacher wouldnt want their students to do well. a forged frenship was formed in the midst as well. she encouraged me and really encouraged me the way no other teachers did. altho it was near the Os and time was running. its like when im drowning in the water. she saw me struggling to survive by kicking the waters. and she just reached out a hand to save me. lol sounds so drama rite? but tats how i feel. i feel in debt towards her. so when i saw her in school. i really gave her my appreciation and my thankfulness. cos she saved me. from a student who always get F9 for combined humans, i got a B4 for Os. amen. lol
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lots of love,
kala

2007-01-20T00:23:00.000+08:00

so its me again. i started work on Wednesday. @ my dad's office somewhere in Clementi. office girl is my job. and u noe what i do all day long? typing key codes into the com. guess what type of key codes?

yeah this type. and so.. i have abt.. ONLY 128pages to key into the com with at least 50 key codes on each page? WOW thats interesting. and not only that i have to do some shit like confirming wif dealer. "HELLO? U WANA BUY ONOT? GOING ONCE GOING TWICE.." lol nah kidding. but yeah. work is tough. and knowing that im Mr Kuah's daughter, some ppl treat me real nice. awww =) BUT HELLO? IM NOT BLIND. I NOE WHO ARE THE SINCERE ONES.

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so after mahjong i went to jieying's house to play mahjong. the place din really turn out as wad i expected it to be.......... a little messy here and there i guess. something was just not rite. maybe i guess it was my outfit.
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so i played mahjong till abt 1030pm. and i took a cab back. den in the cab i had a nice chat wif the uncle. he was praising me and stuff. i mean who doesnt like to be praised rite? ya but one thing freaks me out. he ask me whether i wana be his god daughter. at 1st i thought he was kidding so i said "aiya uncle dun play la" den he stop the car. and said in chinese "IM SERIOUS! I BE UR GOD FATHER OK?" den i din reply him. den he say "DO I LOOK OLD? OR NOT I CAN BE UR GOD BROTHER!" ................... WTF!!!!!! and the worse part is. he looks creepy! wtf! den when i got off the cab. HE DIN DRIVE AWAY. he was still there saying "byebye god daughter~!" ...... i was ringing the stupid bell and my MAID, I DIN NOE WHERE WAS SHE. she din open the gate. i ring and ring for at least a minute. finally stupid gate was open. walao. that taxi uncle was really a FREAKKKKKKKKK man.
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during work i was sick of typing stupid codes. and doing like transactions. so i decided to go online and go to some dayo website where i can get many of his pics =) and true enuff i manage to capture alot! BUT THERE WAS A PROBLEM! i couldnt save it in my email. some error kept pop-ing up! and so i asked harfia to come online so i can send her the file. and FUCK the office internet connection. it was so DAMN slow!! aw man. in 2hrs, only 3000kb of the file was sent. zzz so i've decided maybe tomorrow when i wake up i'll go funan and buy portable hard drive! hehehe if ppl were to find out that i was doing dayo-research during office hrs, it would probably ruin their impression of me cos now in office, im an angel. a hard working angel! HAHAHA no la angel, siao. z
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ok. time for BED. im an early bird now. cheers!
<3 dayooooo
kalaFILOCHI

2007-01-13T09:49:00.000+08:00

well, people have been asking me. who is dayo? who is dayo? so maybe here i am announcing to the "world". dayo is a hongkong actor/comedian. my "idol". =) yeah u can say im in love with him. u can say he is old and u can say im crazy but when u r really obsessed by something. all these words that people are giving you just goes in one ear and out at the other. so, dont try to persuade me to stop liking him or what. IT WONT WORK. a sneak preview of how he look like in the show which made me fell so in love with him lol.

and so yeah i did say i would stop blogging. but maybe now is the time where i start. cos my good frens have been asking me how have i been blah blah blah. im quite lazy to repeat the whole story over and over again and so i might as well open my blog again and jus let them read at their own leisure time? =) smart kala! haha nah.

alrite so after Os, what did i do? basically.. 5 things. eat, sleep, research on Dayo, watch more Dayo's shows and play mahjong. yeah no life hor? but im going to get a job soon maybe next week altho im not very keen on that. but money makes the world go round? and money makes me work too. so, im just being practical. go out until no more $$, how to have fun?

talking about Os. im really scared abt my results. well i really really hope i do well of cos, which idiot wouldnt wish for that? today my sister went back to Oxford to study. when she left i felt a little sadness in me. cos my sis and i we are pretty close. she would always disturbs me and i would always disturb her. its like when i sleep, i dun lock my door. she would come in and take picture of me sleeping, put it as my handphone wall paper. or otherwise she would take my soft toy powerpuff girl, bubbles. place Bubbles' big eyes on mine. yeah we love irritating each other but we do have fun together =) 6 months before i can see her again. maybe somewhere around in March i shld go over UK to find her ^^

during last yr's dec, i went to Melbourne to attend my brother's graduation and of cos, ROBBIE WILLIAMS' CONCERT! yeah i flew to melbourne to watch it. who ask him to cancel singapore's concert. but i dun tink he would have fun in singapore too cos singaporeans, when we are "audience" we are not as hiong as those ang mohs. so the concert was real good. i had the standing tickets. so i stood for 6hrs includding Que-ing. yeah i cut Que tho hehehe xD

well my grandmother(s) past away not long together. and so this yr i didnt really plan to celebrate xmas or countdown. steffi mel and myself wanted to host a party at my place. but some stuff screwed up so yeah. i was being played out like fuck and i stayed home for countdown with my sister. lol my sis was sick at that time too. poor thing she got her flu from ME! =D

well dont expect much frm this blog now. cos i will update but not as often as i used to. so.. yeah. now my timings are screwed. i sleep in the morning and wake up in the evening. i really feel fucked now. people actually thinks that i purposely dun wana answer their calls. i mean hello? im sleeping. so tired like a pig. how to answer? DUHZ. alrite no more for today. 10am and i havent sleep? WAD THE HELL IS HAPPENING TO ME!! nvm, tonight MAHJONG! PONG!

lots of love,
for dayo.

kala!

2006-07-28T14:35:00.000+08:00

hardly come online already. never thought i could actually not on my com for more than a week. it seems so hard last time. everyday must come online and play games blah blah. but now..? lol i realised tat i'd been wasting my time on com too much. yeah perhaps this is the last post. my blog will be dead. whether i revive it or not.. we'll see after O lvls exams finish. i'll work for sure. ya i quitted pt for gd. kinda possible last time rite? but nah i did. 1yr of game. fun. memories. sorrow. heartbreak. anger. all happened in a yr. but now? naaaaaaaah RL>VL. so.. good luck for Os. peace to everyone. and thks for the frequent visit to my blog. =) greatly appreciated.
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lots of love, as always.
kalafilochi

2006-07-10T22:09:00.000+08:00

sry but im too lazy to blog. for ur interest,

http://www.tigerlily-fifi.blogspot.com/

9th july 2006

2006-07-08T18:18:00.000+08:00

many things happened..
-eric kuah came back frm aussie to stay permantly
-he brought 4 dogs along to singapore wif him
-one of the dog is mine
-hes call max but he doesnt noe me at all zz
-i have a new hair cut :O
-im happier now xD
-im a nerd
-and i cant stand the world cup fever!
-and of cos. thierry henry is my god! go france! win the world cup for me xD kekekeke
-and maybe i'll stop pt. perhaps quit. still considering ^^
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been awhile since i've last blogged. im moving house soon i hope. in august. it was being delayed. my old house was under construction for one and a half yrs already. i'll get my own bed room hehe i remember i told dad

kala- "dad may i buy a new com?"
dad- *fierce look* "NO!"
kala- *looks else where to save embarrassment.*
dad- "now NOBODY USES COMPUTER. everyone uses LAPTOP!"
kala- *loooks at dad and start luffing*
dad- "u see wif a laptop, whole house has wireless ineternet prog. u can go garden and use. can use in toilet. can go living room blah blah ..."

its rather weird and funie for me cos i tot my dad wouldnt wana buy me a new com as i always play computergame and nth else. but he say NO buy LAPTOP! lol shld have taken a pic of hes face. it was funie.
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so theres 4 dogs in the house. paris, sheila, max and louie. louie was initially mine. hes a boy. a black male dog. but hes so boring. hes guai. but BORING. doesnt bark. doesnt wan u to sayang him. omg damn boring dog. so i complain complain and now i got max. but max. he doesnt noe me =( i tried to interact wif him. but CANT!! hais hes a hyper active dog. and paris is pregnant again. xD cos of louie's doing.. horny bastard zzzz
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remember i said abt melbourne? nah maybe i dun wana go anymore. i mean i'll have a new hse. new bed. new laptop. new everything to MYSELF. why shld i leave all this stuff and go to melbourne and suffer. i wun have a maid there =( so the idea of going melbourne kinda dropped already hehe
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18 next yr! den i can have my driving license!! hehe a pity i cant celebrate my birthday this yr cos its like 1 week b4 prelims. not much time. im still dreaming a lil. but not as much. frm a hardcore gamer to a studying nerd. its hard. trying to change. but on my way there xD who wouldnt wana do well. miss lim, my form teacher, spoke to me. abt my results and stuff.. #$&%#^^*$%#^@# i cant stand here. zzz always nag nag nag nag!
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i told shazana i gave her relationship 10months only. but well its like 8 months now. lol i feel like i always demoralise ppl. like how i demoralise shazana. everyday in school i would ask her "how? break up already?" lol evil rite? but she noe im jk. but having a bf might be gd. motivation to study. blah blah. shaz's bf gave her a HP. it was not even an occasion or anything. he just gave her >_< sweet rite? i envy her. tats when i realised lol i cant measure relationship lidat. 10 months? nah i tink they'll go for years hehe
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as for me? nth new. been rather sick.. not really sick but.. every morning now when i wake up, my tummy hurts. like mad.. duno why. most of the time i wake up cos of the pain. sucks tho
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i met harfia yesterday :) cos i noe ytd i would end like 1 period early. and i do feel bad cos during the whole june holiday i din go out wif her even tho i promised her. so i did ytd. we went to town. din really do much but we always enjoy each other's company. we would eat lunch together and tok. toktok tok toktokotkotkotkoktokotktok like nobody's business. i mean we so long nv really sit down and tok. so we had a heart to heart tok. me toking abt wads happening.. and she telling me her happenings too. altho we hardly call each other now. im still glad we're still have each other in our hearts ^^ thks harfia. and now i miss steffi and melissa =( my girlfrens hais!! hehe
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alrite im going off. just finish tuition. maybe going back to slp. im pretty tired. well take care everyone. will blog sometime soon ^^ cheers!
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wub adrian,
kalafilochi
(^(00)^)

2006-06-19T06:24:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=05G8xVKqffE

MY clay aiken.. btw..

watch the whole clip.

not the 1st guy.

the 2nd guy is my clayton aiken~

2006-06-12T06:08:00.000+08:00

finally, parents are coming back tml. its gd in a way.. but bad in a way too.. gd bcos i get to go french restaurant and eat with them! =D my fav <3
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heard my louie [my dog] is coming to singaproe by next monday. hehe i get to see my precious. u noe i nv handle a dog like tat b4. im always afraid tat dogs will bite me. but i'll give it a try. my lil precious louie ^^
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im bleeding on my hand.. some blade cut my skin and part of my flesh came out. it was like 1cm of length.. as in the wound.. might be small to u, but it's pain to me. lol i remember it couldnt bleed non stop.
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a few ppl ask me.. why havent i been blogging at all.. and why the way i blog now is so diff.. well.. i feel tat.. i dun really wana blog certain things like.. "went to this place.. den go this place.. den do this thing.." maybe on certain days when i feel tat i really had fun, i'll blog tat way again.. other than tat, no.
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during this period of time when my parents are not in singapore and my maid is not ard, steffi and mel came over to stay. i meant.. stayover at my place. i bought nail polish.. make up.. ya becoming more and more vain eh? lol love both of them so much. cos i noe no matter wad happens, the 3 of us.. we'll nv quarrel.. this is wad true frens are.. thks alot babes ^^
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sean, sean's brother, and mark.. they just left my house.. they came over for mahjong.. lol we bet money. i was losing heavily.. cos i so long nv play..kinda forgot in wad ways cannot game wad ways can game.. ya.. den my guy fren call me on my hp.. den they saw the name.. it was "steve" at 1st. den the 3 of them while playing mahjong wif me.. they keep shouting "WAAA KRYSTAL CANNOT CONCENTRATE STEVE CALL AGAIN STEVE CALL STEVE CALL! WEE-U-WEET STEVE SIA KRYSTAL!" they were like trying to make fun of me.. den.. i showed them the power of stevE! i gamed.. so many times after they kept disturbing me.. lol too bad those games were small.. not enuff to cover back my loss.. overall i still lose by abit xD
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its fine.. we were watching world cup also. sean's brother won $2k. wtf? zz he bet 1k... crazy fellow. he won on portugal match.. they came at 11pm.. play till 5am.. den they went off.. and now im alone in the living room.. typing my blog.. bcos im reinstalling my Pristontale. toking abt this game. FUCK IT! lol cos its like. i sit infront of the com like 7-8 hrs a day. training.. and some stupid hacker event caused me to lag badly and i died.. 3 times.. so tats like 2days of training.. was pretty fed up.. but not so fed up as to throw my com out of the window. inside me i felt quite.. speechless.. but physically i din do anything. i look out of the window and my fone rang. and just nice. i complain to my game mate lol
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but nah tis ok. getting my char to the lvl i wan.. is hard.. but i'll try my best. if i cant then.. nvm.. ^^ i wana work. iw ana find a job. i wana earn $$..... how? where cna i get a job? jus a part time. how ?
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abt 10hrs more b4 i leave hse to meet mommie and daddie.. i wana do alot of things.. but i feel like something is restricting me..
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and u noe what upsets me the most? altho we're frens.. u're just pretending to be someone else.. someone whom u're not. why cant u just be urself? maybe what happened to u is probably my causing.. i jus dun wan u to restrict urself from others jus bcos one of our frens did the same and u wanalearn hes pattern now .. have u ever tink abt it.. even if u restricted urself from us.. what for? whats the purpose? would u be happier being alone? ....really me i pity u. and i feel sad for u. but if u ask me to do something abt it. as in to motivate u to join us like how u used to.. i got 2 words for u.. fuck u LOL.
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sry for being mean. im tat ruthless if u wana play games wif me like tat.
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mean evil kala

2006-06-04T03:29:00.000+08:00

to thank my family.
because if they werent overseas. i wouldnt have the feel of living alone and be happy tat im a fortunate girl.
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to thank this fren
for giving me the ride of my life. and for clearing the small miscommunication tat we had.
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to thank steffi and mel
for teaching me to be more vain and i just feel so crazy whenever they are ard me xD
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to thank harfia
bcos i noe she'll always be there for me <3
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to thank my clannies
for having fun wif me in SOD or in RL. w/e it is. k box. bowling. movie. supper. we always had fun. it would nv be boring ^^
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to thank my classmates
for bring so much laughter tat i wan to go to school more often. but i hardly go cos im jus tired. kekeke sry!
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to thank my dad
for giving me things tat i wanted and needed. yeah im a spoilt brat. but i learn how to control myself. thks for doing such a wonderful job, daddy =)
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to thank my mom
for being there for me when im down. shes not just a mom, shes a fren too. love u lots
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to thank my sister (SERA PENIS.)
for "teng"ing me so much and always calls me on the fone in the morning just to disturb me from my slp. yes its annoying but at least im glad. bcos altho shes in america im in sg. i still have a place in her heart. im not forgotten =p
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to thank my brother [alvin]
for teaching me tat theres more to life. i become so sensible now is bcos of him. hes so "dong shi" tat it inspired me in a way. thks bro!
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to thank my other brother [eric]
for showing me tat education is not everything. if u got the talent. yes tats everything ^^ gl bro!
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and lastly. to thank everyone ard me.
bcos, wifout u guys i wouldnt be here. i wouldnt be who i am. thks for the fun. thks for the laughter and thks for the tears. each step i take i will learn how to be a wiser person and a sensible one. LOL i sound like as if i won an award rite? giving out my thk u speeches LOL but seriously, thk u all <3
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Yours Faithfully,
kalafilochi

2006-05-13T18:29:00.000+08:00

i suddenly remember i had a tok wif LUMLUM tat day.. she asked me.. "why kind of guys u like ah? how come all the guys u like.. i dun see any pattern one!" lol.. cute isnt she? yeah shes my "daughter". felt quite bad neglecting her recently. but i had to, cos i myself wasnt in a gd mood to cheer ppl up. u can say mood swing? or u can say.. im pretty lost. lol
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i told her. the type of guys i like? hmmm doesnt hav to be handsome. as long as can click wif me. but not like those who boils my blood all day long. cos im a type of person -> if u dun tok to me, i wun tok to u. so i need a guy to be chatty. and not breaking out cold jokes or wad. and like every other girl, i wan a guy to care for me and love me. she asked if i like anyone now. i told her.. like? ya i like a guy.. no no not like. but interested? maybe.. but i dun even tok to tat way LOL. in my whole life. perhaps i only spoke to him like.. 7sentences only?
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tats why i cant say like. only interested. whenever i see him i get all excited. will start blushing and try to control myself. i caught myself trying to peep at him but i told myself NO. DO NOT DO TAT! lol.. i guess harfia noe who it is. she saw tat guy. and she said "not bad." lol. but i guess i shld not tink much. cos in case if i leave for melbourne, it'll be more painful. and the thought of sarah being my room-mate would be worse. RIGHT RAHRAH? lol
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cheers. going out now to celebrate my aunt's baby's 1st month. and maybe going k box wif LT clan later. but tonite got FA cup =(((((((
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pardon me if i sound so "bao zhao" this few days. or perhaps few weeks. maybe its exam stress..
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kalafilochi => KaLaCoCaCoLa

2006-05-12T18:21:00.000+08:00

and suddenly, the thought of going to Melbourne to further my studies seem to be fading off my mind.. why is this so..? do i really want to go? or i just want to get my ass out of Singapore? what will happen to my house? what will happen to my Louie? and what will happen if i were to go to a new environment all alone.? what if i took drugs..? what if i sit on my bed in the middle of the night, hugging my knees and start crying? so many questions, i just cant seem to find any answers to satisfy myself.

2006-05-06T23:55:00.000+08:00

was sick.. so slpt early ytd. abt 9pm i slp le. den i woke up at 6am. i realised its too early. so i toss and turn and finally got to slp. and guess wad? wtf i still can slp until 11am den wake up -.- den was suppose to cook for my mom. cos it was her birthday 2days ago. couldnt really celebrate wif her. so i told her today i'll cook for her. but i din say i would cook for daddy. and i din noe why he was oso includded. but nvm. i'll cook! but.. daddy had to go golf at 1120am. den mommie say nvm cook tml. i was disappointed and upset over myself for being such a pig. zz i was really v upset.
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hmmm den i had tuition at 1pm. den shamus msged me and asked if i wanted to watch MI3. i was ok lo anything xD den i asked him to organise.. and i called fifi.. cos we havent been meeting for an extremely long time. so i tot we could meet awhile today.! so i was in my room taking my own sweet time preparing. cos my room clock was an hr slow. so as my com clock. so i tot i was still early. taking my own sweeet time. until i received a msg frlom her. she said "take ur time, im only at clementi" i was like hmm.. why is she so early? den i saw my hp timing. fuk it was 5pm ZZZ so i rushed. and only managed to reach there at 6pm =( din get to spend much time wif her cos movie was at 7pm.
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we had a wonderful dinner together at deli. xD i told her abt this v hot guy i met. den we kept tokin abt him. i mean she saw him duh. den i told her "stop tokin abt him otherwise i'll jus start blushing for no apparent reason." hahahah my cheeks have some prob. it blushes like every 10mins. zzz sometimes its so red tat i could feel the heat! hehe although we had short time together, it was fun =) really it was. i enjoyed every single moment of it. i hope u did too fifi! i hugged her tightly b4 she left. tats how much i love her! kakakaka
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den we watch movie.... mission impossible 3. hmm my clan mates were there. most of them. ya.. den watching the show halfway. i felt weird. something stucked at my chest. i knew i was going to vomit. somemore i was quite near to the screen. and the sound effect. like the show is mission impossible 3, 99% of the show was having those kanchiong sound effect. and plus there was a smell .............. dun ask me to elaborate on the smell. zzz ya. fuk lo. feeling was so horrible. i even use the F word. i hardly swear now leh. hais! ya i left the cinema twice. the 1st time i went toilet. i couldnt get anything out. but i felt better. so i went back cinema. but i smelt the smell again. fuk. i knew if i would to sit another minute. i would vomit. so i chiong to the toilet. the moment i step out of the cinema. it was a slope going downwards. i couldnt take it, i vomitted there. fuk. zzz i felt so bad. i tell the usher im so sry. den she was so nice, she saw me loooking so pale. she bring me to the toilet. and i continue my vomitting there. she bought me water somemore. xD so nice hor.
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den i was tinking. nvm la i dun wana go back to the cinema liao. the show was going to end. so i went down stairs and buy coke and drink. imagine.! my face, always rosy rosy de. tmd tat period of time my face ji tao yellow colour! i look in the mirror walao had the shock of my life. i looked like a corpse! tmdmtmdtmd &@#%^@#@ hahaha but after tat i felt so much better =o
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den went wif the gang to near by hawker to eat but i din eat. couldnt eat. no mood. hahah den i took train home. wif some of them.. ya. this guy call shamus! hes brother, justin, was wearing his barcelona's jersey! basket hes home still got arsenal jersey >_> i wan! kakaka but v ex. zz but i like the maroon one. hehe thierry henry wear. wooo so handsome! i shall get 1 of tat maroon jersey. wif henry (14) logo at the back KAKAKAKA
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omg my henry =* ya den it was raining cats and dogs. my maid called and asked if i needed umbrella. i said ya! so she came to the busstop and wait for me. hehe not bad i got home dry. but i was wearing high heels. and i keep slipping.. so while crossing the road, i took off my heels. yes i walked home bare footed! kakakaka my maid was luffing at me. i gave her the >___> look hahah but it was fun. walk along the pathways. along the road. kakakkaa but i had a small cut at my feet. quite pain.. but the whole walk was like walking on stones. like massage lidat kakaka
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den when i got home. i couldnt on the com. i had the shock of my life. cos it was like less than a yr tat i bought a new hard drive. cos my hard drive burst. abt 7months like tat. den i tot my com hard drive burst again. if it does, my mom would scold me. my dad would kill me. cos its my dad's com. i havent got my own com.. YET =( ya. den i took out everything in the pc and place it back. TADAAAAAAA! it worked again! kakakaka so happy. den came online and blogggggggg.. hais. hope i dun get sick so often. even now im having a headache zzz
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and YESTERDAY. got this guy msg me.
he said hi hows ur evening? are u slpping?
i said hi u r?
he said im steven.. and u r?
i said hmmm im krystal.. hmmm why are u asking how am i when u dun even noe me? o.O
he say he got my number thru a bus.
i was like WTF? i said. wad bus?
he said bus 31.
i said. honey, u're lying =)
den he said really..why would i lie?
den i said hmmm ok.. so wads up?
den he said nth much, wads ur age and where u stay?
den i said clementi, 28yrs this yr.
den he said married??
den i said yes wif 2 children. aged 2 and 4.
den he said ok nice tokin to u. byebye.
LOL? HAHAHHA i was luffing at the moment he said nice tokin to u. byebye. hahaha mus b bcos i said i got children and married. den he dun wana cheehong liao hahahaha den i luff luff luff, den i fall aslp. tired xD
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ok la i stop here. now oso tired liao hahahah xD hehee take care ppl.!
lots of love,
kalafilochi XD

2006-04-30T11:52:00.000+08:00

maybe, things are alrite now. theres actually no problem between us. but its bcos of other ppl and tats why it some how affected our frenship. while we had the talk. i found it v stupid. cos many things i already knew. but he tot i was ignorant. but it doesnt matter. i dun wana argue whos rite or whos wrong to avoid who and who or stuff. so i guess we're alrites now. lets put all the sour memories aside and start anew happy joyful frenship =)

2006-04-28T13:37:00.000+08:00

...yes once again im here, speechless.. remember there was one time. i was tokin abt a fren. who made me real upset. well.. i've seen tat fren wif my group of frens as well. the group of frens din noe we werent on toking terms. yes each time i tok abt tat fren. i would feel sad, and perhaps cry. but i was so sick of crying tat i told myself i shld stop. cos he doesnt fuk care me. lol.. so when i saw him during certain outing. i duno why, but certain anger and hatred grew in me..so i guess i now hate him for making me feel so low and so weak last time.
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yes i wanted things to be settled. i tried to approach to him and speak and stuff. but things failed. instead of raising up high hopes, my morale dropped to the bottom of the ocean. i was lost for a certain period. and hes not my bf. only a fren. a fren whom i cherish quite lots. lol im so weak. even a fren can bring me down.
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i din go school today. cos was pretty tired. i got used to life being wifout him, being happy. dun worry tat guy is not kelvin lol. ya being happy wifout even tinking abt him. and den i receive an email from him. jus this morning at 6am. he said its abt time tat he shld tell me more abt wad happened in the past. he wanted to meet me up in person to speak. for tat moment. i froze. tears jus started flowing like how it is flowing now. i hate him dont i? why am i crying? why am i feeling like this. im really confused as to meet him or not. bcos.. when he wasnt in the mood to get things rite wif me, he hurt me. but when hes in the mood to get things rite, den he come looking for me.
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but as far as i noe.. even if this is solved. things would nv be the same again. we wouldnt have the fun we used to have. i've been trying to avoiding meeting him and the rest of the gang. tats why recently when they ask me out, i would most of the time say no. for a moment like now, im lost. to meet him just bcos he wana clear things out? wad abt the pain i went thru. whos going to make it up for me? if u ask me if i hate him, no i dun. but i dun undersatnd why tat day when i met him, i felt anger.
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but i noe. if i go to aussie next yr. or the for rest of my life, there would be a burden on my head. a burden tat is not solved. which is this frenship. i dun wana carry this weight of burden for the rest of my life, but.. lol i dun tink he would tink much of this as a weight of burden as i wasnt tat impt to him. i was just a fren. but he din noe tat i treated him like an impt fren. a person whom i respect and the person perhaps i see upon. all im afraid is tat.. when i meet him, wad if i start crying.. zzzzzzzz
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once bitten twice shy,
kalafilochi.

2006-04-26T18:48:00.000+08:00

24th april

i was eating chewing gum in class. and i ate Cheezes along as well. i duno how. but the cheezes "dissolved" the chewing gum. making the gum's particles so small tat i cant even feel which part of my mouth its at. AND DEN. i spit out the larger portion. and the rest.. i swallow my saliva.. and.. yes its stucked at my throat. zzz zul was luffing at me. i ask him HOWWW I DUN WANA DIE!! den he ask me drink hot waterr. i reached home. from 230pm - 530pm drink hot water. my maid boil and boil and boil. i pee and pee and pee. STUPID. the thing still stucked there. give up. if i must die, FINE i will.!

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i called the agent just now. an agent which will like.. help me in my applications to study overseas? lol yes.. i might go melbourne to study. i noe i used to say "NO WAY. IM STAYING IN SINGAPORE NO MATTER WAD." but now. lol look at me. im like dying to go over. cos.. if i were to go there. i would do 1 yr of foundation + 3yrs of uni = 4yrs of education. if i stay in singapore. 3yrs of poly + 3yrs of uni = 6yrs of education. so.. if u were me. which would u choose? xD
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ya the agent.. i tot of going over after my Os. but no. the agent spoke to me. and since i wun be taking life sciences in future, i would take mathematics! and now im taking single maths. not double maths. so he said i shld go over like somewhere ard NOW and join their term 2 grade 11. and studying double maths of cos. ya.. means now. IMAGINE! i pack my luggage now and leave next week! OMG U WONT BE SEEING ME FOR YRS! NOOOOOOOOOOO =(
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but of cos i would come back to do visiting xD well. maybe going over is a gd thing. a test of frenship! true frens would stay in contact wif u. i would go and return to see who are the true frens who really keep contact wif me. cos when they do tat. they are sincere. xD
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COME ON BABY JUST PUMP IT! LOUDEEEEEERRRRRRRR!

2006-04-21T19:57:00.000+08:00

where'd you go? i miss you so.. seems like its been forever.. that you've been gone... where'd you go?? i miss you soooo.... seems like its been forever.. tat u've been gone.. pls come back home =/

wad a day. i met steffi! hehehe i met her to buy some pressie for melissa. love my girlfrens hehehe but steffi was late, as usual. den when i was sitting at Mac, i saw Shi Yun! and she reminded me of Harfia.. and i realised tat i've not been meeting Harfia for a long time and as her fren, i noe her situation in MI and i din even bother to ask. how lousy can i get as a fren? zzz i shall call her later and make sure shes fine. xD den not long later steffi tat bitch. she came. zz make me wait for half an hr.

she din believe the change in me. bringing books home to revise, not taking cabs and saving up money.. lol she din buy my story. but its true. im cutting down budgets now. cos im in debt. but nvm. i need time. xD den i call bie. cos i knew he was somewhere in bugis oso. so i met him. lol he tok to steffi on the fone b4. steffi said he like chao ah beng. i look up look down look left look rite. tmd he still look like a gay. HAHAHAHA no la kidding. oro didi DONT SAD!

den we walk walk.. did we? i forgot.. den they both quite funie la. IDIOT SIA! both of them met each other for the 1st time. they got the "mo qi" sia. u noe why? basket both team up attack me >_> even my so called GIRLFREN oso nv help me. rather side an idiot whom she just tok on the fone once than side ME. waa damn hurt. =(

nvm. i went home wif her tho. ya lo. now reached home. sooo tired.. alot of things happened nowadays. like one of the example. Austin, my classmate actually fight in class? with another sec 3 guy. both abt same size. i tot austin would run away b4 the fight start. but wa he really turn up. really wu ji! den he fight woo woo! my class was flooded wif so many ppl. den the teacher came!! den i pretend to sit down and do hw. den my frens pretend to arrange tables and chairs blah blah. hahaha v funie the way all of us reacted.

heheh the day b4 chem test. i was really tired so i slpt. the whole day. den the nex day like 4hrs b4 the test. waaa i take out my book as and when i can. i faster study and look thru. din wana fail.. last minute revision. somemore i knew nth on tat chap. den Zul. basket he half an hr b4 the test ask me to teach him -.- so i took my book and made him memorised by testing him over and over again. and in the end? LOL we passed!! he got 18/35! i got 24/35! xD not bad la. B3 hehehe

ok la i stop blogging for now. tired and my fav show going to start in 7mins time! HEHEHE everyone has lil secrets. so.. its not a crime for me to hvae my lil secrets too rite?? xD ytd was a sucky day. everything din go well. but i thk god i touched down at my house early. things got better xD OKKK ENUFF STOP!

lots of love,

KaLaCoCaCoLaFiLoChI~

2006-04-16T12:10:00.000+08:00

just like wad i've predicted, ultimately u r no different from the other guys. all men are just the same. wad happened a few weeks back and look now. y always lidat? dun give assurence to something which to something which u r not sure of. cos im sick of false hopes and fake promises =)))))
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14th april
well hi! XD pretty long nv blog le. almost a week. well many things happen everyday. i always blog abt it. but when im here. my mind would be blank, or i cant be bother to type. i gained weight zzzzzzzzz today's my grandma's 86th bday. i mean wtf la. walao she 86 leh. my game character only lvl 81. not even 86 -.- LOL we made it grand this yr. cos she.. shes not young anymore. when i was lil.. i was her favourite grand child. always spent time wif her whenever my mom brought me over to do visiting. i would sit down and watch the tv wif my ah ma.. although i was very young. i could speak gd chinese.. could really communicate wif her. she toks to me in hokkien. but i reply in chinese hehe. my hokkien pok ma.. bo bian T_T but if shes gone.. i would really b v sad. most prob will cry. like duh -.- okk dun tok abt sad stuff.
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hmmm today went in PT for quite awhile. den i went to bathe, watch tv. and went out for the dinner at Regent Hotel. it was my ah ma's birthday dinner lo. heheh met all my crappy cousins. kekeke they all blame me for not organising cousin outing. macham my fault lidat >_< hehe den they form Idiot Club. den Athena is the head. im the vice. SMLJ RITE? kekkeke den we did many idiot actions. like we actually wanted to go round all the tables to make a toss. YAMMM SENGG!! tat thing u noe. so we went over the main table which my ah ma was sitting. we stood behind each person who was sitting on the table. den we started yam seng! when we YAM, we din noe when to stop LOL den we all look at each other and do eye brow signals. alot of craps happened la. but cant really remember.
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today
and just ytd. thee supposingly chair man of the idiot club called me. ask me organise. den i say i duno i duno. den she say im a lousy chair man. sia la when i become the chairman -.- i realised my cousins and me myself are getting more and more and much more lamer hehehe its a bad thing eh?
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i got to meet one of the person i've been longing to meet for a long time. got to noe the person thru net though. was v happy when i saw her. cos i treated her like a sister heheh although it was the 1st time i meet her. AHEM of cos i shy maaa XD but too bad tat day's outing was short. cos it was weekday. and i had to go home. and i ended late in school.
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ok la. throw away bad memories. and look forward to all the brightness and happiness. no point crying over stuff which wouldnt happen riteee! towards any r/s or towards some frens who i dun tok anymore. or shall i say we are having "cold war" ? w/e it is. this ppl cant bring me down anymore. cos instead of feeling sad, i felt hatred growing in me. kekekke
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*ps* i gave eric (who self proclaim he is my oro didi altho he was older than me -.-) since hes my didi, i shld dote him rite? so i gave him ballooN! kekeke he bring home. but the next day he wake up. the balloon gone. =( HAIZ THIS IS HOW MUCH U APPRECIATE MY LOVE CARE AND CONCERN FOR U. HAIZ ORO DIDI HAIZ
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filochi oro?
im happy =)

2006-04-09T05:05:00.000+08:00

today i went out to.. the atrium to celebrate aunt's birthday. shes 50 already xD so long nv tok to her. in fact i went cos of her sake. other than tat. i would rather stay at home and slp. den after tat. i went out wif bieeeee! we watched ice age 2. den we went to meet karay for dinner. hehee at toa payoh. at kou fu. knn i eat tat lanjiao Donna. i tio tummy pain again ZZ i swear i'll nv touch donna. ever again! den after tat we were sooo sian. we went to karay's hse. cos nearby ma. so sian until we resorted to playing monopoly. but u noe wad. I ENJOYED EVERY MOMENT OF IT XD they din! u noe why? cos i own this purple colour street. den they step step. keep paying my houses and hotels. den karay declare bankrupt! bie gave up LOL den went back. home. fast short day rite? but it seemed so long to me. zzzzz
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came home come online. actually i dun wana blog one. cos today's entry like nth much. but quite a number of ppl ask me to update blog. so i do it for the sake of it lo. haiz so many things are happening. i mean not on me but my frens. sometimes money really can bring out the ugly side of a person? nvm dun tok abt it. i din expect things to blew out tat big.
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i dun hav any problems now. but recently i keep having flashbacks of some stuff which happen not so long ago. like tat period of time. when i got so upset over a fren to the extent tat i cant stop crying. and din go skool for a day? well perhaps i din mention tat in my blog. bcos i couldnt. nobody must know wad happened. i dun feel ashamed letting ppl noe i cried. but i jus wanted to avoid another trouble if that was not known.
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a strong girl. who is so fierce on the outside. but weak in the inside. tats her weakkess point. she cared too much. she expected stuff. she din get it. nvm its ok. but the thing she expected was like.. EXAMPLE. getting 80 marks for test. den in the end u noe wad she got? a 10 marks. for a 100mark test. its an example. the thing im refering to is a frenship. now im not even tokin to tat fellow. not bcos we purposely avoid each other. but bcos i ruined everything. sometimes i envy her. cos she got the "love" frm him. although she is not on the right track recently. but hes "love" for her. was wad i wanted. not those relationship love. but. hais. dun tok abt it.

2006-04-08T02:22:00.000+08:00

i always open the blogger page. and i always wana type something. but in the end. i would end up watching soccer or soemthign else. lol. anyways. THIS SUNDAY. MAN U VS ARSENAL. well i noe man u is gonna win. but i still hope arsenal do their best. =) i love arsenal! and maybe. i waana get their jersey too! kekeke thierry henry!! my hubby! kakakaka

2006-03-30T20:02:00.000+08:00

many things have been happening recently, but i choosed to be ignorant. why? cause i know sometimes it hurts to know the truth. the things im refering to are actually things that are not concerning me, but it concerns with the people who are close to me. i dont wanna get affected by a little bit of detail or something of that person because i dun wanna be brainwashed for no reason. its not fair to my close frens.
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if you got things to tell me, yeah i would listen. but dont ask me to comment. if you do realise, im doing all i can to avoid you already. WHY do u jus like pulling me back into all this troubles? im not like last time anymore. i just wan no troubles now. i treasure everything i have now. unlike u. i dun wana waste my life away like how i did when u INVITED me. im sick sick sick of all these bullshits. and this bullshits doesnt get me to anywhere. it only cause me to fall fall and FALL.
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and now u make me dun feel like continuing my entry. ZZZ

2006-03-28T18:55:00.000+08:00

i nv expected myself to be such a pig. i slp from 6pm. and i woke up at 640am. and guess wad. i overslept. i din wake up at my usual time somemore. tmd how i slp one zz
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jus came home. i tink the swensens ppl at holland V noe me and yu yeng liao. last thursday we went once. ytd we went. and today we oso went -.- she la. excited over NOTHING. ice cream only. she so excited. zzz den in bus. i call him LUM LUM she ignore me. so i say OI THE ONE IN PURPLE SKIRT. waaa she no where to hide her face kakakaka. today we went wif shaz. teeheehee!
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after that, since krystal was late, me and fishy acc her outside the HOD rm.haha and we saw this little boy we like to disturb.then i think he got traumatised by us. he jus turned to another side.haha so we decided to stop it. :)

haha i stole tat from shazana's blog. the lil boy ah. waaaa hes eyes v nice leh!!! but not as nice as Humaid's eyes xD hehe TAT SMALL BOY V V V V V CUTE. i tink he mix blood. i tot he guai guai type. BUT KNN he is those notti ones. zzz ji tao spoil my mood cos i tot he guai guai wana disturb. if he notti den not fun liao

nicholas, a very greedy class mate of mine. tall tall one. can FLY one. he saw Zul putting some biscuits on the table, eating. den teacher came in. Zul speeded up hes eating process. den nicholas saw, he smile and flew over to Zul, saying "nothing to fear! nicholas is here. the more we eat, the more we clear!" den he started taking zul's biscuits and eat. zzz den zul was like NOOO! hahha both of them v funnie.!
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i duno why today my blog entry got no head no tail one. like all over the place. ok let me tell u a story of A B C D E F G H I. ok? A and C like B at the same time. den after tat C went MIA for awhile. den A and B got together. den C like D. LOL den E is actually extra. HAHAHA den B and F were actually close frens cos they crap so much together. den F somehow avoided B bcos of G and H. zz DEN. omg whos I .. i forgot whos I. but i noe got Uncle Z. he is the producer of this whole film! kakakaka aiya i say lidat u wun undersatnd bcos.. only B, C and uncle Z would understand xD HOR C? KAKAKAKAKA aiya sry la im too bored. erm. dun read this entry. go watch v for vendetta den come back and read my entry =x
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ARSENAL TONITE! i go slp now. den wake up at 230am and watch soccer wif SHAMOOOOOSQUITO! kakakaa GO ARSENAL GOOOO! i remember my classmate. i was tokin to a girl in class. den he extra extra come and say "ehhh wad u all tokin abt! i wana join in the conversation!" so excited over nth. but u noe wad i did? i said "GO AWAY LAR U SORE EYER." cos he was having sore eye. everyone ard knew i was joking. all luffed. den after a few seconds i say no la joking la kakaka. den he say "fuck off lar!" den he walk away. to me.. it looked like. he asked me to fuck off. but he himself walk away. so it looked like he asked himself to fuck off. =x
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JI DAN. STOP CALLING ME TURTLE HOR. ENOUGH AH. zzzzzzz ok i go slp le. I WANA WATCH ARSENAL TONITE! YEAH YEAH YEAH!
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lots of MUACK!
filochi oro? kala ^^

2006-03-27T17:14:00.000+08:00

hi! HAVE U WATCH V FOR VENDETTA? IF NOT PLS PRESS ALT + F4. i dun tok to morons who doesnt watch tat show! =x kakaka im not forcing lar. but the show is really fuking nice lar. i bluff u no $ take one. really =)
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i received a call from a fren tat day. give tat fren a name. M ok? =) ok M is my ex's best fren. i dun like my ex. zz den i was tokin to M. the main topic was on my ex lar. my ex was a v horrible + bad boyfren.
so M was like telling me
"kala u noe actually.. he've changed already.."
den i tot. woot? my ex changed to a better person?
"he changed to a worse person..."
....... i was like wtf? zz
"now got any girl EATABLE, he'll jsut eat. like now the girl near him. he say b4 they got together, he eat her liao."
... i was like WTF? wad a bastard he have become. den M was like asking me if i shld tell M certain stuff which maybe my ex and i kept to each other and nv tell M. i tink tink tink. den i say "he is a bad kisser." LOL M ji tao sian. hahah M was like saying my ex was like bragging like as if he was so gd wif r/s blah blah blah. i was like huh? no,bullshit. hes bad at all!
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M is a funnie guy. so long nv tok to him liao! i know him for actually pretty long. den we couldnt tok long cos he needed to pack hes stuff and go back camp! HAHAHHAHA so many ppl in NS now kakakaka! so we hang up loh. den at nite. i WATCHED MAN U MATCH!
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stupid alvin korkor of mine. hes studying in melbourne now. and hes tv dun have the channel for man u match. so u noe wad tat smart ass do? he ask me webcam conf the whole match let him watch . zzz cheebye kia! den man U won lar. the goal keeper of the opp team so sotong. he managed to save the ball. but the ball hit the post of the goal. den hit hes own head. den own goal LOL i watch liao i luff till my dad off tv awhile. den i was like wtf?! ahhaha he say i watch tv so noisy. still do so many stuff like web cam all this. he scold me for nth zzzz
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oh sports day was last friday. i wore centaur. 1st time i nv wear unicorn. centaur sure win lol. the ppl run run run. run as if its like nth lidat. siao ppl. Mr Maun. duno how to spell lar. knn i din noe he can chiong so fast. i see liao my eyes open bigbig. den u noe other students need to sit at the giant steps there. i nv sit. u noe where i sit? teachers had chair to sit. the VP invited me to sit at the chairs wif the teachers =) KAKAKKAKA den the centaur teacher and miss reena come kp me ask me get off the chair. den i say VP ASK ME SIT HRE ONE. den hahaha the look on their face. ji tao tio owned. SILENT! kakakaka nth beta to do c0me kp me. limbei not free for u ah xD
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aiya tmd mai blog liao la. u better go watch v for vendetta if not i no tok to u =p
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ORO DA DA

2006-03-21T16:50:00.000+08:00

Wu yun zai wo men xin li

ge xia yi kuai yin ying

Wo ling ting chen ji yi jiu de xin qing

Qing xi tou ming

Jiu xiang mei li de feng jing

Zong zai hui yi li cai kan de qing

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Bei shang tou de xin

neng bu neng gou ji xu ai wo?

Wo yong li qian qi mei wen du

de shuang shou

Guo wang wen rou

yi jing bei shi jian shang suo

Zhi sheng hui san bu qu de nan guo

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Huan huan piao luo de feng

ye xiang si nian

Wo dian ran zhu huo

wen nuan sui mo de qiao tian

Ji guang lue duo tian bian

Bei feng lue guo xiang ni de rong yan

Wo ba ai shao cheng le luo ye

Que huan bu hui shang xi de na zhang lian

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Huan huan piao luo de feng

ye xiang si nian

Wei he huan hui yao gan

zai dong tian lai zhi qian

Ai ni chuan yue shi jian

Liang hen lai zi qiu mo de yan lei

Rang ai shen tou le di mian

Wo yao de zhi shi ni zai wo shen bian

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Bei shang tou de xin

neng bu neng gou ji xu ai wo?

Wo yong li quan qi mei wen du

de shuang shou

Guo wang wen rou

yi jing bei shi jian shang suo

Zhi sheng hui san bu qu de nan guo

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Zai shan yao jian piao yi de hong yu

Sui zhe bei feng diao ling

Wo qing qing yao ye feng ling

Xiang huan xing bei yi wang de ai qing

Xue hua yi pu man le di

Shen pa chuang wai feng ye

yi jie cheng bing

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Huan huan piao luo de feng

ye xiang si nian

Wo dian ran zhu huo

wen nuan sui mo de qiao tian

Ji guang lue duo tian bian

Bei feng lue guo xiang ni de rong yan

Wo ba ai shao cheng le luo ye

Que huan bu hui shu xi

de na zhang lian

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Huan huan piao luo

de feng ye xiang si nian

Wei he huan hui yao gan

zai dong tian lai zhi qian

Ai ni chuan yue shi jian

Liang hang lai zi qiu mo de yan lei

Rang ai shen tou le di mian

Wo yao de zhi shi ni zai wo shen bian
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been listening to chinese songs lately. this song, is by jay zhou. NICEEE XD i like kekeke! recently i've been a happier person. cos i remember a few nights back. i was sobbing on the fone. haha like a typical normal girl would do rite. regret this regret tat. i cried for abt half an hr only. den i felt so sian. i suddenly like wake up. i told my fren "AIYA tmd i dun wana cry anymore. so sian. cry over the same damn thing for fuk. ppl now slpping and i down here crying for him. wtf wtf wtf." hahaha i felt dumb. sad? ya of cos. but i wun cry over it again. xD so recently.. i've been pretty mad! kakaka

my fren tok on thefone last nite oso. den i ki siao. keep singing out of tune song. keep playing Black Eyed Peas - PUMP IT! hahahah den i keep saying "PUMP IT ! AHHHHHH! JUST PUMP IT AHHHH!!!" kakakaka my fren. he was playing game wif me at the moment. he ji tao tio diam-ed. i silent him ^^ HEHEHE even in skool. ppl start calling me siao char boh again. EDWARD. CALL ME AH SIAO zzzzz si edward. BUT HE SO CUTE. HE SOOO CHUBBBY SOO CUTEEEEEE *pinch edward*!

LUM LUM XD hehhee she hates me calling her LUM LUM. ytd i wanted to go home straight after DNT class. so i was walking wif zul. cos we can take bus from same busstop. so we walked together. den hahaha LUMMY call. i put her on loud speaker. she din noe. she was like "LILY! HOW CAN U LEAVE ME ALONE LIDAT! u noe u give me high hopes i tot u upstairs waiting for me! BUT WHEN I REACH CLASSROOM. ur bag was gone and i was like NUUUU!! now u make me so sad. bu yao zhou! bu yao ma bu yao zhou!" hahaha she say in those poor thing voice somemore. kakaka i hear liao i luff. zul hear liao oso luff! hahaha den i tell her ok i come back skool and meet her. den she hahahah from 6th floor when she saw me. she shout KRYSTAL!! i was like yes yes *waves* kakaka

so i dragged her to holland village and eat swensens wif me. ice cream was nice =) den my mother oso couldnt stop calling. CALL CALL CALL. saya buay tahan! den lum lum took bus wif me. i waited certain buses wif her cos she wanted to go clementi interchange to go home. so we took i tink bus 7. den we were toking joking everything. v funie. den b4 i left. i was standing at the stairs there. we still had eye contact. den i shout loud loud across the bus. "LUM LUM!! BYEBYE!!" she look at me wif the "omg so paiseh why u call me lum lum! yuck!" face. hahahaha in frnt of so many ppl. i purposely wana make her paiseh cos anyways i was getting off the bus HAHAHA =X

evil rite? abit lar. today oso same thing. dnt lesson over. den we met downstairs. but today she tio kan by teachers. many teachers. she damn poor thing and sway lar. but bo bian. den she abit like bo mood loh. den shazana and i kept trying to cheer lum lum up. den she like. actually wana luff but hold on to it! gek gek lidat lar! kakaka we went holland V again. hehehe this time eat burger king. den after eating. we sat face to face ma. i take out my new paper and read. i was so engrossed wif the new paper tat i've forgotten tat she actually had nth to do. den after reading 80% of the paper. i tell her one of the article story. den i realised. omg she like not interested to hear lidat but im telling her. she already so sian. mus be even more sian when i was reading newspaper and she down there do nth T_T nvm. den we walk walk walk to busstop take same bus.

in the bus today she let me hear SHE song. ok lar not bad lar. the vocal goooooood! den she was wearing her mp3 when i was abt to move to the exit. den i scared later if i shout lum lum. she ignore me. den whole bus look at me. even more paiseh for me. so i went back to the seat. i pat her leg and shout LUM LUM I GO LIAO HOR TAKE CARE. she ji tao sian ahhaha duno why but i jus enjoy disturbing ppl hehehe xD den i came home......

now here blogging loh. nowadays i nth to do will find sean. he used to be my PT mate. together wif kelvin. but now. BOTH QUIT! tmd. leave me alone T_T den when we pt. stupid sean he would always call me turtle. so recently i ask him why he call me turtle. den he.. i forgot wad he say. den i call him ji dan. he call me gui dan. hahhaah but hes a funnie fellow. he say i nice to disturb ... zzz retribution lar hor? i disturb LUM LUM. he disturb me. XD hehehe i missed those times when i played wif him. i aask him go back play PT. he tell me he dun wana pay. wtf man wtf wtf wtf! but nvm lar. i oso not v kin on paying Pt oso. quite sian kekekeke but got new map coming! greeeeeeeeeeedy lake! i wana go see seeee~

okk lar. i dun wana blog le. i wana memorise Feng's lyrics. cos i wana sing FENG! xD wifout any pronounciation problem! KALA GO WOOOHOOO! KALA Y.E.S. YES! =X lame jahahahah

lots of MUACK~

oro da da

kalalista

filochi

ORO?

shhh

NO COPY RIGHT AH -.-

2006-03-18T22:52:00.000+08:00

mom came back le. dad went china. was a false alarm T_T but it made no diff.. i was playing game last nite. mom couldnt stop scolding me. i told her give me awhile. she 1 sec oso dun give me. jus keep scolding me even though i was on the fone wif my fren. she wanted me to hang up. i did. den she kept preaching for the nex few minutes. i turned to her. i told her "u enuff liao hor. jus now my fren on the line u scold me until so song i oso nv say anything liao. now tell u give me awhile u still continue. u leave me alone can?" ..i really bth. she was really testing my patience. den she came over poke my head. poke until fuking song. slap oso. den i straight away put away sign on my msn. den i stood up. i stared at her and said "WAN AN." den i went my room and lie on the bed. yeah was a rough nite for me. i sms my fren. i ask my fren why i have such farktup parents. sometimes i wonder. my mother really cares for me. or she jus scolds me cos she lost $ in mahjong and needed to throw her temper cos shes a sore loser?
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nvm. woke up today. FUK LOH IM BALDING! dropping lots of hair everyday. at least 30-40 strands. AT LEAST. this afternoon i sit down and see.. walao knn i pull out a total of 20strands. when i bathe.. worse.. i dun wana be bald like mr kuah. its bad BAD!! oh. supposed to meet melissa and steffi at 415pm. but i left house at 430pm xD HEHEHEH took cab there. we went sakae sushi and makan. it was fun cos.. we kept commenting on stuff. heheh den we called for bill. they mark saying we got 6 colour plates. den b4 we go counter and pay, we grabbed another plate and eat den faster run. kakakaka we had many talks. but those were lame toks. abt shopping. cute guys. the usual..
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steffi was like asking me if her skirt is short. i say "ya short. but dun worry it covers ur ass." den i wink at her. den she EHHHHH! hahaha she v funie one. lame oso. den we chiong go watch the 6pm show. V for Vendetta. u noe wad happened after the show? steffi mel and me. we fell in love wif the main actor. but he was wearing a mask thru out. I DUN LIKE THE GIRL! PUI! but ya. mel was like saying ok we share the guy. mel said she take the face! den i say i take the body xD den i tell steffi "u take hes leg!" den mel and i ^5 den steffi was like "ehhhhhhh!" hahaha forever ehhhhhing one. nth better to do.
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den we played pool! only a few matches cos steffi gtg not long after tat. her mom was calling calling and calling. mel went wif her.. it was abt 9pm. den eric was in the building. oh the building is cine leisure lol. so i tot since i noe tat hes here. and he noes tat im here. i might as well jus go and say hi to him, gab and allan. cos they were together at lvl 9 playing cs. so i went.. gab. HAHHAHAH BOTAK xD lol nth much lar. i sat there transfering songs frm eric's fone to my fone. den after tat i go home. i took bus home xD hehehe
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now im back home. many stuff was in my mind when i was taking a shower. like.. why do ppl change? and how come some frenship ended up sour. like eg. kelvin's frenship and mine was v gd. in fact we were v close. but wad happened? see, now we're not even toking. but the thing which was in my mind was nth to do wif kelvin. its my frenship wif another fellow. i do feel sad if i get drifted away from a fren. but this fren. i felt the most sad when i found out like.. he doesnt wana mend the frenship. he gave me a bo chup attitude.. he wasnt the guy i knew.. he was another person when i tok to him tat day.. and tat day was like a month ago?
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lol.. i do feel sad. i nv felt so sad in my entire life. like a month ago. whenever anyone ask me abt him. i would start crying. lol i was tat fragile. a lil words of him would make me cry. tat was how upset i was. but i cant do anything rite? when some ppl wan things this way. even if u try. no matter wad u do. if 1 side doesnt wan it ur way. den u cant do anything.. i felt lifeless for a period of time. it was the most weak side of me. i was nv tat weak. but this fren. lol i got owned by him. ya i do cry for my frens when we are on bad terms. but not to the extent of a week. tat month was a torture to me. i dun hate him for letting me feel so weak and so low. i cant hate him. cos the gd times tat we had make me more gian than to make me hate him. but i noe. some stuff can nv be the same. like they said. good things doesnt last long. well.. i suppose so? sometimes i look at steffi, melissa and harfia. i really thk god i hav them. although i dun tok to harfia everyday. but i noe. no matter wad day. wad time. wad period. whatever it is. she would be always there for me. just a fone call away. no im not making use of her. but sometimes.. i really thk god i found such frens like them. harfia i love u *hugs*
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as for tat fren of mine. i really hope i can turn back time. why he make hes decision on me lidat. was maybe bcos he asked me for dinner i said no. i mean not over a dinner tat he is lidat to me. but i think my answer no made me confirmed hes decision..... wad a fool i had been to listen to others................. i was brainwashed. a lil bit of here and there. i dun wan to get involved in such stuff. i jus wana have fun wif everyone. is it tat hard. life is tat short. so why dont we make it a lively one? ...some questions are not mend for me to ask.
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a tired kala.

2006-03-16T11:57:00.000+08:00

zhuan shen li kai

fen shou shuo bu chu lai

wei lan de shan hu hai

cuo guo shun jian cang bai

dang chu bi ci

bu gou cheng shu tan bai

bu ying gai

re qing bu zai

ni de xiao rong mian qiang bu lai

ai shen mai shan hu hai

yesterday, i wokem up at 2pm. was as bored as usual cos i din plan anything to do for the day. ning called me. ask me folo her go queensway shopping centre cos she needed to get shoes and jeans. so i went. i was pretty lazy. i took bus there ^^ never take cab leh! kakaka oso din have a choice lar. so broke -.- reach there le i was kinda early. sit down eat french fries and sundae. fuk sia fattening T_T den we walk walk shop shop buy buy tok tok. ya lo. until abt 615pm. she ask me go tiong for coffee. i din wana go. cos so far and i lazy. wanted to slp xD but in the end i went. cos free drink and going there by cab KAKAKAKAKA but was still v tired zzzzz

reach there, we sat awhile. was suppose to go her hse play gunbound den meet melissa in the nite. bt den ning suddenly had to meet her fren. so means i had 2hrs to kill. wad to do leh? i call LUM LUM XD hehehe lummy sooo cute!! i keep pressing lum lum's cheeks when i saw lummY! v v v cute! den shazana oso came down. lummy was like telling me on the fone "WAAA I CUT HAIR 1ST TIME SO MANY PPL NOTICE. I LIKE MY HAIR MAN! NOT COVERING MY EYE BROWNS.........." blah blah blah. den when she came. i see her hair. tmd looks the same to me. only thinner -.- she got excited over nothing. zz den shazana say hi den go off liao. cos she wana meet her superman! he waiting for her under her block. sweet rite.! he stay in tamp. travel alll the way down to her block downstairs jus to see her for tat few minutes. sooooo sweet! kakaka im happy for shazana ^^

den lum lum! she hang ard wif me awhile. she cb sia. wanted to take neoprint. so i took wif her. 2 ppl take neoprint. so weirdddddd! den got 1 pic i tickle her den both of us got the real happy look on our face. natural one. i like tat picture. but she dun like. she nv choose. zz cheebye i almost strangle her! den she squact down like a lil girl lidat. i squact wif her. den i look at her. i keep pressing her cheeks and nose. kakaka she like lil baby lidat! xD my daughter leh!! kakaka ya. lum lum is yu yeng. i call her by the surname now. den she call me LILY. cos my chinese name pei li. -.- she cb call me lily. like some ...... zzz gaY!

den she had to go =( i oso had to go. cos had to meet melissa! she coming over my hse to stay over ma. so i went jelita. was in cold storage. melissa say we shop in cold storage and grab some snacks being my hse eat. i say ok loh. i reach cold storage at 950pm. mel not there yet. was suppose to meet at 930pm.. den the girl came to me and tell me they 10pm close. i was like " ...... " den i called mel. i ask her wad she wan i grab for her 1st. den she nv say anything she say she reaching. when she reached, it was 957pm. i was at counter paying for wad i've grabbed. she came to me den she "waaa they really close at 10pm?!" den she started luffing. zz siao char boh! so we went to the petrol station and buy snacks.

den we took bus back to my hse. was only a few stops away. so it was real fast. we managed to be able to watch american's top model. xD love tat show but always din get the chance to watch it. cos i either forgot or forget =x kakaka watch tv until pretty late. den both of us went frenster. each cute guy we see on frenster, we drool! den ALWAYS hor. in 1 cute guy's photo gallery. the 1st few picture is always him. WAA SO CUTE WAA SO CHARMING. den suddenly 1 picture come out. TMD ITS A GIRL HUGGING HIM! melissa and i look at each other. we both sian1/2. zzz den i went to play gunbound. she went to watch american pie 2. not long later i join her. xD

the show is like sex comedy. hhahah funnie show. the guy wanted to masturbate himself. den he wanted to put lubricant. den on the table had lubricant and super glue. he took the super glue instead and he .... the rest no need to say lar. den he got stucked T_T damn poor thing. imagine. super glue glued to the .... ok forget it. change topic xD

we slp at 530am in the morning. woke up at 11am. she had work at 1130am. zz so obviously she was late. ya. which is now la. SHE GO LIAO =( means im alone at home. haiz. sad. parents coming back today. means i cant use com so often. blog so often. and cant slack. no more gunbound for me too =( SAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD! nvm. slp is stilll the best =) kekeke ok lar. tink tats abt all for today. said more than enuff.

lots of love,

kalalista oro oro filochi xD

2006-03-14T02:50:00.000+08:00

kalalista is here to blog. xD din slp the whole nite. was playing game and tokin on the fone. i tahan all the way until 9am when my lessons in school ended. malvin they all asked me go seoul garden makan lunch. but the feeling of not slpping is horrible T_T so i say dun wan. LUM LUM oso ask me go town. i tell her noooo although i really wanted to. hehe sorry lummY!! nex time i'll go wif u k?? *promise* xD
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den i came home i slp. orh orh kun all the way till 6pm. den i cancelled tuition. cos i went out for dinner instead. dinner wif gab. we oso watched movie. there are many misunderstanding between us lately. so today was like the chance for us to bond again. lol after the movie i had to rush home cos my uncle called. -.- so i took a cab home.
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reach home i play play play. play gb play pt play msn w/e. sooo tired. when i slp so many ppl call call call. i cant even slp in peace. damn fuking tired =( ok la go le. i nth else to blog le ^^ take care!
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oro da da!
kalalista xD

2006-03-13T05:39:00.000+08:00

in order to create a miracle u need 3 things. a pillow, a blanket, and a bed. and of cos. THROW AWAY UR FUKING FONE so tat brainless retarded moron wouldnt call u at 12pm to ask u whos going out later =.=

in order to create happiness u need 3 things. SEX, MONEY AND LOVE.

in order to create sadness u need 3 things. being ditched, being cheated, and being rejected.

in order to create a new life u need 3 things. change ur environment. change ur frens. and change urself.

in order to be a good guy u need 3 things. u need a solid HORSE. not being a flirt. and u have to be handsome and rich.

in order to be a gd boyfren u need 3things. u need to sing to ur gf. u need to shower her wif ur love (obviously) and u hav to encourage her to watch porn! xD

in order to be a good person u need 3 things. number1 u cannot be a lamer. number2 u mus play PT wif me. number3 u mus drink coca cola! and not the fuking coke LIGHT.

in order to create a fuking gay lamer. u jus need to do one thing. refer to Eric Chong a.k.a WoShiNewbie KAKAKAKAKAKKAKA xD

heheh im jus being bored. pls pardon me ^^

2006-03-12T17:04:00.000+08:00

i blogged last nite. but blogger said got error. so my entry wasnt posted.. =( but its ok. i wun repeat last nite's entry cos.... now i dun see the need to lol. anyways. ytd.. i went out with LT members. actually i din wana go. personal reasons. xD den ning keep on pestering me ask me go lar go lar. every 2mins in gb. she would type "kala.. go lei.." -.- on fone oso use this to threaten me. u go i go. kns ! lol in the end i went.
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i sure tio fucked when school reopen. no MC for cross country. die die die!! went down to bugis to meet ning jiejie and dawn korkor. den biebie came down to find us. the rest (rudy,huiping,jo,gab,ts,wuji) were all at kbox. lol i din wana go k box. personal reasons too xD so long nv see rudy. he is just like edward! SOOO CUTEEE! KAKAKAKA so we went seoul garden. but it was full hse there and we din book.. so we went to eat duno wad tian tian steamboat ah? duno wad they were tokin abt. steven was trying to advertise for the steamboat company. lol it was funie.
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den at the steamboat. rudy sat next to me XD he scared of me sia. cos i keep tehing hes neh neh and hit him kakakaka we were sitting in a square. i was at the edge wif rudy. den beside rudy was steven. this 2 fukers -.- i tell the aunty i wan coke. she look at me. up and down and say COKE LIGHT AH? ................cheebye.. i noe i fat but no need lidat rite. make steven and rudy luff so much. especially the stupid steven. den i peel and cook prawn for them. i tot prawn put inside awhile can liao. zzz sian1/2 steven bite one mouth and throw back inside the steam boat. nb! i feel so T_T basket. i hardly cook one loh. cook for them somemore lidat! tmd tmd tmd!
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den rudy and i keep drinking coke. and i keep adding food for rudy to eat. KAKAKAKAKA he v funie when he show the pityful face. den we met dave! 1st time i see dave sia. xD den once dinner was done we went downstairs to alley ther and sit down. i meant i sat down. the rest standing.. smoking ma. nah i din smoke. den dave point at me and say im like ah lian lidat. zzz -.- why ppl always say im like ah lian. I LOOK AND BEHAVE LIKE ONE MEH? zzz i soooo innocent O.O xD
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den many went home. left eric, gab, ts and moi! they play car game. race race here race race there. win here win there. den we head down to marina south. we were trying v hard to catch a cab. knncb so hard to catch cab. we walked like 4streets down and finally managed to find one POSB bank atm. den all withdraw $$. den take cabcabcabcab! i sat in front of cos. why would i wana squeeze myself wif 2 guys behind. the 3 of them were squeezing here and there. noisy bunch of KIDS. lol den reach destination liao.
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see ts play car game again. race race here race race there. waste so much of my time tat my mom and uncle call me and demanded me to go home -.- knncb! no CS zzz i wanted to play cs. but zz SOB. den i catch a cab go home...........
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i wanted to go home touch my hse and call my uncle and den go back and find them again. cos i hardly get the chance to pia so late. but i was reading a letter in the cab on the way home. i jus felt so....weak after reading it. i became v v v v fragile. really. it felt like the longest cab ride home. and the uncle he was driving me to some quiet road with many trees ard. i was afraid. really i was. so late at nite. the only girl alone in the cab. but i couldnt tink abt wad was going to happen. cos after reading the letter. i cried a lil and become so weak. and exhausted. i dun like to feel this way. i hate this type of feeling. especially now.
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and this afternoon.. lol..................... the same thing happened. i mean the same thing happen b4 the letter was given to me. the outings.. the people.. the FUN. to the extend of going the person's hse. -.- dun understand? nvm. i jus wana BLAHHH everything out here. i jus dun get it. wad is this? morning tell me 1 thing. afternoon do anything. wtf is this? its not tat i've given up. but really. i feel like giving up. cos i duno wtf is he trying to do. maybe i read too much into it. but im like tat. this is me. im sorry im not fit to play this game call love.
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a defeated kala

2006-03-12T01:07:00.000+08:00

i wanted to blog so many things today. but after reading the .......... now im left wif a blank in my head. i feeel like im a vegetable now. all i could remember was feeding rudy wif food. and the rest.... i suddenly feel like i jus woke up from a blurry dream. wad was i doing just now? . ................................................................................................................................. i had a heavy dinner. my heels were killing me. i din see doctor. wad else did i not do. oh.. i din give him a reply . how do i reply him? wheres the reply button? why cant i click it? how do i reply him . why isnt there any multiple choice provided? . .... ...... zzz im in the living room now. in fact alone in my hse. theres no light. only my com screen light. i din on the light. cos i feel like living in the darkness for awhile. dreams? dreams are afterall dreams.. i noe.. i do have dreams. in fact, they are nightmares. ...wad am i doing here?

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a rather lost kala.

2006-03-11T01:12:00.000+08:00

in order to create a miracle, u need 3 things. a pillow, blanket, and a bed. and u'll have to throw ur bloody fone away so tat morons wun be able to call u and wake u up frm ur slp.

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i din go cross country today. had it all planned ytd. so i slpt at 6am ^^ wake up at.. tink 12pm cos CHUN JUN called me and asked me a stupid question.. "eh.. whos going tonite ah?" .... -.- cb u. zz den i call my fren. supposed to go out wif him today. but i slacked the whole noon. lol sry i gained 2 pimples when i woke up. zzz knn so angry. den i met all of them for sarah's birthday xD
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met them at orchard hotel 1st. den after tat we go dinner at some indo restaurant. joshua, fadli, nicholas, chun jun, edward, yu yeng, shazana, eileen, nazurah, jaslyn, atiqah and me. yeah we were there wif sarah's family members too. i hope she had fun =) so many ppl celebrated for her. all the girls is she call one. den all the guys is i call one kekeke she called me ytd and ask me invite more ppl. den i invite the guys loh since she've invited the girls. she kept mentioning abt edward. HOR SARAH? ^^
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den after tat we hang ard blah blah. den i met up my tat fren for movie. watched Big Momma's. funnie show. heheh nice show ^^ den my fren and i walk outside of marina square ard and ard and ard. walk until 12am plus. den i decided to go home. lol den i pangseh him 1 person thre kakaka but hes a gd companion. YAO GUAI!! XDDD
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tml is a saturday. tml morning my mom would leave singapore. and i have all the freedom in the world. no curfew. no one stop me from going out. no nth. kakakaka freedom for quite a long time. till thursday i suppose. xD and now i can go out as and when i like! NOTHING CAN HOLD ME BACK! MUAHAHAHAHA!
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siao kala -.-

2006-03-08T20:08:00.000+08:00

QUEENSWAY!!! QUEENSWAY~!!!!
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heheh very high spirited today! xD reason? queensway!!!! queenswayYY!!! oooh ooh oh QUEENSWAY! KAKAKAKA ok srysrysry im abit too excited. ok this is wad happened. this morning.. Mr Ali was like announcing on parade square. something liek "today's South Zone Soccer Finals. we are in the finals. but we are going to challenge St. Gab Sch. they were undefeated for the last 3yrs. each time they go for finals, they would have about 500 supporters from their school. *blah blah blah* those who are interested in cheer our team. pls do come....." i hear already. i was tinking. how can any school defeat our queensway soccer team? cos i personally tink v highly of my skool's soccer B boys team. they were PROS! xD so i decided to go and witness how we would lose.
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den during lunch time. i was roaming ard wif shazana and yu yeng. den yu yeng went for chinese class. den shazana and me sit in the canteen. behind us had 3 malays, 1 indian and a chinese boy. my back was facing them. when shazana was tokin to anish, the indian boy came up to me and say "eh girl, my fren wana jio u" den i turn back. i saw one of the malay boy holding a bottle with hes chin on it. so i tot they might be playing true or dare. den i jus turn away. den the indian boy go back. den he keep coming over. ask my class. i say 402. ask my name, i give him the o.O look. den he say "the chinese guy wana noe if u r single or attached." ........... <- this was my emotion. but i was kinda smiling cos its so paiseh. 1stly, shazana was looking. 2ndly. tmd if they were playing true or dare. they take me as wad sia! knnz~
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DEN I MET ATIQAH! had a feeling she would go for the soccer match. nobody in my class wanted to go =( i keep asking asking and asking. finally atiqah xD <3 my girlfren! so i met her. so since i had to tag along wif her. it was her.. and her whole group of frens. and her whole group of frens are all malays. nono im not racist. dun get me wrong! T_T prob is. they keep speaking in malay! WO BU MING BAI! den we took bus to blah bah.. i duno wads the place called.. the venue for soccer lar!
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SOCCER!!! QUEENSWAY!!! QUEENSWAY!!! kekeke 1st goal was on the 17th min, 2nd was on the 30th min. den the rest i lost track. ZUL!! u did GREAT! he scored 2 goals ^^ PROUD OF U! cos he was rather tired in the morning in skool. den on the field. AISEH SO PRO SO ZAI! lol ppl actually tot i like zul -.- cos whenever he kick the ball i shout hes name. den i keep cheering for him. lol den stupid atiqah. she see her bf play. whenever he kick the ball. she would hit me ah. grab my thigh ah.. why? TOO EXCITED zzzz stupid woman. i was in pain =/ but her ears oso v pain. cos i scream damn loud kakakaka!
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den jus came home not long ago. tired tired. tml still got maths test. stupid sia.. zz i go eat dinner. blog some other times. ^^ take care ppl ORO ORO XD
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do u oro?
WHAT IS ORO?
filochi xD

2006-03-07T14:51:00.000+08:00

it sucks having cramp all day long T_T

yeah. it sucks. why females have to go thru all this! PUI. anyways. skool was alrite. hehe miss sim told me tat she felt tat i've slacken.. i told her im starting to work hard already.. she said 'yeah can see. u've been pretty attentive.' hehe not bad not bad. at least theres a human who can kinda see my effort. i was totally disgusted when i collected my progress report card. out of 6 subjects (not including chinese B) i only passed one.. which is maths. and i had 52/100 ......its not gd. really. i nv felt so lousy b4. the results i saw on the paper was almost the same as the result i had when i was INVITED to be retained in sec 3 express. in fact the result this time round is pretty worse.. i was really demotivated yesterday. but today. after hearing wad miss sim said. i mean she had a 1v1 tok wif me. so i decided not to give up on myself xD GO KALA JIA YOU! WOOOHOO!

posting results. many of my frens got their postings already. but some of my frens. have quite reasonable results. but they were posted to no where. i got myself thinking. i was actually tinking of doing jus reasonably average. but when i look at my frens. wif no skools to go to, im kinda worried. cos i duno if i would end up like them. its like i'll be "stucked" in life. i noe myself best. i wun study like a mad woman. but i wana make sure at least i noe the basics. xD at least a pass. tats wad im asking for, for all my subj. i dun wana an D7 or E8 or F9 or even a U in my O lvl slip. ok enuff of studies. stfu kala -.-

today's the school's erm.. some duno wad Heats ah.. the running running one. i promised yu yeng i would go support her. but i din. i actually din wan. cos im having cramp. and it really felt uncomfortable. but sarah and yu yeng.. lol sarah din allow me to go home. yu yeng say can. cos i told them i go home den go stadium meet them. but now tat im home. im really too exhausted to do anything else. felt quite bad tat i broke my promise. well. hope i can make it up to them on friday. sarah's birthday xD

i was arranging all the songs in my computer. cos its all over the place. finally my com is neatly organised =D so easy to search for stuff now. kekeke well. im pretty happy for Zul. cos he has finally OPEN up xD he used to be a guy who doesnt wan gf.. wana be Mr Single blah blah. lamer -.- but ever since we retained together. i gotta say tat he became another person. a more talkative, friendly, funny and lame Zul LOL he used to close himself up. like a turtle in its shell. dun wana come out to see the world. finally now. he climb out of hes turtle shell. wei le ta de nu ren. waaaa he chiong sia. not bad not bad. 1st time see him so zhai. can blush somemore. ZUL JIAYOU!! XD

ok lar. enuff le. tired. hope my pimple would go off. goo goo SHOO!

lots of love,

kalafilochi ;)

2006-03-02T15:11:00.000+08:00

=) the old me is back! hehhe
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yes im happy once again. cos i choosed to forget unhappy stuff. got over them real fast. ^^ sry if i sounded so dead when any of u called me. or even when i yelled at anyone. at least now. im back to my normal self. (90% only lar. soon 100% xD) but doesnt matter. im happy now. and my frens are happy for me! tats the most impt thing xD
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some people, they do treat me like their frens at 1st. but when shit happens, they "run away" and restricted themselves from me. i mean its like wtf? my frenship wif "A" has nth to do wif my frenship wif "B". agree? its A and B's problem. why mus any of them restrict themselves from me? well............................. its ok. some ppl they tink it this way. i cant stop them either. ^^ im sick of being hurt. thru frenship. ENOUGH! but w/e. at least i noe my school mates are soooooo much better. xDDD I LOVE MY CLASS HEHEHE
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i promised zhi xing i would work hard. study hard. blah blah. well. i hope nth bad would happen to u too. god will protect u and bless u xDDD dun worry abt tat thing. nth will happen de. =)
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O lvls O lvls.. these few days ive been really concentrating in class and i even do homework!! =D hehehe im a nerd now o.O but its cool. getting used to the nerd life, by slpping at 10pm plus or maybe 11pm plus. at least now i dun feel tired when i go to skool.
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oh. its steffi's birthday today. shes my "grandma" hehehe FINALLY 17 LIAO HOR U WITCH? XD CAN GO HOME AFTER 11PM LA! GZGZ~ hehe i missed her >.< i missed her, melissa, and grace. we would go out togehter watch movie take neoprint look at handsome cute guys blah blah.! its like all abt those typical crazy, vain girls would do. hehhe YEAH WE DO TAT TOO! but now.. i cant go out wif them often. cos me, taking Os this yr while they, going JC/Poly. school's starting for them.. or maybe already started KAKAKAKAKA
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ok gotta go prepare. need to meet melissa to collect cake for steffi's bday. stupid bitch. i meant steffi. shes so troublesome. she tink she some queen lidat. YES STEFFI IM BADMOUTHING U RITE IN FRONT OF UR FACE. KAKAKAKA but u noe i still love u. no matter wad i say, no matter wad i do.. i'll always love u granny! MUACK! KEKEKEKE
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LOTS OF LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEE
kalafilochi xD

2006-02-20T21:58:00.000+08:00

what ever that starts here, ends here. i hope tat after all these breakup, frenship probs, clan probs, skool work and stuff.. after all these shit are gone. i can have a good break. if i would to change my hp number.. i dun tink i would wana give my new number to many ppl. cos. i wan a new life.. a life tat is controlled by myself. and not so much of peer pressure. im not implying on anyone. my email would never change. but blog.. i might stop here. same goes to PT. same goes to the rest of the online activities. well. might still come back like once aweek? but im sick of leading a life in front of a computer. i feel tat i shld have better things to do. im a student. not a slacker. not a drop out. i shld be studying. studying the best i could since im given this chance. i treasure frenship more than anything else. so if i have to sacrifice one loved one for the rest of my good frens.. i would.. cos wifout frens, there wouldnt be any me. kalafilochi was my "famous" game nick. from now.. im called kala. short and sweet. no more coca cola rubbish. and as i always say...fate is bullshit. so.. whatever tat starts here, ends here..as well...

2006-02-06T17:56:00.000+08:00

life really suck.
my com has been locked.
and have to use bro's laptop to blog.
and i have to do this fast and sneakily.
WHY ALWAYS LIDAT?
i give up le.
cant my parents come up wif a better idea than this jian method?
argh!!!!
nvm. i still got HP ^^
at most HP bill go higher.
but oso gd la.
no excuse for me anymore.
i got wad i wanted.
kalafilochi 8x prs
and now. perhaps time for studies?
yeah i said b4, 365days v fast gone.
xD i can do it!

2006-02-02T18:33:00.000+08:00

baby jiu shi ni qing kao jing wo huai li~
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yeah listening to this chinese song now while blogging.. xD just came home.. TIRED!! but had a fun today.
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today in skool. was tired. and slpt.. like usual.. but during chinese class im so fuking awake! oh btw im taking chinese B now. why? cos i wan a confirm pass =) chinese class was fun cos my class is a mixture of NA ppl as well. den this guy.. erm.. philip i guess? he asked me sit next to him. and he ask me stop acting "innocent" . well u cant blame me for having a innocent look rite?? xD ya. den we chatted and made fun of the teacher and ppl in class. was fun hehe den hes fren say "wa i go awhile u so fast xian char boh ah?" den i stare at hes fren. lol den i went toilet. den the fren shout "AH LIAN!!!!!!!" den i turn ard. only me there.. so cfm calling me.. walao i look like ah lian meh!! T_T
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den after skool. today ended v early. den i wana watch I Not Stupid Too desperately!! kekeke so i asked yu yeng la.. shazana la.. joshua la.. the usual gang la. all say cant go =( tired la. tuition la. blah blah! den i got quite sad. den i saw ATIQAH!!!!!!!!!! shes the best! she watch wif me!! unwillingly =x kakaka den on our way our from skool. we saw malvin and chun jun. chun jun was sick =( poor boy! den malvin was there! we asked them come watch wif us. chun wanted to go home.. so.. i UNDERSTAND XD but malvin.. MUAAHHAHAHA he doesnt hav much choice cos i pull him along wif us~ ^^
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den of cos being the only guy wif 2 girls. he of cos tio bullied. we watched i not stupid too.. yeah nice show.. i cried like SHIT. cried non stop for more than half an hr during the show.. wanted to turn ard and hug atiqah and continue crying. but i see her lie down until so low. i see liao i was like "uhh nvm i'll cry alone" lol used up all my tissue though xD den when we come out of the threatre.. malvin came to me and say "waaaaa 1st time i see kala cry until so cham. ur eyes still red leh!" ..i was like -.-" lolol
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DEN WE PASS BY THE NEOPRINT SHOP! yeahhhh atiqah and me forced malvin to take wif us! KEKEKE memories ^^ was fun.. malvin din wana take.. den i keep pulling him all over the place. LOL he damn poor thing. in the pictures u can see me pinching hes cheeks la. pulling hes ear la. lifting hes head up la. KAKAKAKAKAKA atiqah and i see liao keep luffing xD
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den send atiqah back to skool. malvin went home on hes own. blah blah. and im back HERE! v tired.. cos jus cried alot nia.. and now listening to Fix You by Coldplay. somehow i like this song xD especially when the mroe music part come in. xDDD
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ok la.. i wana go le.. tired.. harfia.. u rawk! i tag in my blog ask u call me. u call half an hr after i tagged. u r GDDDDD!! XD okk i go bb! =)
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cheeers,
kalafilochi ORO?

2006-02-01T19:13:00.000+08:00

!!!!!!!!!!
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BACKSTREET BOY'S CONCERT WAS WOOOHOOOOO! really it was fuking gd. xD im willing to pay double to watch again. kekekeke they rawk rawk RAWK!!
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ok yesterday i went out wif steffi and mel!! yes girls outing ^^ so long nv go out wif them. missed them sooo much! kkekeke we watched Fun with Dick and Jane. funnie show! kakaka den we were like bitching ard. gossiping blah blah.. the usual stuff tat we always do =) but it was fun! den after tat we met grace joyce ivy eileen and.. i forgot who else.. LOL sry ya den i wanted to play pool. dragged most of them. ok no actually few of them. steffi mel and grace. cos the rest din wan pool and went home =( so fast..
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den not long later, my LONG LOST korkor, GREGORY TAN!! he came~ ^^ so long nv tok to him. he has become a gentleman now. SWEEEEEEEEEET!! den he brought hes fren along.. Ben Huang.. i went over and shake yes hand
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and say "Happy chinese new yr !"
den i smiled!!!
den he say "do u remember me??"
kala : hmmm??
Ben : i used to play bowling wif u often last time.. remember????
kala : *tinks..*
ben : im ben huang!
kala : *gives a look.* very familiar.... U FROM ACS RITE????!?
ben : *gives the -.- look* u always tot i was from ACS. u mean until now nobody corrected u?!
kala : * >.< * HAHAHA SO LONG NV SEE U!!!
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and so it goes, and so it goes.. ya an old fren who used to bowl wif me alot. no hes not from ACS. hes actually from Queenstown Sec. xD I SUSPECT HES GAY!! ALWAYS WIF GREG TOGETHER!! kakakaka kidding korkor =) den we went NYDC and makan desert!!!!!!! den we took many pictures.. nah i wont post it here. LAZY!
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if u wan to see it, ask from mel ^^ tat bitch still owes me the pictures from the party -.- nah shes not a bitch. I LUB HER! KEKEKEKEKEKEKEKE stupid grace. shes my mommie. i ask her ang bao. she mai give. steffi my grandma. i ask her angbao she ask me go toilet take zzz tmd tmd tmd!!! all so bad to me
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den at nite i was supposed to meet my dear xDDDDD but had miscommunications.. so.. din meet up. and mother kpkb. so had to rush home too...
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TODAY! met ning jie for coffeee~ shes sick =( pooor thing take care of urself la woman! kakaka and soon we're going to play PT together. and i will be 8x 8x 8x 8x 8x 8x!! JOSHUA.. GIVE ME 60M PLS. PLS PLS PLS =x nah im kidding. u dun even play pt -.- ask u play u mai. still play cs. u tmd.
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ok la i go offline le. blog so long today o.O hehehhee see yaLL~
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lots of love,
TAKE CARE!
kalafilochi
ORO?? xD

2006-01-30T02:37:00.000+08:00

hi! blog. ....
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k. been awhile since my last entry. its CNY!! GONG XI FA CAI! collected lots of ang bao. nearly 1k xDDD kakakaka lost and won mahjong games. duno y but this yr i play more mahjong game than card games. gambling!! yes if tats the word that pleases u ^^
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cousins came over my house after gathering at granny's place. this yyr we took more pics than ever.. cos granny is sick.. and shes old.. and i really hope she would go in a peaceful and happyway.. of cos i would be sad. i was her favourite grandchild.. and of cos she was my fav grandma.. nvm.. sad things ? tok abt them later. today is celebration!! be happy =)
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but for now. after like 10hrs of mahjong. im fuking tired. LOL so im going to slp ! NITENITE!!!
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*he went msia.. i miss him badly =( im soooooooooooo sad!!*

already in slpping mode,

kalafilochi

2006-01-22T23:54:00.000+08:00

jus played gb wif LT members xD but only play like 2rounds? had to go. cos parents KP. now using bro's laptop, hiding in hes room, blogging. xD
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did flag day yesterday. most of the donations came from ang mohs. or shall i say foreigners and lil innocent children.. this is when i realised how rude / stingy many singaporeans could be. i mean, if u dun wana donate. u could jus smile and say no ty. U KNN WALK PAST ME AND PRETEND NV SEE ME WHEN I DOWN THERE SMILE AND ASK "EXCUSE ME WOULD U LIKE TO DONATE?" fuk. if its not for school. u all tink i would put up wif all ur lanjiao attitudes? i'll most likely slap u on the facewif the damn tin. really. i wanted to do tat to the 3rd person who ignored me. den a small girl came. she say "jiejie can i donate??" she was so adorable. young and innocent. yet kind. suddenly all the anger inside me. all the pride tat i threw by standing by the roadside of orchard, all seemed so worth. xD VERY DRAMA HOR? but well. tats the fact ma. really felt tat way. and tat made me happy. so happy tat i did the flagday overtime.
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well actually i have to do overtime la. cos b4 tat. 1st hr, i was late. cos i went to buy latte moca from coffee bean at tiong. den met shaz anish n YY. xD and return nicholas back hes $$ borrowed for so many days den on tat day when im supposed to return, i absent from skool. PAISEH HOR NICHOLAS *winks* KAKAKaKA oh. 1st hr iwaslate. 2nd - 3rd hr, i was eating lunch / watching movie. iwanted toslp in the movies cos i din slp the whole nite b4 going flag day. but the show wastoo funnie.couldnt slp. Cheaper By A Dozen. was the name of the show. go watch it!!
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well... for the 1st time in my life, i felt stressed and pressurised by the things ard me. i dun really show it. but truely. i start feeling stressed. reason why i din go on friday. was cos if i were to goskool. i would mostlikely go crazy. sry jiejie. i lied to u. by acting. but i really lack of rest. yeah was my fault. i played gametoo late. but in game i oso feel stressed lol. i wana lvl my char to a certain stage. especially now is XP event. its gd for me. and all players. but i notime to play. parents coming back from thailand, skool needs to stay back till atleast 330pm. outings, flag day. this event last for aweek nia. but now. aiya. i really wana be 8x. but i tot, once i reach 8x. i wan lvl85. den lvl90. it'll nv end. once u reach target, u'll aim higher. when will u stop? and now. i lost all mymotivation xD ya its a game. dun take it seriously. game is to enjoy. RITE?? =D
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ok i go slp le.. cos during flag day and the few days b4 it, i realised tat SLEEP is very impt. xD wifout slp, u can do no shit. ^^ ok im going. take care!
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*what are u waiting for?* <-- i hear this sentence until sian liao. seriously -.-
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lots of love,
kalafilochi
ORO?

2006-01-21T05:38:00.000+08:00

n when im gone jus carry on. dun mourn, rejoice everytime u hear the sound of my voice just noe tat im looking down on u smiling and i din feel a thing so baby dun feel no pain just smile back. and when im gone jus carry on dont mourn, rejoice everytime u hear the sound of my voice just tat im looking down on u smiling and i din feel a thing so baby dun feel no pain, just smile back..

*definately theres a reason why i wrote tat.*

2006-01-14T02:14:00.000+08:00

bRAZIL!!!! SO ME PROUD MAN!! WIN THE WORLDCUP! YES GO BRAAAAAAAAAZILLLLLLLLLLLLLL! LALALALALALALALAAAAAA LALALALALALALALALAAAAAA LALALALALALALALAAAAAA BRAAAZILLL!
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xDD so excited! kekekeke sry. T_T ok main topic. why dun he understand? im done wif him. xD yeah i moved on! like.. 2 months ago? ^^ PROUD OF U KALA. VERY PROUD OF U =)
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ok lar. i might sound like a siao char boh. singing and praising myself on my own blog. but bo bian. im jus bored. I WAN A BETTER LIFE! =( its hard to change life style. i admit it is. but i have too.. might have to sacrifice certain things too.. but.. well. i hope its all worth. for u.. stupid cambridge O LVL. _l_
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tokin to matthew on msn. so long nv tok to this freak. and he reminded me of my gb nick. KaLaCoCaCoLaFiLoChI !! yeah i used to hav this super long nick. nice?? nah find it gay LOL but it was the past. part of the past of me tat made me retained in sec 3 express.. zz kns _l_ gb
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lol but cant blame the game. i din hav self control. every single lil thing happened for a reason. im 16 now. going 17. soon i'll be 18.. 19.. 20.. so on.. and soon i have to get married. but look ard us. there are married couples. and divorcees. ...wads the point of getting married when u r gonna get divorced?! lol human's avg lfie span is like 70+ ? if i get married at 20+.. means i'll hav to face the other fellow for like 50+ of my life? ...omg.. i rather get married at 50+ lol xD
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well.. dun tok abt 20yrs.. 1 yr alone is long enuff. 365days. look at me now. supposingly to be in maybe MI wif steffi? exploring the skool? but where am i? still in queensway sec. well. i dun despise myself. i made mistakes. so i hav to "pay" for wad i've done. 365days. kala can u take it? QUIT DREAMING. O LVLS IS 9.5MONTHS AWAY! WAD THE HELL ARE U WAITING FOR?
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ok lar. dun wana blog le. tired.. plus tml mus go out at 9am T____T my mother lar. so kia su. zzz i tell her 10am. she say "LATER THE PLACE CLOSE! DEN JAM HERE JAM THERE. BEACH ROAD U NOE !!" i hear liao oso nth to say. she wan 9am. i say 10am of cos cannot lar. she had it all planned!! evil mommie.. den wad for ask me b4 hand xD lol weird woman
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take care. dun say u la.. say me la k. i cant be bothered liao. i was nice to u. treated u the best. neglected the rest of my frens. did everything i could to make u happy. and look now. we dun even say hi to each other. guess wad. seriously. im done wif it. dun say cos i nv say hi to u so u dun say hi to me. DUDE U'RE A GUY. CANT U SAY HI TO ME? but really. doesnt matter anymore. i told u b4. once i dun care means i dun care. so w/e u do. u tink i'll still care? if u were to fall in front of me. i'll jus ask if u're ok. and obviously u'll say u're alrite. den i'll jus walk away. yes i've become heartless. thks to u. bcos of u i really find it hard to trust any other ppl ard me. cos i put too much trust in u. and u took me for granted.
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anyways.. LOTS OF LOVE XD
kalafilochi.!

2006-01-06T15:50:00.000+08:00

been a long while since i've blogged. school's tiring of cos. b4 schoool reopen.. i went out wif LT clan xD hehehe funnie ppl. all so cute. but i always tio bullied by 1 particular person... ning jie she AIYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA i duno lar! love to disturb me somehow. make a fool out of me sia! T___T but nvm lar. i oso duno how to fight back xD
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well finally. sec 4. oro? lvl 6 sia. mus walk all the way up to my class room. i really hope i do well. mus start studying. and cut down on PT. but now PT got event girl hehehe and i cant leave PT cos i'll miss LT ppl kakakakka all so adorable one xD
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have not been seeing steffi la.. grace la... mel la... and harfia la... and quite alot of ppl for a long time sia! well. really hope to meet u girls 1 day too. missed u all sooo much :* hehehe
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many ppl ask. "HOW HOW? LIKE ANYONE NOW?" i tell them my heart is in turkey. LOL the tour leader xD but i saw him today. the him refers to another fellow. somehow. a part of me felt weird. it jus suddenly shut me up. hmmm wHy DuN hE uNdErStAnD? =X ok off blog.
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see u take care
wif love,
kalafilochi ORO DA DA?

2005-12-27T15:11:00.000+08:00

LT still the best lar.

2005-12-27T01:31:00.000+08:00

gain frens.. lost a fren. i jus commented that i tink shes trying to be the next xiaxue. and den she made a big fuss over it. i even told her i hav no objection to it and it was of no offence -.- this is wad she wrote "if thats cause u can't wear mini skirt for some reason.. or don't have cam to take pics then just shut up!.. ARGHH." shut up u say? so much for a fren. fuck u ok? =)
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nah i dun hate u. i dun even feel anything at all. cant be bothered at all. perhaps u're not worth my time? LOL sounds mean? well. u started sounding mean. i jus folo up. thats all. xD HEHEHE
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went to find allan again today. but today wif 2 other ppl. hui ping and jo! kekeke my clannies <3 went to disturb allan. that si lao ah pek. so mean to me. zzz keep suaning me one. tmd go and DIE! lol den we went for k box and sing song. kekeke had fun. oh allan wasnt wif us. he was busy working =(
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jus came home not long ago. mus go in PT now. if not ning will scold me >.< see u xD
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lots of love
kalafilochi

2005-12-26T04:04:00.000+08:00

heheh i din slp the whole nite! and i was smsing allan. and we decided to come out for breakfast. cos he knock off at 8am.. and i reached paragon at 730am -.- wtf. there was no one there hahah obviously.. too early. den we went to geylang and makan bean curd and soya milk. heard there famous ma.. allan bring me there. den we went toapahyo central to visit a fren whos working. den we went home lol. reach home at 1pm plus.

i saw a fren online. a fren who wasnt on tokin terms wif me due to some misunderstanding.. i wished her merry xmas. was surprised that shes awake cos time diff. its 7am at her there. den we played game together awhile. i asked her if she was still angry wif me. den she asked me to forgive her. >.< really happy that our frenship was saved.. cos i appreciate her alot. hehehe i din really plan well this xmas. where to go wad to do. din really bother anymore. but i thk god for the gift he gave me on xmas. which was saving my frenship wif mira =) thk u so much. merry xmas. xD

kalafilochi
oro?

2005-12-23T19:36:00.000+08:00

bac from turkey. many ppl asked. "HAVE U BROUGHT TURKEY BACK FROM TURKEY FROM ME?" lol sadly, i din see any turkey in Turkey. kekekekeke

but u noe wad. i had TOMATO soup, TOMATO chicken, TOMATO beef, TOMATO egg. OMG SO MANY TOMATOES!! even when the soup is vege soup. its in RED colour too! OMG. it was a terror!!!

but.. hehhehe.. tour is great.. why? cos of their local guide. i meant the turkish guide. turkish tour leader.. hes name is Fatih. xD he doesnt even look like a turkish. look more like an australian ang moh. and yes.. obviously. IM IN LOVE WITH HIM! lol!! ok lar not really in love. but hes handsome, caring, nice, kind, knowledgble... all the gd points.. which girl wun like? LOL. and HES NOT MARRIED! NO GF! NO WIFE! NO KIDS! kakakaka MINE!!!! HES MINE!!!

lol i sound so scary. but he was really nice. i got saboh by the stupid singapore tour guide alot of times. cos i ask the singapore tour guide, shawn, to ask Fatih for hes email add. then they were all guessing hes email add. like fatih@hotmail.turkish fatih@veryhot.com blah blah blah. den fatih came. i tell them to SHHHHH. den shawn turn ard and smile at fatih and point at me and said "SHE WANS UR EMAIL ADDRESS!" OMG LOH SO PAISEH i went to hide behind my sister. den fatih was smiling. kakakakkakakaka cute lar he. den he keep coughing.. so poor thinG!!

den b4 i left. i managed toget hes email add. and he gave me a hug. waaa i din wana leave turkey i tell u. lol but oh well. hes 27 yrs. actually. ya i dun really mind. LOL i siao liao rite? oh well. when a person is "inlove", he or she would be blinded. LOOK AT ME! =)

i just sent an email to him. kekekeke hope he reply soon. oh and now my HP has a wall paper of Fatih and Kala together KAKAKKAKAKA den he v hard working. he taught us turkish. from A to Z. where got ppl so hardworking one -.- hes a lil too gd to be true. but oh well. the trip was like a dream to me. now that im in sg. i cant do muchrite? hes in turkey =( so.. i have to move back to my normal life, which is.. PT, LT, RL, ... TV =) HAHHAH ok i siao already sry

i got LT meeting tonite. got so many pimple, not sure if i wana go. but i already tell my boss i going. so... xD now my mind i only can tink of fatih fatih fatih. no room for other guys. KAKAKAKA omg im sot. srysrysrysrysry =X

i met real nice ppl. OH AND I MET MY CLASSMATE'S COUSIN -.- how small can the world be? ZZZZZ LOL but hes a nice fellow. funie fellow. han qing? is that ur name? forgot the ending part of ur name. sry T_T AUSTIN LAI, ISNT THAT UR COUSIN? Xd KAKAKA

ok i mus go now. meeting LT ppl tonite. nv meet them b4. most of them. only met a few. so.. gd luck kala! my hump? MY HUMP MY HUMP MY HUMP!! u love my lady lumps, in the back and in the front! =)

2005-12-14T19:39:00.000+08:00

off to turkey.
take care all.
:'( I'LL MISS U ALL.
:* TO ALL
MUACK!
merry xmas
and remember me >.<
KALAFILOCHI!

2005-12-12T14:49:00.000+08:00

i guess, that this is where we've come to

if u dun wan to,

den u dun have to,

believe me

but i wun be there when u go down

just so u noe now,

you're on ur own now

BELIEVE me. xD

i saw doctor today. an appointment to go back to see my blood test blah blah.. kekekeke nth came out of the test. im perfectly fine! but doctors are still scratching head. they duno how the virus came attking me. they checked the history. this shit has nv happened b4. inthe whole world. he say i might have made history. kakaka i might get famous LOL =X whole world. only me KALA! have such a virus xD oh the virus is like.. fever. den red spots all over my body. ya. pretty serious actually. got warded T_T

well during my warding. i saw concerns shown by my frens. i got to see who are the real sincere ones. and who are the ones who sit there and jus say WTF? din even ask how i was or how i ended up warded. nvm its ok. i got to see the "true" side of certain ppl. doesnt matter to me anymore. i saw that coming. i jus wanted to prove myself wrong. but haiz. i proved to myself that i was right. DOESNT MATTER. other frens are better. xD

oh ya. im going on a holiday. to Turkey. for quite a long time. i shld be back ard 23rd of Dec. come back to celebrate Xmas!!! kekekeke xD well ever since i got discharged. i';ve been pretty weak.. steffi said im softer now. lol shes funie. her leg swell, den i made her come out wif me to do passport and meet my fren Allan xD kakakkaka kan chiong spider!! =x

well nv been so happy for a long time. i tink i tortured long enuff. break awaY! yes break away from this curse that has been hiding the smiling kala. xD nvm im back! kakakakkaka im so happy now. long time nv put long post on my blog le. ok la enuff le. take care ppl! hope to meet up wif all of u one day again. have fun t0gether kekkekekekeke!

ok god bless everyone in PT and in RL. xD FEINA JIEJIE I CANT WAIT TO SEE U IN TURKEY. XD ok take care all. cheers! ^^

lots of love,

kalafilochii oro??

2005-12-07T14:31:00.000+08:00

my 1st time being warded in hospital.. 3rd december.. OMG ITS DECEMBER ALREADY? .. anyways.. 3rd december.. had a high fever of 40 degrees over. and had red spots all over my body.. DUN WORRY. ITS NOT DENGUE! 1st day.. i had 2 blood test on the spot. one in the moring.. another in the afternoon.. haiz it was horrible. the pain............ argh.!

hospital food was HORRIBLE! 1st day lunch i had chinese food. den i tot western would be better. so i requested it for dinner. OMG IT WAS EQUALLY BAD!!!!! the nurse there were v nice.. toook great care of me.. kakakkaka

although im like 5days off keyboard.. i seem to be very unfamiliar wif the keyboard now. i keep having typos here and there. and i dun really noe how to use the com blahhh i tink i need a lil more time to catch up onceagain.

thks to those of my frens who visited me during my warding days. sry to bother u guys by calling u all. cos it was really that bored. i had to disturb someone. so randomly went thru my hp fone book list. and of cos thks mommie for cooking food for me xD I GAIN WEIGHT ZZZZZZZZZZZZ

i guessed u wouldnt even bother asking why i was warded or how i was.. and i guessed it damn right. wad can i do? otherthings are more important to u. i dun even tink im ur fren anymore. rite?

2005-11-28T10:20:00.000+08:00

ok. its abt time i "announce" these to my fellow frens =)

NAAAAAAAAAAH I DUN LIKE HIM ANYMORE

KAKKAKAKAKAKAKAKAKAKKAKAKAKAKA

for these holiday, im going to occupy myself wif outings and PT. so.. PT is part of my life now~

<3 LT

2005-11-16T15:25:00.000+08:00

i've been SICK and REAL SICK! damn it loh. lol but its cool. i nv go skool so many days. well. sick of school. feel like quitting school. if mommie and daddie allow.. i dun mind. no future? fuk it. i oso dun really care now. i feel like life is quite. blah blah. look at everything ard me. my frens in school. most of them are phoneys. now sec 4 leave le. i how? zz i admit. now. i feel that i cant fit into my class. not only my class. but perhaps the whole lvl. no i dun hav any arguement wif them. we all tok yeah. but. i dun like to be an idiot who pretends to like mixing wif ppl whom i dun. i mean some are ok. but some are just.. suxor. the tot of it. really made me dun wana go school so badly.

Remy Zero - Save Me
this song. is SmallVille's theme song. duno if i got the show title rite. but who cares anyway. sick of everything. now even when i play PT i get some troubles. stupid bitch. always giving me problem. zz ok dun wana blog. i really.. z z z z z z dun call me and u noe. encourage me or wad. u shld noe im a stubborn freak. and the guy i like is kinda making use of me. i noe. im not dumb. sometimes i wana like u forever. but sometimes i wish i could fuk u till u cry. LOL as in. kill u. w/e everybody ard me make use of me. well. u're nice to bully kala. xD GD JOB *CLAP*

2005-11-09T13:50:00.000+08:00

stupid. DONT THE SCHOOL UNDERSTAND THE MEANING OF SCHOOL HOLIDAYS? well. everyone is on holiday mood. who would actually remember wad was being taught during the stupid STEP AHEAD program? my mom was like saying the principal is stupid. guess wad? I TOTALLY AGREED. well there has been like 6 school days so far. and.. LOL i only went for 3 xD

yesterday i got detained in school wif zul and anish cos when we were absent, we did not produce MC hahahha but it was fun cos we went to one corner and play dai dee. hahah den zul took same bus as me when we go home. ^^ not bad hor. got shuai ge company me home LOL. den i went for haircut. OMG LOH. I LOOK LIKE.. .. .. ... ... next time i dun cut liao. cos i ask zul if i shld cut. he say ya. den i went to cut. -.- stupid zul. pui.

u noe why i blog? cos my fav game is under maintenance. xD lol cheapskaterite? well better than nth ma.. i mus go see doctor for MC today. cos today i nv go skool again. LOL. but this time round i really dun feel well. like something stuck inside my nose there. can breathe normally but stuck like.. v xin ku. oh well. i go le.

oh. u noe that guy? the day b4 yesterday. WALAO HE NV CALL ME AT ALL. U NOE HOW WORRIED I GOT FOR HIM?! cos got this gal online.. she likes him. den the way she speak. is like as if she talked to him on the fone alraedy. den i duno why that whole day since morning.. my mind was nth but him. i couldnt even concentrate in class. den i come home that gal tell me abt him. she say "oh i forgot. he told me that *******" blah blah. zzz its like. i already feeel so terrible. den plus he nv call the whole day. at nite i cry loh. LOL dun ask me why la. i oso duno why i cry. its like memories of the past keep flashing in my mind. ji tao siannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn den yesterday in class was totally sad. din smile or joke alot. den somewhere in the day. heheheh he called.!! u noe how happi i was ?! U NOE ONOT!! hashahahhhah see i siao liao. he din tok to the gal. the gal bullshitted. >.< see la. cry for nth again. i hate being so sensitive. z

its like. the way i tok to him ever since we've quarrelled is pretty nasty and heck care. but now. lol i cant bear to do that >.< haiya i jus cant get him out of my mind la. harfia. im sry la. u hav to see me going thru this again LOL.

oh to my sec4 frenx. <3 gl for O lvls. abit late.. but.. <3 hehehe

HAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA
kalafilochi

2005-11-05T02:10:00.000+08:00

havent been updating blog. bad kala *slap* lol xD well.. obviously alot of shit happens. but for now i wun write here. cos theres really too much to say..

ok im promoted to sec 4E next yr. but now.. to me.. so wad? get promoted means i'll do well in Os? ..now i feel the pressure. but i aint working hard. WHY? i duno. sick of studying. its like this week out of three schooling days. i only went once. and the amazing thing was that my mom din scold me. cos she knew i played computer games till late at nite. been rather in bad mood recently. in skool and on fone. duno wad came over me. sry guys. =(

maybe u guys dun see me blogging abt him anymore. do i still love him? yeah perhaps. but i've changed into a more moody person partly cos of him.. nah not him.. partly cos of wad he said when we quarrelled. "u treat me as a fren? but u're expecting from me as much as a bf" sometimes i duno how to put words across hes mind. yes true im not hes gf. thats why i cant say much. he doesnt love me. only i do. i love him. thats all.

sometimes i really hope he could swop places wif me to feel wad im going thru. but cant. cos life is nv fair. and i cant say such things to him cos hes rite.. "u treat me as a fren only?" i duno.. but after that quarrel we had like a week ago. things just keep spinning in my head till now. last nite. i saw some stuff which reminds me of how sweet he was and how much he used to care. i cried myself to slp. hate being weak. crying for a guy who doesnt care for u much is BAD.

"now u noe why i dun wana have a gf. troublesome. always got problems. mus care abt how they feeel. dun tok to them one min they kp." this was something like wad he said. yeah this and other statements definately pierce thru my heart rite in the middle. why do i always fall for such guys. guys who doesnt care for me. doesnt dote me and doesnt like me at all. what i need is not there. but i dun wan is everywhere.

for now. i concentrate only on my game. i dun care abt the rest anymore. not even my frens. im neglecting all now. seriously i duno wad the fuk i wan ZZZZZZZZZ im just sick of being sad hurt and. . . . . . i cant keep crying over the same guy. -.- i need a break.

screw PT's admin,
kalafilochi

2005-10-20T17:33:00.000+08:00

Results and promotion..

havent been blogging for quite awhile. sry abt that.

just read ivy grace and harfia's blog. argh they all made me cry. all graduating tml.. and i wun get to see them so often anymore.. i miss hanging out wif every single one of them. we're like all a family. haiz. i dun wan to let them go... why mus they graduate....................

i got back my results. its horrible. i hope i pass my english overall. i NEED to get promoted.!!

some of my gd frens in class arent doing pretty well. honestly. i dun wana see anyone retaining.. ok i dun mind keith and yi xuan retaining. but not the rest. i wan the rest to be up up UP wif me. (if i get promoted) i cannot let any single one of them go.. i wun break down. it cant tat serious. but i'll definately cry. but not in front of them. LOL if i could hold back my tears.

many ppl tink im attached. so now. since im blogging. i might as well make it clear. i am SINGLE. SINGLE SINGLE SINGLE. and currently NOT INTERESTED IN ANYONE. and WONT BE interested in anyone. i dun wana fall in love. its most of the time painful. why torture myself. for now. i only wana get over him. but how do i do it? well. i'll try my best. lol. "i dun wana go there ever again. i ren damn long u noe?" ...that sentence broke my heart. thks man.

shazana fadli kelvin yu yeng zul nicholas edward eileen mira malvin =D i love every single one of u. LOL from now on, i will NOT pon ten skool ever again. reason? i mus get to spend more time wif all this ppl! my loves!! LOL. not really in the mood to luff. cos. lol i'll really miss my 402 T_T. steffi grace ivy harfia pei rong pei shan ziyan yousuff ridz manpreet muthu marcus and so many.. T_T actually i missed yoman oso! LOL. too bad now we diff class. wonder how he did =/

hopefully things will go well for all of us. and of cos to my family members. well. may god bless EVERY SINGLE ONE OF US wif gd health and gd life =D

everyone of u,
will always be remembered =)

lots of love,
kalafilochi

birthday gal - yu yeng

2005-10-14T16:31:00.000+08:00

i feel like.. a thrash..
i feel like.. crap..
i feel like im jus a spare tyre..
i feel ... nvm
dun wana say anymore. lol

anyways. happie birthday yu yeng =) stay happy always !

u duno how long i had wanted to touch ur lips and hold u tite, alone.
u duno how long i had waited and i was gonna tell u tonite.
but the secret is still my own, and my love for u is unknown.

till now, i always get by on my own.
i never really cared until i met u.
and now it chills me to the bone,
how did i get you, alone?

till now, i always got by on my own/
i nv really cared until i met u.
how do i get u alone?
how do i get u????
how do i get u alone.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ZZZZZZZZZZ

`if only u knew wad im going thru,
its killing me painfully.
kalafilochi

exam fever OVER

2005-10-13T17:20:00.000+08:00

well. today maths paper. for paper 2. i was pretty screwed. ok actually not only me. but everyone ard me too. everyone was screwed. all was smiling after paper 1. but all grumbled at paper 2. >.< well 1st time in my life. i din manage to complete a maths paper in time. not bad. made history in my life today. i spent every single minute trying my best to do. well i managed to "try" all questions. but im satisfied wif a few.. and that few questions caused me 15marks.. perhaps more. cos i din hav time to check..

but i was telling myself. well exams are over. no point worrying abt results since we only get it back on wednesday. so for now. LETS HAVE FUN! =D hehehhe do i fear to retain? duh. who doesnt. further more chances of retaining for me now are higher. cos i screwed my maths. but i jus hope for the best. i aint going for DNT paper on monday. cos i wan a confirm pass. thye would take my midyr and tests marks instead if i dun go for the examination. its cheating rite? bbut at this point of time. i dun hav a choice. i need a confirm pass. =) now i only pray for my english..

im proud of myself. cos today is the 1st time which i fixed a meal for myself. i mean its not the 1st time im doing this. but its the 1st time i did it wifout burning myself. as in accidentally kana the hot plate or something.. ya =) hehehe im so happy! was sad moments ago. wasnt really sad. but was disappointed. cos i always get the same "results" time and time again.. oh well. if its lidat. i hav to "accept" it rite? LOL.

bloggy bloggy. hav not been blogging often anymroe. i dun even tink anyone still reads my blog. LOL. its so pathetic now. i guess i might stop blogging. lol not sure. blog blog blog. wtf am i toking abt? haiya sry.

5pm 5pm 5pm. i duno wad i wana do for the rest of the day. i dun seem to have anything to do. and im so FUKING BORED. exams exams exams. LOL FINALLY OVER. WHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA I WANA THROW MY SOFA DOWN MY HSE! lol. well at least this exam. i really did study hard. i raelly did push myself. oh hell yeah i did. ok im tired. i wana play game. LOL blog tml =) see u take care

AHEM. dun say i nv say this la. U SEE THOSE PPL UNDER MY FAV PPL SECTION? U GUYS WILL ALWAYS BE LOVED BY MOI!! =D muaacks to all! ESPECIALLY TO SHAZANA. >.< hahaha seriously when i read ur blog, i din see that coming from u =/

alrite, cheers!
kalafilochi

2005-10-11T12:10:00.000+08:00

fuk physics. there goes my A1 in my combined science. now i only can depend on chemistry. jia you jia you!!

=D

2005-10-11T02:56:00.000+08:00

i teared my heart open
i sew myself shut
my weakness is..
that i cared too much
and the scars remind us
tat the past is real
i teared my heart open
just to feel..

XD heheh kalala! wooohooO! well slp from 6pm to abt 12-1am. woke up and played abit of pt. >.< i did a lil revision. i tot i would have difficulty revising physics. cos i noe no shit. but when i do TYS, i could do most of the questions. and when i tot SS was like a fling. i cant remember no sht abt SS. -.- the thing i tot easy, i cant do. the thing i tot hard, i can do. expect the unexpected. LOL wtf??

today bio was.. ok honestly? the paper is easy. if u had done weekly revision or something. u'll definately get at least a B-grade. oh well. i definatley hope i pass. cos i only did abt 60marks. 40marks. i din leave it blank. but i duno the answers for 40marks. >.< biobio when can i ever pass bio.

after bio paper. fadli edd austin zul kelvin malvin chris and me. we all went bowling together! whahhahaa it wasdamn funie. then fadli wasin the mood. he made so much noise and funie stuff. den after awhile. he realised hes finger nail broke. he kept that particular finger nail for abt 3-5months. so imagine how long it is. he was soo sad that he sat down and kept quiet all of a sudden. he din continue playing. totally no mood. he was sooo upset. LOL like small boi lidat. >.< he still can sms me at 8pm plus and ask me tml wad exam and wad time end. LOL hes more interested at the time which the paper ends. lol we played till abt..2pmplus? den took cab back. shared the cab wif chris kel edd. al of us were tired.

when i reach home. nobody was home. so i cooked. and eat. den chat on fone wif fren. tilll abt 6pm. was really exhausted. >.< den when i wake up. ppl ask me play PT. and now im blogging after going thru physics and half of SS's chap 1 - Merger & Seperation. on SG and M'SIA. the past is the past. why make us study the past. so old fashion.

suddenly i find bio quite interesting. the stupid cells. the skin layer.. the sweat and sebaceous glands.. blah blah.. so interesting. LOL oooo i went to find job today. and i got rejected on the face. at coffee bean. cos i cant work long term. i only wana work to kil the hols. and they wanted long term. so it was like -.-" if i happen to work. i tink most of my frens would come down and luff at me >.< edd already say. if i work he will go down and kaobei me. LOL wad type of fren man.

actually after tml's paper. it woould be "exam over" for me. chemistry and maths. how to study? =/ hheheh DNT oso. haiya that one i dun care. hehe ok i go off 1st =) take care ppl! love u all!

I LOVE MOMMIE, DADDIE, DAUGHTER, EX-HUBBY, SON, BITCH AND MY BABY!
okok sumomo kelvin yu yeng zul fadli shazana and harfia. =)

lots of love,
kalafilochi
MUACK!

still come read my blog -.-

2005-10-09T23:02:00.000+08:00

abt time i stop sobbing over u

abt time i shld start to let go

abt time to see if u still care..

abt time that i jus place u as a fren

and abt time that i shld spend my time on other stuff..

if i could do that this shit. i would have done them a long time ago -.-

omg la stupid kala. well kinda alot of shit happened. behinds the doors. of my hse. my sis is coming back =) am happy in a way. cos shes back here wif us. really hope everything goes well for her. god will bless gd ppl rite? and punish evil ppl. like ME! =D

tml is exam. bio. but i havent gone thru a single piece of shit. bio. duno why i really got no mood to study. noeing i need to study the chap on SKIN. really maeks me sian1/2. maybe later i'll study a lil. maybe not. but last min work wun help rite? well. last min work din help me last yr.

i realised alot of my girl-frens ard me are having bgr probs. not really bgr. but.. having probs wif the guy they like. either the guy "toyed" wif them. or no feelings for them. or left them. or blah blah. haiya. why all the probs come attking at one time? end of yr exams. really determine if i can get promoted or wad. i noe as long as i pass my english. passing other 2subjs to get promoted would definately be a no prob. but wad if i fail my english. but can i fall back on? i need a fall back plan..

but i do realised something. if i wana do something. i shld do it all the way. if i hav a fall back plan. i would definately fall back. ok. screw the fall back plan. IM GOING TO GET PROMOTED! IM GOING TO PASS ENGLISH AND 2 OTHER SUBJS. OH YES I CAN. please >.< i dun wana retain again! it aint fun!

haiya so many probs. zzz cb fuk it la. now everyone is unhappy wif me. yes im a knnb ccb ok? happy? fuk it. w/e to all of u. im the bad one. u're the gd ones. im a fucktard. u're a retard. OK? cheebyes __

2005-10-05T14:55:00.000+08:00

...why?
this is one word i always wana ask u..
that time. u say next day go out. i said ok.
den when the next day comes. u said no mood / tired blah blah.
nvm i let it go TIME AND TIME AGAIN.
yesterday u were suppose to come.
but u din. u said today u will definately come.
and look. whos here?
only kala. ONLY KALA.
why make me happy by telling me the next day u'll company me
when u dun even hav the intention to do so?
if u really needed to study for exam
den why did u tell me that today u would come in the 1st place.
it aint ur fault. cos i cant ask for much.
IM ONLY A FUKING FREN THATS FUKING ALL.
im not angry. im jus sad and disappointed.
always lidat. plus u dun read my blog anymore
so i can pour everything out here openly.
i really tink u r beginning to dislike me.
if so. pls tell me. I REALLY DUN WANA HOLD ONTO THIS FOR NTH.
sometimes i really wana give up so badly.
but u jus do some stuff that make me feel even more happy.
my fren is rite. im blinded by love. blinded by u.
so blinded that i do stuff which i dun normally do.
standing half an hr at ur block jus waiting for u to appear.
it aint fun. it aint nice. wif so many ppl looking at me
tinking "omg this gal in skool u stand there like retard. wtf she doing?"
BABY IM GOING CRAZY SERIOUSLY.
haiya i dun force. i cant force. cos i dun own u.
loving u is so painful sometimes.
i jus wish i would die. and i hate crying. YES I HATE IT.
why i wanted u to come today was bcos i wanted to hug u badly
u noe how painful is it when i see u and i cant do it?
wana hug u and nv let go. but do u even feel the same way?
I FUKING LOVE U. BUT DO U EVEN LOVE ME?
NO U DONT. U LOVE PARIS. OH YES U DO.
im nothing in ur eyes. and will always be nothing.
rite now. im only hurt. THATS ALL. no big deal
cos to u. only paris matters. kala is nth compared to paris.
cos shes ur god rite?
i quit toking. i quit typing. and i might quit blogging.
cos recently each time i blog i would cry.
and i would blog abt u.
and its usually not stuff which are v delightful.
wad do i wana do now
simple. jus one thing
after exam - the 1st thing im going to do is go out janice.
i need a break from everything.
janice would help.
jan sometimes i really thk u for being in my life.
harfia. i wana eat a meal wif u. fish.. remember? we were suppose to eat fish together.
and jenkko. i promised u a movie.
and hk - i promised u an outing.
and maybe xing. cos he got "tortured" by me at times when im sad.
other than that.
kala doesnt wana do any shit no more
not for that man. not for her frens. not for her family members. not for anyone.
kala is selfish now.
kala places herself FIRST now. everybody is last. kala FIRST.
i jus wana feel the warmth i used to get from u
am i asking for too much?
if so. let me noe. i would dmg my brain from tinking this way.
IM REALLY INSANE NOW. THK U.

-brain dmg.

2005-10-03T17:46:00.000+08:00

when they are alone together.. none of them spoke. not even a single word to each other. it wasnt exactly a cold war but kala knew that he was upset. it was her birthday. ok lets give her a name. paris. ok? lol.

paris is a gal who holds such a high position in hes heart. kala knew hes mind was tinking all abt her. cos he smsed her. but she din reply.. kala din wana say a word cos nth she said could change hes mood. kala was upset and hurt. cos 1stly she could not make him happy. and 2ndly no matter how hard kala tries.. she can nv replace paris in that guy's heart.

kala thought to herself "lol u're such a fool." paris replied hes sms thru kala's fone. thking him for the wishes. kala couldnt wait to tell him that paris replied. cos he would be on cloud no 9. but kala would be on the ground.

last week. kala made a decision and she told fifi. kala wanted to stop liking him. wanted to give up. din wana hold on anymore. cos wads the point of holding onto something which wun have an ending or an answer. fifi respected kala's decision.. but one day when he got whacked. kala told fifi "i pretending to luff along. but when i saw him. all i could feel is real ache. real acheness in my heart. i wanted to sayang him. but.. zzz" fifi said.. "why do u feel ache? tot u said u wanted to stop liking him?" haiz kala couldnt answer fifi's question.

kala loves him so much. even if he loves kala. he would nv love kala as much as he loved paris. kala really feel so low. now on kala's winamp is "You're Beautiful - James Blunt".. the song.. its so true.. "u're beautiful.. u're beautiful.. u're beautiful its true.. i saw ur face in a crowded place and i duno wad to do. cos i'll nv be wif u.." the ending part of the song. is even more true. "but its time to face the truth.. i will never be wif u.."

kala listens to this song and blog. yes shes fuking hurt. SHE DOESNT LIKE THE FEELING OF BEING HURT. she tries to act normally. pretend everything is alrite. but at the rate that she's going. she can really go crazy. INSANE MADNESS! oh noe why kala often slaps herself? cos the pain she felt physically is NOTHING compared to wad she feels inside her heart.

and now tears roll down her cheeks.

U'RE CRYING AGAIN.

hopeless bitch.

Happy Birthday Daddie Kelvin =)

2005-09-30T23:59:00.000+08:00

happy birthday to u..
happy birthday to u..
happy birthday to dadddie~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U!!

=D

ich liebe dich =)

exam + fun day LOL

2005-09-28T21:31:00.000+08:00

i slp from 8pm till 630am =) did it on purpose. forced myself to slp though i woke up several times. needed a proper slp and sufficient rest for the most important paper in my life (perhaps? lol) den after the paper. zul and fadli asked if i wana come along to play pool wif them. alrite i said np. so i went home to change.. nicholas and kelvin went fadli's hse to change. cos pool ma. need home clothes den can go in.

den on the way home. shazana called me. she asked where i was. i said i going home to change den come out. den i asked her along. she actually din wana come. den i keep pestering her. LOL den she came =) WHAHHAHA. den we went loh. den we played pool. now my pool like sai. i cnt win anyone. even lost to nicholas. HE JUST LEARNT POOL TODAY. but he had tyco wins. ZZZ lucky piece of shit. ZZZZZ nvm. da de rang xiao. the 4 of us walked ard. den went to queenstown library for lunch. den we met fadli zul eileen and yu yeng there. LOL eileen so cute. yu yeng like unhappy lidat. but she said she was fine. so......... hmmm LOL. bo bian. she dun wana say i oso cant do anything. OOOH and fadli suaned me -.- "u put perfume one whole bottle ah? everywhere u go i oso can smell. 5 spray ony say lidat. paiseh la! then after that i make kelvin and shazana come my house! LOL. then they come there me and kelvin played monopoly. shazana din wanna play. then kelvin was nearly bankrupt at the end of the game but he had so much property. ask him sell to me. then time to go ready. i pay for thei cab fair! so nice rite? i noe. then stupid shazana still need to go cousin's place! siow one ah. ok i gtg. my place v messy. my blanket! WHHAHAHAH. kuku. ok see u take care =)

lots of love,
kalafilochi =)

Lay ur Hands on ME!

2005-09-27T16:12:00.000+08:00

it has been a yr. come and tink abt it. its really scary. last yr ard this time. i was preparing for exams. every 20mins i sit down to study i'll be on GunBound for like 2hrs. LOL. thats why i had this type of results. oh well. this yr. nah. i've grown. in a way. its gd. but its scary. today Fadli was like saying "tml is out Doom's day". tml is English paper. End of yr paper. the most important subject and the most important paper which will determine if u get promoted to sec 4 or retain in sec 3 or drop to 4NA. its really scary. i failed last yr. and now. i really hope i can pass. basically my other subjs arent that bad. but my english. its a subject u cannot study for. thats why im afraid. i duno wad to do. really hope i can pass.

i saw my group of girlfrens. =) love em all. they jus finished prelims today and going to town for a break. one of my girlfrens smsed me. "hey krys! duno y but i jus feel like saying, must study hard for ur upcoming exams k? dun be like me, nw regretting.." i do feel happy that i got encouragement from someone. someone who tells me not to give up. but i dun like it when she is like.. going thru or have gone thru the bad thing den tell me dun do it. its like. suffering in my place to give me an answer. LOL duno wad crap i doing. but gal, u noe who u r. thks =) wish u all the best in ur Os. i love u!

perhaps now is really the time i shld stop being so restless and slackie.. i mus work hard. i cant afford to drop again. if i were to drop again. I'LL SUICIDE. i mean it! Shazana!! lets pull this thru! we definately can do it! i love u bitch. i noe u love me too. LOL. >.<

-

Lay ur Hands on ME!!!!!!!

sometimes life can be a burden

trYing to stay one step ahead

i feel the world upon my shoulder each time

im standing out on the edge

and my hopes have all deserted me

like they washed away in the sand

and its hurting my pride

trying to survive

but i noe i stand a chance.

when u lay ur lands..

oh yeah. cos its the only thing i hav that still makes sense..

oh baby when im calling out

give me love and affection keep telling me, show me the way

oh if u see my falling down

lift me up frmm the shadows

will u take me to a better place?

and when im in my darkest hr

u'll be by my side to turn the tide until the suffering fades..

when life it getting me down, getting my down, im close to defeat..

come and lay ur hands on me.

reach out and lend me a hand. i need to pull this thru. would u help me? =D

kalafilochi X_x

one fine day in skool!

2005-09-23T17:55:00.000+08:00

let me help u / take off ur shoes / untie ur shoe strings / take off ur cufflinks / what u wana eat / boo, let me feed u / let me run ur bathwater / whatever u desire i'll aspire / sing u a song / turn the game on / i'll brush ur hair / help u put ur do-rag on / wana foot rub / want a manicure / baby im urs i wana cater to u boy.. / let me cater to u cos baby this is ur day / do anything for my man / baby u blow me away / i got ur slippers / ur dinner / ur dessert and so much more / anything u wan jus let me cater to u....

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! wad a screwed up day. LOL my maths paper. i still cant get over it.i did my graph wrongly. HOW CAN!! ojnasjdnjasdnkasndl nvm wads done cannot be undone.. but im still not satisfied. XD heheheh

actually nth to blog much today. after skool was fun. OH MY GOD. MY CHINESE ORAL. the teacher ask me question. i dun understand. i look at her. i tell her i duno how to answer. den she explain to me wads the meaning of the question. i noe she v nice explain to me. but she explain in chinese. how the hell i understand? i tried answering but i REALLY COULDNT. I TRIED BUT REALLY CANNOT!! den in the end i managed to.. get thru all this crap loh. it was a very tough and uneasy moment. but still. had to prepare for the big thing. MATHS TEST. and i screwed up the fuking paper. i had 10mins to rest somemore. why din i check the paper. stupid kala _l_

haiya weekend has come. i wana watch movie. but duno who to call oso. everybody seem to be too busy. either not convenient or too busy. so sad. I WANA WATCH MOVIE MOVIE MOVIE. i wana go out haev fun fun fun! poool movie game. blah. den EXAM. fuk. okoko i dun wana blog already. v tired. lmao XD hehehhe take care bb

lots of love,

kalafilochi

a story about kala.

2005-09-21T20:40:00.000+08:00

let me tell u a story.. about wad kala did today. in the evening. ESPECIALLY.

ok but 1st. during the afternoon. she went to watch The Longest Yard wif Fadli, Zul and Malvin. den she wanted to go to some Photo Shop to get a passport size foto of herself as her mother wans it. so malvin brings her to tiong baru after the show at Great world. in the bus. she had a fone call. it was from him. she had a rough conversation wif him. cos things are turning rusty. and he doesnt seem to bother anymore. kala felt heart ache the whole time. each time when she says she feels heart pain. she really meant it. she nv ever said it for the sake of saying it. but no one NO ONE will ever noe when shes serious cos everyone takes her lightly. but its ok.

kala hangs up wif that fellow and went to take photo at the foto shop. and she saw the most sacarstic miss leong. she felt sian1/2 as she had to put up a smile. den miss leong went. kala went to take pic. and for the 1st time in her fuking life. she look so haggard in that fuking foto shot. and that foto shot would be pasted on her fuking new passport. so do remember to check our her passport and luff at her alritess? =)

she made a detour ard tiong baru. she wanted the taxi. den she went to the mrt. Z den she walked to the taxi stand and couldnt find any taxi stand and walk walk walk until the mrt again. nvm. she decided to take the mrt. in the mrt. everyone was pushing. her breast was being PRESSED like some pancake. funie? yeah i tot so to. had no mood to cover or protect her own breast. she jus let ppl press. Z nvm. once she got off the stop at Buona Vista mrt. harfia called. she actually yelled at harfia. harfia. kala is sorry. she din mean it. kala might hav hurt u by shouting. but kala really couldnt take it. kala din wana share her prob at that time cos everythign was like hell to her. oh. den kala walked from the mrt to near by ULU pandan CC. near by near by.

she went to BLock 10 to cut hair. can u believe she actually walked there? well. she felt so dead cos she missed the fuking bus 92 rite in front of her fuking face. so she walked. and a car almost knock her down. WHY DOES ALL THE CARS IN THE WORLD LOVES TO ATTK KALA? i simply dont get it. neither does kala. she went to the haircut auntie to cut hair. yes she went back to the chinadoll hairstyle. cos she always believe that each time she cuts her hair. she can either cut away her sorrowness away. or start a new life. for this time round. kala wanted to cut her sorrowness away. she always blames it on her stuff. like eg she has a new bag. and things have not been rather smooth for her. she blames it on her bag. cos its new. affects the "fong shui". kala was jus trying to find an excuse to push the blame to something. cos in that way. she'll feel beta.

den after cutting. kala was walking.. walking walking walking.. and she ended up standing under his hse block. oh no. he din noe.. this was their fone conversation at 8pm
"ehh.. u slpping ah?" -kala
"hmm.." -him
"oh.. jus wanted to say sry abt jus now.."
-silence- -him
"hello?" -kala
"hmm?" -him
"oh. jus wanted to say sry abt jus now. eh u so tired u go slp ba. byebye" -kala
"byebye" -him
i tink he said it very softly.. or maybe din even say.. kala just hang up..
well. he din noe. kala was at hes block downstairs for HALF AN HR. he din noe. kala din wana let him noe either. kala decided not to go skool tml. she wans to run away from reality. i nv tot kala would do that.. she actually stood there for freaking half an hr wif many ppl looking at her when she was looking up at the blocks hoping he would suddenly look out of the window and see her there. she wanted to see him badly. she wanted to hug him badly. she wanted to apologise over everything. cos she couldnt afford to lose him.. she din wan things to turn rusty.. but shit jus happens.

kala hung up the fone wif him and went straight home. she ran home. yes. by her foot. she din have a single cent wif her. and damn bus 92 was not avaliable after 8pm. so she ran home. she din stop running at all. she was hurt. i slapped kala when she was running. but she couldnt felt any pain physically as the pain in her heart "overcomes" all the other pain she gets from outside.. why is kala so foolish? kala used to be strong. she used to stand up tall. she couldnt fall at all. look at her now. jus one HIM. and he takes her life. nono. hes not the bad one. but kala fell for him. cos . . . . . . how did it happen? kala doesnt have an idea. love jus comes as and when it likes. and goes as and when it likes.

kala came online. to blog. in msn. she saw a fren's nick..
if u love something, let it go.. if it comes back, its urs.. if it doesnt, den it was never..
kala noes she had to let go a long time ago. she tried. yes she did. OH HELL SHE DID. but now shes lost. kala u cant keep crying over the same guy. u gotta be strong. i rather kala becomes heartless now. den to be so sensitive. kala i dare u to strip. LOL.

and i dare u to do things that u tink u'll HAVE FUN WIF. =)
enjoy urself kala...

*he promised kala that things would not turn rusty ever again. he promised her that on her birthday. and it was like 16days ago. kala wad were u doing?*

my life is brilliant / my love is pure / i saw an angel / of that im sure / he smiled at me on the subway / he was wif another gal / but i wun lose no slp on that / cos i got a plan / u're beautiful / u're beautiful / u're beautiful its true / i saw ur face in a crowded place / and i duno wad to do / cos i'll nv be wif u

=D HAPPY ENTRY

2005-09-20T15:40:00.000+08:00

ok. today kala is not feeling happy. so kala is going to. start swearing. like some fuking retard. pls pardon me.

FUK U U FUKING MORON
U ASS HOLE. ONE BY ONE ALL LIDAT
CHEEBYE U ALL TAKE ME AS WAD
KNN USE LIAO THROW?
FUK LA. ALL COME SHOW ATTITUDE
SUK MY DICK LA U LANJIAO PPL
CHEEBYE SIT DOWN TOK TO U ALL NICELY
ALL COME SAY NO MOOD
FUK U ALL LA.
I NO MOOD OSO SIT DOWN LISTEN TO UR CRAPS
CHEEBYES WHY ALWAYS GIVE IN TO U ALL
JUS BCOS U GUYS YOUNGER SO I GIVE IN?
FUK U CHEEBYE LA.
THIS IS HOW FREAKING PISSED I AM OVER THIS FUKING SHIT.
OVER THIS FUKING SCKOOL. AND OVER THIS FUKING PPL.
NOT HAPPY? COME UP TO MY FACE AND TELL ME
NO NEED TO ACT.
CHEEBYES ALL ONE BY ONE LIDAT.
IF I GOT A DICK I'LL FUK EVERY SINGLE ONE OF U
BE IT MAN OR WOMAN
FUK ALLOF U!
FUKF FUKF FUKF FUKFUKFUKUFKUFKUKFUKFUKFUKFUKFUKFUK

-cooooooooooooooooool-

15September2005. I will nv forget. =)

2005-09-16T20:24:00.000+08:00

havent been blogging lately X_x din really get to come online often. cos i "gave up" on my com for the moment. yesterday was a day i definately would remember for the rest of my life. dun ask me to elaborate. if i were to say wad happened. i would be crazy. i enjoyed every moment. and i meant every moment. so i thk U. in a way =) we had fun. we enjoyed the fun. rite? =D i was upset when it was over. duno why was i so upset. maybe i was confused. but still. i was tinking. since we all enjoyed it. why shld i be so upset? do i wan it to happen again? .......honestly? ...................................yes. LOL.

okok today in skool. duno to say if its sway or wad. Anish. my class mate. she does homework for 7 of us in class. 7 random ppl. den all nv get caught. ONLY I GET CAUGHT. miss sheryl sim called me out. "is this ur work?" i noe she noe that its not my work. cos she noes my handwriting. so i said no. den she tell me "go home and write 'i wont do my friend's homework again' 1000times for me. u and anish. punishment." ZZZZZ den after skool. yu yeng shazana kelvin and fadli. we all went to tiong baru and watched Cinderalla Man.. din noe wad the show was abt. but it was a nice show. a lil too long. pretty draggy. but its a nice show. 6.5/10. i would rate it lidat.

harfia called me. =) we hide no secrets from each other. told it all! both of us. ALL! whahahha yesterday she scolded me. and today. she wanted me to scold her back. but how could i? i find that.. we gals. get into things very easily. LOL. is it bad ? is it gd? I DUNO. dun wana noe too. i like it now. so i'll let it be it.

song time =)
Kelly Clarkson - Because of You

* lose my way / n its not too long b4 u point it out / i cannot cry bcos i noe thats weakness in ur eyes / im forced to fake a smile, a luff / everyday of my life / my hrt cant possibly break when it wasnt even whole to start wif.. / becos of u i nv stray too far from the sidewalk / bcos of u i learned to play on the safe side so i dun get hurt / bcos of u i find it trust not only me but everyone ard me / bcos of u.. i am afraid... / becos of u i nv stray too far frm the sidewalk / bcos of u i learned to play on the safe side so i dun get hurt / bcos of u i tried my hardest just to forget everything / bcos of u i duno how to let anyone else in.. / bcos of u IM ASHAMED OF MY LIFE BECAUSE ITS EMPTY.. / bcos of U.. i ammmmmm afraid.. / because of u..*

lots of love =)

kalafilochi

I LOVE U!

just bored hungry and lonely!

2005-09-12T19:53:00.000+08:00

=what made you happy todae?=
him

=what made you sad this week?=
having no money =/

=has someone/somebody make u happy lately?=
him him him!

=how are you feeling at the moment?=
waiting for him to go home. LOL

=are you the type of person who easily gets hurt?=
actually... ya =/

=do you cry?=
im an emotional gal >.<

=have you ever been to a point in your life that you've thought about giving up?=
yeah. i gave up a long time ago =/

=the last movie you watched?=
hmm.. LONGEST YARD! hahah!

=with who?=
Kelvin Daddie!

=the last song you heard?=
Christina Aguilera ft Missy Eliott - Car Wash!

=the last thing you bought?=
food. eh no. a drink =) WATERMELON JUICE!

=the last place you went?=
NUH. visited a fren =/

=the last food you ate ?=
during recess.. hmm fishball noodles

=the last thing you heard from your parents?=
mommie : dinner settle urself!
daddie : I'LL LOCK UP UR COM!

=the last thing you said to your parents?
mommie : ..ok ty
daddie : ...damn u

=the last thing you said to one of your friends?=
byebye love u take care see u tml =)

=the last thing you read?=
new paper

=the last person you called?=
him

=the last person who called you?=
him

= the last person who msg you?=
harfia

= the last person who said you'repretty/handsome?=
HIM! whahaha

=the last person who gave you a testimonial?=
check urself -.-

=the last person who messaged you onym/msn?=
SUMOMOCHAN MOMMIE!

=the last person/s you window shopped with?=
window shopping? hmm.. kelvin daddie =)

=the last person you kissed goodnight?=
HIM!

=the last person you kicked?=
punch can? CHUN JUN! sry chuN! =/

= the last person you think of before going tosleep?=
him. always him. =D

=the last thing you're goin to do before goingto sleep?=
write diary and tinking if hes aslp..

=the last time you went clubbing?=
a month ago?

=What song are you listening to now?=
Sugababes - Caught in the Moment.

=handphone brand?=
samsung!

=wat wud u do if sumone tells u he/she likes u?=
if i like the person. den maybe i'll take one step forward by telling the person i like him toO!but if i dun hav feelings for the person. i will tell the person straight. and i'll still treat him normally like how i do =) i wun let it ruin my frenship wif the person.

=where do u live?=
Pine Grove!

= what can't you live w/out?=
him..

=Who are you thinking of right at this moment?=
him

=what do you want most?=
HIM! and food. i havent settle my own dinner =/

= what would best describe you?=
ANGELIC! whahhahah! hmm.. best describe me? hmm. a word? ok.. weird!

=who do you hate?=
dun hate anyone. =/

=what are you most looking forward to now?=
his fone call! whahahaha!

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thats wad i did on frenster.. OH AND ONE MORE THING!
http://tests.studentcenter.org/jealousytest.php
You are 55.56% jealous!
whoops?

went NUH to visit a fren early on. DAMN IT HE LOOK SO FUKING HOT AND HANDSOME. i wun deny it. he was one of the better looking crush i had last time. whahaha. like ii said its a crush. =/ glad to see him alrite. jus a lil brain lost. well i do pray for him. hope that he'lll get well soon. skool's boring wifout a hunk. whahhhahaa! kidding.

nth mcuh to blog today. it was raining and i took a cab home wif a fren =) HEHEHEH okok dunw ana blog le. i wana batheeee! WHY NO DINNER? *SOB*

lots of love
to u to him to everyone
kalafilochi (yes she treats everyone equally now LOL)

HAPS!

2005-09-11T11:41:00.000+08:00

WHAHAHAHAH so long nv blog liao =/
pspspspspspspspspS!!!!!
hmm... hollidays are gone.. and i've not done any revision..
been going out and playin PT..
my credit for PT ends today. so therefore. i'll stop playing for a month.
cos EXAMS ARE COMING. must study >.<
so maybe if possible i wun even try to touch the com. haha
notihng much actually..
cos i've been rather happy lately =)
hmm.. im going on a vacation..
to turkey..
on 14Nov. to 24Nov i guess?
well.. im not very kin.
cos JAMES KUAH [my father] is coming along.
whahahahaha.. but get to see my sis
but obviously i'll miss my frens.
plus i dun really like travelling..
kalafilochi..
i tried playing gb yesterday.
totally sucked.
i keep tking myself.
felt sooo noooob!
anyways.
i gtg now.
got date wif charles at 1pm
zzzz TILL THEN =D
SEE U!

lots of love
filo filo filo chiiiiiiiiiiiiii!

Ghost of You and Me

2005-09-09T12:50:00.000+08:00

what am i supposed to do wif all these blues..
haunting me everywhere..
no matter wad i do..
watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow
i cant let go.. when will the nite be over?
i din mean to fall in love wif u..
and baby theres a name for wad u put me thru..
it isnt love its robbery..
im slpping wif the ghost of u and me..
seen a lot of broken hearts
go sailing by phantom ships lost at sea
and one of them is mine.
raising my glass i sing a toast to the midnight sky
i wonder why the stars dont seem to guide me..
i din mean to fall in love wif u
and baby theres a name for wad u put me thru
it isnt love. its robbery..
im slpping wif the ghost of u and me
the ghost of u and me
when willit set me free?
i hear the voices call.. following footsteps down the hall
trying to save whats loft og my heart and soul...
watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow..
i cant let go..
when will the nite be over???
i din mean to fall in love wif u..
and baby theres a name for wad u put me thru..
it isnt love its robbery..
im slpping wif the ghost of u and me..

2005-09-09T02:34:00.000+08:00

sry din blog for a long time.. have been going out most of the time recently.. >.< just a short post. my birthday. afternoon was miserable. nite was marvellous. hehe after that nite.. things have been going smoothly for me.. real smooth. yeah im loving it =) now im gonna blog whenever im sad. cos when im happy. im jus too happy that i duno wad to blog. cant say wad happened either. cos.. i dun tink he wans ppl to noe. LOL. bottom line. hes driving me crazy =/ ILY! =D thks for making my day time and time again! u rawk! hahahhahaah

XD IMY ILY INY! try guessing wad they are
lots of love!
kalafilochi

5th September. the day i was born in the yr of 1989 =)

2005-09-05T10:56:00.000+08:00

i woke up. received plenty of sms wishes.. came onnline.. many ppl wished me in the game and on frenster.. hehe jus wana say thk u guys sooo much. u guys made me cry! damn it. tears of joy perhaps. for now. im jus waiting for that oneperson. hahah he din wish me >.< thks anyways.. u guys really made my day.!

4th September 2005 ===> 5th September 2005

2005-09-04T17:58:00.000+08:00

just a few more hrs.. and it'll be my birthday..
am i excited? not v sure..
zhi xing =) hehehehe everytime i tokto him i feel so happy
well. hope can tok to him everyday
den can forget all my troubles.
RITE ZHI XING? XD
hes a busy man. I UNDERSTAND >.<
well. tml might be going out..
not sure who going oso..
not really organised.
going to watch mid nite movie.
HEHEHEHEHE
call my hp wish me happy birthday oK?
94514332. =)
quite alot of ppl wish me le. ok la i pretty happy

i said hi to my real blood brother online. hes name is eric.the conversation goes like that. my nick was kalafilochi as usual. and my display pic and a picture of myself..

kala - hi eric kuah!
eric - hihi!
eric - who r u??

..............................wad type of brother is that!! he forgotten abt me?! HES REAL BLOOD SISTER?! yeah u mus be wondering how can i be forgotten. RITE? =x its ok.. i duno wad to wish for on my birthday if i happen to blow the cake tml.. i dun wana wish that i'll be wif him. cos for the past few yrs. when i wish i wana stay wif my bf forever. i tend to dump them after a few months. LOL so.. not gonna wish for love. maybe gonna wish for studies? doesnt sound like me ritE? well.. kala has grown. only a yr.. and it has changed my life totally. a big change.. i cant even accept it.. but i have to.. im old.. i dun a long way to go anymore. its jus a matter of time. its scary. lol luff wif me pls. at least let me be happy for the moment =) sing ur heart out wif me. u noe i lvoe singing

lots of love
happy birthday kala
filochi

2005-08-31T15:12:00.000+08:00

sometimes in life. u only got one shot.
but for me. i dun even have a shot.
even if i have a shot. things wun end up nice.
everything seems so irritating ard me.
only need him to be ard.
LOL only he who matters now.
but damn him. coz sometimes he doesnt tink of how i feel.
but i dun blame him. i aint hes gf -.-
im only hes fren. i dun expect much from him.
i jus wan him to treat me MUCCHHH better.
i jus wana be as close to him as possible.
thats all. is that a lot?
but why does he "flirts" in front of me -.-
either on purpose or not. STILL. i get hurt.
he's not in my boat so he'll never understand.
i wun blame him either. aint hes fault. im the problem one.
omg kala u suk. really u do.
suddenly i jus feeel like going back to the old times.
like how i went out wif janice and gang..
that period of time. really made me forget my sorrowness.
maybe i shld? and maybe i would..

signing off,
kalafilochi

i made a same mistake. TWICE IN MY LIFE! wtf

2005-08-25T17:37:00.000+08:00

i realised a made a mistake.. the same mistake which i made abt a yr ago.. im such a fool. shld hav seen that coming.. why was i so stupid.. why werent u more direct? they say u might be serious.. OMG WHY WAS I SUCH A FOOL? how could i made the same mistake twice in a row.. omg kala wads wrong wif u? ARGHH I HATE MYSELF!! SO VERY MUCH!!! KAJSDANJDNAKD baby i need u to "repeat" wad u did again.. otherwise.. i'll suffer slowly lidat. i din see that coming. seriously. IM SUCH A BLUR SOTONG! HOW CAN I BESO BLUR. HOW CAN I TREAT IT AS A JOKE? omg i tot u werent serious. in fact now. im still not sure if u were serious abt that statement.. OMG KALA I HATE U! WHY DID U LET ANOTHER GD GUY GO AGAIN. AGAIN AGAIN AGAIN?! ok stop scolding. if he wasnt serious.. den.. i got angry wif myself for no reason? i wana ask him if he was serious. REALLY DYING TO ASK. but wad if he wasnt serious and he was jus playing afool. OMG DEN I WOULD BE SO PAISEH? ..oh god help me -.-

just a short note.

2005-08-24T22:42:00.000+08:00

the more i tink abt it..
the happier i become..
and i began to hold higher hopes..
wad if it fails?
..take the initiative?..
nah.. no balls to do so.
its the 20th centuary i noe..
but still. guys can do the job rite?
if he likes me means he likes..
if by a lil thing can like stop him from liking me..
den i would rather not like him any further..
a guy whos feeling towards me is weak..
can jolly well kiss my candy black ass..
i only wan a guy who willl always be there for me
and genuine to me..
i need that guy to love me..
but why cant i find that guy?..
hao nan ren bu rong yi zhao..
kala.. u're a fiasco..
ty.

love is a game?

2005-08-23T19:08:00.000+08:00

i was reading all my 1st few entries. mostly on me being crazy over paul.. seeing how obsessed i was.. and being soo hurt. sometimes i feel.. "my racing heart is just the same.. why make it strong to break it once again?" this statement.. so true.. but loving another person gives u another experience rite? i might be missing out something if i dun fall for this guy.. shld i go for it? or shld i let him make the move? ...for now.. i tink i'll wait.. if he doesnt do anything. den i'll just wait like this. hahah. silly kala

kala might be doomed..

2005-08-23T15:12:00.000+08:00

i got back my hp yesterday.. mr ali. ok la. hes a gd teacher i wun deny. but still. dun like him. lol.. last nite was pretty crazy.. had a conversation wif a fren.. and it shocked me.. i mean i din noe how to answer tht fren of mine.. din noe how to reply.. din noe wad to say.. i was caught in the middle. i admit. lol. nvm.. i dun tink such conversations will happen again. coz it mightbe part of me anyhow tink.. as in tink too much..

ok enuff. im at manda's hse today. in fact.. now. jus had my lunch wif her oso. she and her kenny. zzz she jus simply cant get rid of him.. as him.. off her mind.. she asked me "wad did i do wrong?" after her incident i realised something.. sometimes its not ur fault. if the feeling is gone. means its gone.. no matter wad u do to try to save the relationship. once its gone means its gone. at least she experienced her magical moment wif him once in her life.. i see some couples turning from frens to couples and den to enemies.. how did love become hatred? wad happened in the midst? sometimes.. we cant even give an answer to it.. lol. typical human beings. -.-

kala has been happie recently. =) kala is a gd gal. she listens to ppl now. haha wth am i typing. sry.. was suppose to go out wif hou kwang (my ex NS bf.. den one which i had when i was sec 2-3.. if u guys remembered. i called him turtle in front of u ppl in reality?) maybe my ex classmates would noe.. yeah was suppose to go out wif him. maybe later this week. hes bday is this thursday so i dun wana touch that day. was suppose to meet him yesterday.. but i had 2nd tots.. i mean.. it has been so long since i last met him.. and somehow.. im a lil afraid. of? not very sure.. 2nd Oct.. who noes wad really happened that day? only i noe. lol.. and a few other peeps. how? shld i meet him b4 he leaves for thailand this sunday? give me comments on my tag board. IM FEELINGRATHER SCARED! or shld i bring a fren along? who shld i bring? harfia wana come wif me? ..but she always hav curfew -.- ass hole! lol kidding

was suppose to go home and slp.. but i ended up at this woman's hse.. and she simply CANT STOP EATING. -.- yeah shes luffing here when i type this. shes eating desert now. she say shes notfull. omg wtf is wrong wif her. crazy woman. STOP LOOKING AMANDA -.- I'LL KILL U!

she gave me an evil smile.. to hell wif her. lol im feeeling rather weird. i told 3 ppl wad happened.. 1 say "i tink u're tinking too much". one of the other 2 ppl was amanda.. she said "u're in deep shit. GOOD JOB WOMAN!!" u noe why she said that? coz i said that statement to her when she 1st fell for kenny.lol.. retribution indeed. GOD HELP MEE.. kala having mixed feeling.. ok la. not mixed feeling. im certained wif wad im feeling now.. but im afraid to take one step forward.. if i do. i might fall.. coz if things doesnt go in my way.. tats like the end of me.. nvm. guys shld take the initiative.. i'll wait. if he really feels something abt me. den things will work out. if not.. nvm loh. ITS OK. frens are oso cool =)

quite afraid to step into a relationship oso. coz might ruin the frenship forever. kala. wad u gonna do abt it? i wan!! but i dun wish to.. omg.. HOW. HOW how HOW how HOW how HOW how HOW how HOW!! kala fuk u. omg amanda said ai qing shi ke yi pei yang de.. i tink shes insane. "EVERYDAY I LOVE U LESS AND LESS!!" lol she keeps singing this song.. its on radio somemore -.- now this song keeps spinning ard me head.. my head got hole liao. lol

*you look into my eyes / i go out of my mind / i cant see anything / coz ur love's got me blind / i cant help myself / i cant break the spell / i cant even try.. / ooooo baby im tooo lost in u / caught in u.. / lost in everything abt u / so deeep.. i cant slp.. / i cant breathe.. i cant tink.. / i jus tink abt the things that u do.. / well im too lost in u..*

lots of love..

no.. shld i say..

kala is in love..

lol?

..boring. lol

2005-08-19T15:02:00.000+08:00

you're jus too gd to be true.. cant take my eyes off u.. u feel like heaven to touch.. ohh i wana hold u soo much. as long as love is alive.. den i thk god im alive.. u're jus too gd to be true.. cant take my eyes out of you.. XD nice song sia.. lauryn hill rawks! yeah im listening to her version.. lol. shes such a gd singer sia!! hehhe XD

last nite slp late. was chatting wif ppl on fone.. lol the conversation was pretty funie. i had fun =) den morning wake up. no hp = no clock. i see the sky. omg la so bright. den i faster chiong to my toilet. change brush teeth blah blah. den chiong go skool. heng i on time.. =] sat between anish and kelvin in the morning.. both of them quite funnie.. haha.. anish siao siao one. keep "UTT! UTT UTT!' den i was like '..edison is beta..' den she over edison's face. and keep pointin at utt's face. -.- she got this poster on herfile wif the both of them on it. thats why.. XD wadeva la. edison or utt. doesnt matter. haha

english lesson was as usual boring. every english lesson i oso wana fall aslp. that stupid ms leong so boring loh. ZZ shes a not bad teacher la. but its really fraeking boring. i bth.. den history lesson. another miss leong. today she PMS. ki siao. so fierce. XD den chinese lesson. ok la chinese was quite fun. ^^ haha.. hmm actually nth much really happened in skool today.. nth much to blog oso..

Lynn and yu yeng gave the teachers my number... for lynn.. she wrote my number. and say its her mother's number. so i hav to pretend to be her mom. its so funnie when she come approach to me and say "can u be my mommie?" hhahah XD tink she was quite paiseh la. coz we dun even tok one.. den yu yeng gave the chinese teacher my number.. coz the chinese teacher wans yu yeng's parents number.. ..yeah im old. den i mus change my voicemail.. i made myself sound more old and i slang abit. so sound more matured. haha.. bo bian. i too pro. allapproach me.. HAHAH kiddding. >.<

blog blog blog. its so boring. nth to say loh. ZZZ .dun wana blog liao. i feel so retarded here tokin shit. i go PT. LOL my dear classmates.. good luck for ur 2.4km run. OH U GUYS ARE RUNNING NOW RITE? lol. i got 18day MC pe excuse. OOPS. =X

*lol the taxi uncle so cute sia. funie weird uncle.*

filochi
loves
YOU!

my hp confiscated. yet im feeling alrite!

2005-08-18T18:01:00.000+08:00

wad a day it has been... wad a nite it may seem.. why? its almost like beeeing.. in love! HAHA thats a song. but really.. wad a day it has been.. today it was running.. yu yeng tio kanned upside down. 1st - personal reasons.. 2nd - mr chen ki siao. 3rd - mr ma.. she damn poor thing. if i was her.. i dun even tink i would bother tokin to anyone.. but at least she was much cooler than i expected.. someone grown up liao =) she managed to cheer up in awhile.. thats a gd thing.. hehe.. silly daughter of mine..

oh during PE.. i was smsing kelvin. coz he din come skool.. hahah.. den when PE lesson ended.. i waited for yu yeng coz mr ali wanted to tok to her.. den i saw them tokin together at the field.. den i went behind the pillar and check my hp.. den mr ali came. like jus 2sec later. "krystal wad are u doing?" den he knew i took out my fone. he tot i used it. so he say he wana take it. he asked if i was using it. i said no. he din believe.. he said he can check blah blah.. den i say i was using like mins ago.. but not when he caught me.. den he said "is it rite to use it during skool hrs?" blah blah blah.. den i gave in loh.. din wana argue.. lol a small thing like this. i din wana burst it into a big thing. so i diam. den he say "monday come and see me. i'll give it back to u.. or maybe.. i tink i shld pass it to mr chua.." i was like ...omg u fuking moron.. lol but honestly.. i wasnt angry.. in fact. i was still smiling.. was acting pek chek.. but was still smiling.. din feel a single thing when he took my fone. why? KALA WHY? HP WAS SO IMPORTANT TO U!! WHY U LIDAT NOW? ..maybe some other stuff are more important now? lol.. i duno myself.

den back in class. during maths lesson. nicholas nose bleed.. den the blood drip onto hes pants there.. jus on top of the zip there. hahhaa. den he show "us" as in the class. coz he faced us. den he point at the spot. den i started luffing.. den miss sim ask edd to bring him to sick bay.. they came back like 15mins later.. edd say "we got kicked out of sick bay! they din allow nicholas to go in. so we went toilet.. den on the way up... i found this!!" edd took out a snail!! hahaha a small snail.. he placed it on the floor. well he wet part of the floor for the snail.. den chun jun went to kick the snail. den edd wanted to kick chun jun's balls.. den chunjun was like scolding cb.. den edd was like "u kick MY snail and u still scold me cb??!?!?!?" lol they were all speaking in a joking manner.. but edd was so protective over the snail sia.. XD he was a big heart!!

after skool i went for my DNT course at Singapore Poly.. we went straight after skool. the 17 of us were in the coach.. omg la. the coach was in a mess. all were running around.. sitting on each other.. squashing austin.. haha rather fun.. but somehow i felt something was missing.. till now. cant figure out wad was it. lol... den we went for lunch at SP. their food there very nice. quite cheap oso. their canteen like food court lidat. quite nice one.. den when we eat finish.. i went to collect my bag. i placed it on another table.. den when i was putting my wallet inside my bag.. got this guy from nex table. well he was jus in front of me. coz the place was super cramp.. he kept looking at me.. den he put hes hand in front of me.. like trying to call me lidat.. den i looked up.. den he look at me.. den he point at hes fren.. den i look at hes fren. hes fren look at me but nv say anything.. den i look back at him.. den i was like "tmd. playing trick on me? zz wadeva. no mood to play wif u" den i look down and grab my bag and jus go.. den when i left. i heard the guy telling hes fren "ni bu shi yao ren shi ta ma? ren jia zhou le la!" in english.. its "din u wana noe her? now she go alraedy la." lol.. i jus walk la. din care. den fadli came to me.. "those ppl disturbed u ah?" i din say anything.. i jus nodded my head.. den he was like "go scold them la! give them one tight slap.!" lol.. i love to do that.. but now.. im avoiding all troubles.. dun wana get myself into trouble involving some stuff which are not worth the time.. XD hehehe

the course was quite.. alrite la.. quite interesting.. i burnt myself accidentally on my finger.. but heng no mark.. if not so ugly.. got one mark on my finger liao.. that one i burn myself using fire.. coz i was playing wif candles when i was young.. i loved laying wif candles.. lighting them and seeing it burn.. i tot it was beautiful.. XD ok im a weird fellow. i noe.. den in the bus.. on the way home.. i did alot of tinking.. i was tinking "is SP the skool i really wan to go in? if i were to go there. wad courses would i wana do? will i meet sickening ppl like those ppl i met during lunch time? what if my pareents wans me to go JC?" such questions jus suddenly float by my head.. but wad really surprised me was.. i was not as sad as i was suppose to be.. as in when i lost my fone..i kinda hav "no feeling" abt it. i wanted to feel sad and stuff. but that feeling jus din come.. lol..

congrats shazana.. u got back ur fone! her fone got confiscated rite in front of my very own eyes.. for 3days? by my chem teacher.. shazana was my partner.. and i saw the teacher coming. i din noe shazana was using the fone.. and i was so blur. i was , once again, tinking of some stuff.. den the teacher came and took shazana's fone.. lol.. she was like 'walaooo.. my fone... that stupid old womann KJBSWKDBJBFD' hahha.. shes my gangster.. XD

..weird.. got this fellow.. named denise from class 311. added me in msn and ask if we could be frens. ...hahaha XD she say i saw her b4. and she saw me b4. hahaha. well gotta chat wif her. den go play PT.. dun wana tok le.. for once.. i smiled for quite long.. feeling quite happie in a way. wifout my fone.. the feeling is weird.. but i need my hp back for a simple reason.. if its not for that reason.. i wun even bother abt my fone.. well. wads the reason? lol, ask harfia. she noes. i told her. but i wun allow her to tell anyone. HAHAHA =p keep trying ppl!

take care see u god bless
lots of love
kalafilochi
=D

simple entry. just for you

2005-08-16T19:21:00.000+08:00

been rather recently.. =) my birthday coming in 20days time. well.. sweet 16 indeed. really feel old now.. looking at the ppl ard me.. i start calling them small gal / small boi.. well.. cant blog much today. jus simply these few lines. coz tutor is coming.. i jus hav this simple note for this simple fren which i have..

simple words can actually hurt u? well im not that surprised.. those words hurt me before too.. u'll jus hav to learn from it like how i did. i grew stronger after each experiences. u promised me stuff. but since when did u really did not break ur promise? wher were u when i needed u? u left me standing here.. all alone.. by ymself.. a long long time ago.. why din u lead me? show me the way to ur life. show me to way to ur heart. why did u stop? no.. why did u even start.? sry if im confusing ppl again. but yeah one thing leads to another. i do hav alot of problems. but i dun voice em out. thk god i learn how to let go.. if i din learn. i would properly die under ur hands of torture. 2yrs.. u MADE ME SUFFER FOR 2 FUKING YRS OF MY ENTIRE LIFE. thks for the experience anyway. i grew MUCH MUCH MUCH stronger from it. now.. i duneven noe who u r. both of us has changed. u changed.. u start feeling guilty.. while i changed.. become ruthless.. not as soft hearted as last time. din u had "NEW LIFE"? oh well. i having a "NEW LIFE" now. i dun need u in my life. dun need dun wan and dun wish to hav u in my life. i wan nth to do wif u. a tit for a tat. it sounds so evil. so mean. but compared to all the shit u've done. this is just a peanut. once again. thks for making me a stronger person. i dun hate u.. really.. i jus wan nth to do wif u. coz i wun give u the slightest chance to hurt me again. nice try though. but still. N O NO! no way never ever will that happen AGAIN! EVER!!

kalafilochi
cool down kala =)

and tutor is late for 20mins. as usual. LATE LATE LATE

SO MUCH FOR A FREN. THK U SO MUCH. SAW THE UGLY SIDE OF U TODAY. THK U.
(EDITED AT 10PM PLUS)

hmmm?

2005-08-11T19:47:00.000+08:00

hehee.hihihi!! how r u!!! hahaa.. die. i siao liao. ok la. actually din wana blog today.. but sadly. i have nth else to do.. maybe u might as.. "ehh. why u nv play ur game?" ..well.. its a simple answer. my game credit is up. XD so freaking sad. BUT i bought a new card. hahaa card = credit to the game. lol. hahaha can play pt again. hahahaha.. aww i miss my lil prs. XD

hmm.. today morning assembly was pretty fuked. mr chua. my skool dm. duno wads hes prob. he today bad mood i guess. we all got lectured. kinda lectured. the whole skool. XD oh my parents came back frm overseas.. tink it was yesterday. or the day b4. LOL cant remember.. my father says im hopeless. coz im either on the com. or slpping.. nv studying.. well.. tink im gonna study for the next one week till he leaves. and thats when i'll upload my credit for PT!! hahahahahahahhahahahahah sry. im jus simply too bored. oh my mom says louis (my dog) has grown soooooo big now!! hahahahah! hes in melbourne wif my brother..currently.. aww i wana hug louis!

during pe. i ran my lungs out. lol. pain in my tummmy. and head.. headache when i sit down. zzz den i din wana go recess. coz tired ma. den yu yeng accused me of being biased. zz >.< coz grace they all call me go down. i'll go. she ask me go down. i nv go. its not i being biased. but its the time factor. u always ask me to go down when i tired or dun feeel like. cant blame me u noe!! ahhah XD paiseh la

den after skool. i was suppose to watch wedding crashers wif kelvin leow. yes daddie. he was suppose to watch it wif me yesterday. but he promised me today. but in the end. i skip my dnt class today. and we din watch the show -.- i din skip the class la. its some boring trip to SP. so wads the point. im not even into DNT. zzz den both of us. we nua at lot1. for a freaking long time. ask him watch bewitched he dun wan. stupid dadddy. oh anyways. im hes mother oso. hes my son XD complicated relationship. but who cares. as long as i got him calling me mommie. HAHAHA. he really like small boi siaaa.

haiya i duno wad to say already la.. came home.. i called fifi on the way home. i meant tiger lily fifi. harfia =) and all of a sudden. i suddenly fell in love wif a mariah carey song.. lyrics time!

*i din mean it when i said i din love u / so i shld hav held on tite i nv shld hav let u go / i din noe nth i was stupid i was foolish i was lying to myself / i could not fathom that i would ever be wifout ur love / nv imagined i'll be sitting here beside myself / coz i din noe u coz i din noe me but i tot i knew everything that i nv felt.... / the feeling that im feeling now that i dun hear ur voice / or hav ur touch and kiss ur lips coz i dun hav a choice / oh what i wouldnt give to hav u lying by my side / rite here coz baby / when u leave i lost a part of me / its still so hard to believe / come back baby pls coz we belong together.. / who else am i gon lean on when times get rough / whos gonna tok to me on the fone till the sun comes up / whos gonna take ur place there aint nobody beta / oh baby baby we belong together..*

lots of love,

kalafilochi =D

overdosage!!!!

2005-08-08T23:38:00.000+08:00

.. u see my tag board. suddenly got so many anonymous nickname user. wtf sia. zz all oneby one use that nick. PUT UR NAME LEH. lidat how i noe whos who. tryingto trick me IS IT! ass holes. HAHAH kidding.

oh. me and that gal. ok sry hav to use that word again. me and CHEAPSLUT. erm. we kinda ok liao. today iw ent skool. i ask her come. den we sit down and tok. got alot of misunderstanding. she said she cried inthe midst. i din. coz i dun wana cry over misunderstandings. lol. ok la. we din finish our tok. coz the irritating teacher come kp us to go watch parade. so.. it was kinda settled la. its partly my fault. for (once again) being too sensitive. HAHA. ok not funie sry.

oh today was halfday. harfia called me thrice in the morning to wake me up. i din wana go one. but i forced myself to. coz kelvin made me promise him taht i'll go to skool. zz i nv promise. but he claims that i promise. if i dun go. later he'll say me again "waaa u break ur promise..!!" lol swt!! ahhah useless father. puI! kidding =P

after skool duno why all pangseh yu yeng. she only one left in class. i was suppose to go off. but i stay back abit to company her. coz i oso kinda bu ren xing leave her behind all alone.. den chun jun come. i ask chunjun to company her. but that ungrateful bastard went off notlong after i go. zz i was suppose to go lunch wif kelvin. but in the end i hav to kick kelvin back to CCK. as in i ask him to go home. coz i had stuff to attend to.. yeah i forgot. i hav a special guest coming to my hse. =)

not gonna tell u whos the special guest. give that person a name =P hmm.. clay aiken? LOL ok. no wan la so weird. ok call him jappy! hahah den jappy came my hse.. lol. funie person. somehow he companied me the whole afternooon in my hse. (no worries we did nth. LOL) we ordered pizza.. and.. ya actually tahts all. but we had lots of fun though. although there was only the two of us. hhaha.. i enjoy every moment of it.. till i tink that time has passed ttoooooo fast. i din look at the time. it was like 310pm already. we actually "had fun" nuaing in my hse for like almost 4hrs?! i din even felt it was that long.. well. ppl say when u enjoy the moment. time will pass very fast. how true? lol

jappy! thks for the company. erm. i accompany u or u accompany me? lol both ways. i enjoy every moment of it =) u brighten up my day somehow. u got magic. u pro. LOL. u winner. i bwg. u stupid ass hole. haha sry. haiya im jus freaking happie la. and jus wana freaking thk u for making me so freaking happie la. thk u la. u freako. LOL

den i took a cab to grace's hse. zzz i went wrong hse. was suppose to be ther at 2pmplus as promised. but as usual. im always late. i saw steffi coming out to hug me.. ok. den she pulled me.. i was wearing high heels.. black shirt and jeans skirt.. quite nice. den i wear necklace somemore.. put perfume.. and u noe wad treatment i got when i reach grace hse? i saw EVERYBODY standing at the gate there, wet. nvm. i din dare to go in coz i scared they'll start spraying water at me. den they said "we play finihs already la.. faster come laaa" all smiling leh. i tot why they suddenly so nice. walao. u noe wad they did. instead of using waterbombs (which they've already used finished) THEY USE THE WATER HOLES. the.. THE long thing.. the.. water.. the. thing. they spray directly at me sia!! and put one pile of water over my head. i ji tao sian1/2. i wear until soo nice. and i kana lidat. i feel so cheated. my hair. walao. screwed loh. wet + no comb + fuking ugly. lol but i wasnt angry. was luffing. felt so sian. ahah

den i played mahjong.. hahaa so fun. steffi so lousy. hahaha =X kidding woman after the party.. steffi and i went recreation centre to play pool. that useless shit. she say she noe how to play. i had to teach her how to stablise her cue loh. stupid woman. alwqays bluff me. den she idiot one. keep suaning me abt this abt that. zz after like 4hrs. i was still drenched loh. my bra was soaked. haha.. my ass there oso. walao. when i walk. zzz so heavy leh my jeans skirt. zz oh the party was grace's birthday party. =) its her birthday tml.. happie birthday mommie. *muack* hahah

ok la. today was an extremely happie day for me. somemore when i come home.. got ppl call me darling siaaaaa... so long nv hear that liao. HOR? I DUNO WHO. lol! but oso duno how long will that last. jus be happie for the moment. i dun care abt anything else. i jus wana enjoy this moment. but im freaking tired. naaaah i jus wana hold on to this forever. happie forever. thk u

lots of love to everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
more to jappy.
ty jappy
kalafilochi =D

i used to tink sad songs are nice.. but now.. hhahha i tink love songs are oso not bad! LOL. wad crap.

happie birthday matthew

2005-08-05T19:26:00.000+08:00

LOL. ok i heard from quite a reliable source that CHEAPSLUT actually read my blog.? lol. ok la. 1stly i dun mean to call u that. jus that that time i was freaking pissed and i cant tink of a nick to be named after u. but since it is this way. let it be. =) i dun care. haha oh.. i toked to u today. u ignore me? lol. now i noe why u ignored me. coz u read my blog! nice.. i din noe that. but beta still. at least u noe wad i tink of u. honestly. i dun find u bad. but whenever im feeeling down or wad. sometimes u'll do somethings that will rub into my wound, unintentionally. but u can say i tink too much. i'll usually tink out of the box. and TAADAH!! cheapslut is the name for u. if not i type "she" "she" "she".later ppl confused. wadeva. our frenship is definately gone after this incident. but its ok. u're a nice person AT TIMES. i wun deny. but i dun lose anything from not being ur gd/close fren. =) u can go round tellingppl wad i did.. spread the stuff around! but u tink i care? the fact that i bother to write everything down here to let the whole world noe wad i've been doing shows how much i dun care abt wad ppl tink abt me. LOL. have fun woman. fuk u. AHAHHA.

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today skool was pretty.. fun.. =) last nite was..scary. hahaha. oh my parents left singapore like yesterday nite? this morning i woke up at 630pm. was kinda late for buses.. so i took cab instead! hmmm cant really remember wad happened in skool. i only remember wad happened after skool. LOL.

austin chun jun kelvin and me, we went to hawker.. the last time i ate at hawker was like.. months ago? lol.. now finally im eating there again. had phobia.. coz that time i eat until food poisoning.. so.. tio scared. haha.. den after eating.. chun and austin they went home. den left me and kelvin. i tell him i dun wana go home yet. coz parents not at hoome ma.. can jia chua abit ma.. so we went to watch movie!! he actually bought long john silvers.. tried to bring into the cinema. but the stupid indian woman. she kpkpkpkpkpkp. come check my bag somemore. den she take out the food and drink. then she say after the movie den come collect. stupid woman. *slap*

den we watched charlie and the chocolate factory.. den got one part quite sad. i had tears filled up in my eyes. den kelvin turned and look at me. i din dare to look at him. i gek gek watch movie. den he started luffing. zz i figured that he knew i was crying. den he open hes bag and take tissue paper out give me. NOT BAD SIA.. din noe i got a sweet daddie.. NOT BAD NOT BAD *clapclap* impressed me. haha.

den i gave him a lift home loh. coz i take cab home ma. somemore lot1 not v far away from hes hse. lol. den on my way home. i called harfia. she tot i was angry wif her. stupid woman. u're like my blood. i wun get angry wif u one..

omg la. yu yeng msged me on msn. "i wan ur LIFE!" ...lol. i promised her i'll go back to skool and find her.. if not i give her my life. i actually completely forgotten abt that.. alamak. now i tink she wans to screw me? HAHAHA. sry la woman..

ok last but not less.. happie birthday matthew.. BIG BOI LIAO HOR. MUS TINK MORE AH. tml hav fun ahhh!! =) frens forever!

lots of love in the house!
kalafilochi
weeeeeeeeee!

>.<

2005-08-03T18:37:00.000+08:00

argh. my dad coming back tonite.. zzz means less seeing me online liao.. awwwwww.. ahha stupid moron. why come back today. zz asssss holeeeeeeee zz so im gonna blog less. sry ppl. lol. aw my anonymous fren nv tag me for a week le.. when im sad my anonymous fren come.. when im fine.. he/she gone.. alamak.. weird fellow. lol. okk i go 1st. see u ppl. take care god bless! =)

MUACK TO EVERYONE!
kalafilochi~

hahaha funie? ahahhaa

2005-08-02T17:53:00.000+08:00

skool was fun today.. eileen gwee said "ehh u look so happie nowadays.. past few weeks u like so sad one..!" yeah true enuff. im happie. =) hoping praying that this happie-time would last like forever? haha.. funie? nah. jus luffing for the sake of it. haha.. z well nth much to blog today. dun wana tok abt the angry/sad stuff. i'll jus brainwash myself by telling myself time will heal it all. as in.. haha. i duno how to say. im not gonna elaborate on anything yet.. coz i kinda gave up. haha.. theres always a limit to everything. i tink i did more than wad im suppose to do.. wads meant to be.. will be. what goes around comes around.. hahaa. ok imcrazy sry

hahahha
filochi
fadamoh

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

2005-08-01T21:38:00.000+08:00

went out wif kelvin and edd today. yu yeng was suppose to come but SHE HAD TO GO MAC. zz nvm. we watched the island.. some parts are quite..sick. but overall the show is not bad.. not duno why the whole time in there i had headache. lol manda.. lol. shes funnie. she called me when shes feeling confused. she asked if i was confused. i said no.. but im jus feeling a lil... weird. we said that word at the same time together.. its really strange coz we both feel the same thing at the same time. when im happie, shes happie. when im sad, shes sad too. hahah best frens eh? =)

i realised something.. but i duno how to put it in words. something seems to be missing. cant figure out wads tat. but one thing i can definately cfm. is that im not in love. wif anyone. LOL. not even the guy i like for..a week? lol ok la.. i dun wish to blog anymore. was really excited this morning coz i get to go skool. new month new week new day new beginning.. AW U NOE MY ENGLISH BAND? i got rebanded zzz now im in this freaking band wif no freaking ppl whom i really tok to. except for sanjeevi. the ultimate super nice guy. lol. but still. other ppl are in other bands. and im the only pathetic one in band 3. wads the world coming to? why am i always the out one OUT! arhijfbkasf damn it

no love, u wan acheness? i feel lots of acheness today =)
kalafilochi

no more bitchy kala. i promise =D

2005-07-31T22:15:00.000+08:00

im so fuking happie. hahahahahahaha hahahahhahahahahah in a way. that email is a success. AHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA i was jumping around my living room when he replied. i jump until i drop on the floor and lie on the floor feeling tired yet happie. hahahahahahah omg im nuts HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

foolish-

2005-07-31T21:16:00.000+08:00

jus came home. went out wif that fren and some other frens as well. was suppose to be a project day today. but all of us went out instead. lol. funie. ok next.

actually.. i got nth much to comment.. jus feeling pretty sad. hes jus in front. but we're not toking. its so weird. its like the way he looks at me. it has the.. "annoyed" look.. u hav no idea how much my heart was broken when i see this.. further more he was once my close fren. although physically i hav alot of frens.. but to me.. now im like so empty. coz last time no matter wad happens. i would tell him. i dun tell anyone.. but now.. who can i tell? i dun really trust anyone.. the feeling really sux. its like we were once soo close as frens. den now. we're not even toking. its so painful.. but yet i went.. coz if theres a chance to get close to him. i would do it. even if my head would be chopped into pieces. i would still go for it. but as always. things doesnt turn out the way i want them to be.. and i dun tink they would ever turn out the way i wan it to be.

gave a lift to my frens. i had car sickness as usual. but b4 he and my other fren got off the car. i was benting my head down. i din wana look up. coz i was crying. lol im silly rite? crying over a fren who doesnt even fuking care abt me. den they said bye to me.. i din wana look at them. i jus waved at them. lol. and they went off. i was alone in the cab. i started crying even more.. the cab uncle asked wad happened.. lol like as if i'll tell him. i dun even tell anyone else.. i duno why but im specially weak in the nite.. maybe bcoz i spend most of the nite times wif him. as in playing games. tokin on fone and stuff? but now. im like a useless crap. yea realised that i've been blogging everyday now? coz blog is like the only place i can pour out my feelings. even ppl like "anonymous" would give me suggestions. i dun love my that fren as in true love blah blah. only love to the extent of frenship..

see all my previous entry. all abt this fren. i dun even tok abt the guy i like. coz i hav no mood to like that guy. *im awake.. but my world is halfaslp. i pray for this heart to be unbroken. but wifout u all im going to be is incomplete.* how true.. i nv ever believed that losing a person in ur life would hav such a great impact on u. but now.. lol. i lost a fren. a fuking close fren. gone. wad hav i done wrong? im willinging to do anything to get him back as close fren. anything which i can possibly do. but sometimes i wonder why do i bother so much. does he feel the same way? or is he happier wifout me.. to me, he looks happier wifout me. hes doing beta in studies. happier wif other frens.. maybe im a bad influence for him.. if leaving him means he'll do gd. i'll do it. as long as he walks the rite path. im willinging to suffer lidat. lol.. big sacrifice for a fren? im crying again. kala u're weak.

*he drowns in hes dreams / an exquisite extreme i noe / hes as damn as he seems / more heaven than a hrt could hold / and if i try to save him / my whole world would cave in / jus aint rite.. lord it jus aint rite.. / hes magic and myth / as strong as wad i believe / a tragedy wif / more dmg than a soul shld see / but do i try to change him? / so hard not to blame him / hold me tite.. baby hold me tite / oh and i duno.. / i duno wad hes after / but hes so beautiful / such a beautiful disaster / and if i could hold on / thru these tears and the laughter / would it be beautiful? / or jus a beautiful disaster / im loning for love and the logical / but hes only happie hysterical / im searching for some kind of miracle / waited so long.. / i've waited so long / hes soft to the touch / but frayed at the end he breaks / hes nv enuff / and still hes more than i can take..*

Kelly Clarkson - Beautiful Disaster

yeah i used this song b4 in my 1st entry of this blog. it was meant for paul. but now.. i dun tink paul deserve this song. lol. this fren of mine. he is that beautiful disaster. haha.. i nv like a fren so much. i feel so retarded.. i nv treasure someone so much b4. pui!

i played pt coz of this fren of mine. i din wan us to get drifted apart so i started playing pt. i dun usually play this kinda games. hated them. but tried. for that fren's sake. and now. tink im quitting pt. coz no point playing when he doesnt really care abt me. maybe my gold all this. i'll give it to him. coz game doesnt really matter to me. if this can make him happie for a min. i'll do it to.. enuff of blogging.. more of blogging and more of hearing this song = i wun stop crying for the whole nite.

peace out.

kala.lost

2005-07-30T23:00:00.000+08:00

went out wif kelvin edd and guo teng.. played pool and ate kenny rogers. den i had to rush home. lol. yeah i reach there ard 815pm somemore. reach home at 1050pm. nobody was home. if i din tell my mom, i dun tink any of them noe i went out. in a way, i sneak out. most prob tml she'll come and scold me. but to me.. kinda worth. on the way home in the cab. i made a decision. im going to write an email to that fren of mine. telling him wad i feel and stuff. well. hope things would turn out like last time lidat. wish me all the best. cheers =D

2005-07-30T19:41:00.000+08:00

now.. everything ard me seems so bored and empty.. each time my fone rings.. i'll rush to see who is it. and always it was other ppl who called. wana call him badly. but scared later he dun wana tok to me. and it'll be awkward. really miss those times when we would play game together.. tok on fone almost everyday for hrs. and luffed abt everything.. but now? lol. i wan to tok to him like last time. wana confront him so badly. but no pt. coz he doesnt seem to care anymore. im not feeling anything from him. lol but im happie though.. coz at least he entered my life once. never did i trusted someone whom i noe for a short period of time so much.. never did i cry over a fren. well u can say hes the1st fren i cried for.. 2weeks of crying.. no wonder i got black eye patches below my eyes. cry too much. LOL and never did i care for a person so much. noot even my ex bfs. LOL sry guys. but its ok. i appreciated and still appreciates him alot.. i love u my fren. =D thks for bring part of my life once.. sharing my sorrowness.. somehow.. u were part of the motivation why i go to skool but now.. HAHAHA nothing seems to matter.

wish me luck. hope theres no awkwardness when i see u. kala u have to stop running away from the problem

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

2005-07-29T18:14:00.000+08:00

haha. did many crazy thigns today actually. morning in english class i was throwing shazana's sweet around. lol sry gangster, i'll buy u a new row of sweets =) haha. den history lesson. today i was rather. rebellious. i kept changing my places. den my teacher ask me to go back. like thrice? lol. i went to the back of class to sit. she tell me come back. den i go yu yeng's area to sit. den she ask me come back again. den i sit nex to sanjeevi. den she start nagging again. lol she so funnie. but who cares. HAHA. ok chinese lesson was fun too. many of us sat together and tok/slp/play wif chun jun's hand. lol. wrote stuff like "im a horny bastard" ahaha i threw $10 on chun jun's face. coz everytime in chinese lesson. he would take a mirror and reflect the mirror at me and start making eye contact and stuff to me thru the mirror. lol. funnie is funnie. but if hes eyes got eletricshock den ok la. but prob is hes eyes oso not say very pretty. HAHA. sry chun. but still. lol.

k la im pretty crazy today. yu yeng and edd said i've gone insane. i called edd last nite and when i was tokin to him. i couldnt help it but start crying. he was shocked. he was like "huh? krystal u really crying ah? haiyoo wad happened?!" that moron la. i everyday in skool tell him i sad. he dun believe. he say when i say i sad i still smiling. if i dun smile of coz i'lll start crying wad. stupid sotong! anyway i tok to him last nite. i felt kinda beta in a way. sometimes tokin to him real live = u cant get his concentration one. tok to him on fone den can. oso duno why last nite i suddenly feeel like tokin to him. maybe bcoz i once had this horrible feeeling too. den i called him and i felt beta? lol. he shared our sorrows. that was last nite. lol. today in skool. he..still the same as last time la. always anyhow anywhere anytime. stupid fellow *slap*

hmmm.. zhi xing! im not in love! lol. so many ppl ard me tinks im in love. ok la. let me officially say this? im not in love wif anyone. my hrt is not taken. but its jus not ready for anything. lol. coz im a fragile freak. im a weak shit. oh i told the CHEAPSLUT that i did things to her table and stuff. coz her book was all in a mess. den she was like "why??" give me that pitiful look and tone somemore. i was like "really its me. zz" den she was like "u bluff me!" i was like -.- wadeva. LOL. den chinese period she told her fren "she made my table!!" ..lame woman. den after skool. she was walking wif nicholas owen and edd. i purposely shout "BYE NICHOLAS. BYE OWEN. BYE EDD. BYE PEOPLE!" yu yeng said something liddat oso. den CHEAPSLUT was like "why they liddat one!!" HAHAHA. fuk her. i caRe? no. i enjoy being evil. lol. now i can make ppl die. and start luffing wifout feeling guilty. OMG IM WORST THAN A MONSTER! but who really cares? hahahah i dont. HAHA.

stupid progess report card. i tink my report card got prob. i;ve been failing so many tests recently. and my progress report says i pass eeverything.. i even got As loh. wad nonsense. 3As. 4Cs. lol. nice? i like my results. haha. oh i went round watering the class today. i din water to cool myself down. but i water coz its rather fun. haha. now i enjoy doing all this stuff. but today i din really mess her table. coz she din offend me today. i merely make her confused today. if she relaly come up to me and ask me why i lidat. den i'll tell her. coz i hate ppl like u =D yeah i'll give her that wide smile.

after skool yu yeng and i. we went up to 402 classroom. i was helping them painting something. den i took the pain. and paint both of my legS. LoL. i go round showing ppl. all were like wtf?! haha fun fun. it might be gay but at least i enjoy being so gay. fun fun fun. den we went back to class 302 and play the slapping game. i play wif grace. i tot she v powerful one. but she SOOO LOUSY! HAHAHA. GRACE IF U'RE SEEING THIS. HAHAHA i oso duno wad to say. LOL. she lost to me la. but nicholas win me. ..weird in a way coz. grace wins nicholas. but nicholas win me. and i win grace. HMMMM.. hhahha.. den yu yeng and i went hall. there were auditions for teacher's day. singing auditions. ok honestly. they sounded awful. lol. got one gal who sang angel. i tot she was not bad. but they din put her thru. they say she cannot folo the tempo. oh the they are the 3 new teachers who join our skool.

u noe.. it shard to find a faithful and sweet guy. maybe 1 out of 1000 male singaporeans? i found 1. as in. hes my fren. but not say found. as in. i dun own him. lol but im happie to have this type of fren. coz hes real faithful towards hes gf. NO WORRIES IM NOT INTERESTED IN HIM. lol hes real nice to her loh. he waited for her for 2.5hrs at the mrt stations while she goes out to eat lunch wif her frens. -.- he so silly wait down there. he loves her sooo much. den nvm. she came. he walked her to the busstop. her bus came in 5mins. den she went home. den he. zz slowly walk home. walao. waited form 2plus to 5plus. OMG NO. THATS 3HRS! .. siao siao. i envy that gal la. coz hes such a nice faithful silly guy. lol. oh. wana noe whos he? sanjeevi. lol. hes a nice guy in fact. that day i sad. he take this small paper mirror.. den he put on hes forehead. dne he say "krystal. u see my head. the paper. can u see urself? u see. u dun smile u not pretty anymore!" den i started smiling. i smile coz he was very silly yet a very nice guy. i din noe such guys still exist. all the guys now all dun care dun care. act dao act cool. pui. ego men. but like i've said. im not interested in him. LOL. dun get mistaken

ok la. i gtg out le. have fun wif wad u guys are doing. thks for reading blog. EH ANONYMOUS! WHO U? SAY UR NAME LEHHHH! hahaha.. ookok seee u guys!

lots of love,
kalafilochi

new nick. KALA FADAMOH.

2005-07-28T18:27:00.000+08:00

nobody was in class after school.. only nicholas.. yu yeng.. steffi.. grace and melissa. in class as in my class. whole day din really go smoothly for me. 1st mr chan confiscated my stupid ez link card. fuk u u stupid gay sissy fag. coz i din for stupid taf fuk thing. z wadeva. den my maths teacher wanted to fuk me upside down too. din do her hw. den she said "those who nv hand in ur work tml, 7am i'll make u stand in front of everyone in the parade square." den she was like making eye contact wif me trying to tell me to hand up her work or else she'll do that to me. wadeva. u tink i care abt all this nonsense now? and today i did pe. fuk it. i hate sweating. argh. i jus hate everything now. HAHAHAHAHA im evil. z

ya. once i become fuking vulgar wif my words. means im really fuking pissed or fuking angry. no one can stop me when im at that state. and i mean no one. today in class. after skool. when there was only nicholas yu yeng. blah blah blah blah. those ppl i mention above. i was freaking pissed that i started watering the class. wad i mean by that. hmm. ok i'll elaborate. its because i heard something. as in. zz i heard something which was, to me, bad to me. dui wo bu li. so i look all the water bottle i could find. i pour all the water into one bottle. 2,3,4. den i start walking around the class watering everything. the floor. the table. mainly on one table. obviously is that stupid woman's table. like i that dumb to tell u guys whos she. obviously i will not. im not gonna give a reason for doing that. coz some ppl might be reading this. and i dun wan them to noe wtf i did.

mel came over and me and she scolded me. i argued back at her. she took tissue and wanted to wipe away the water for that stupid woman lets call that stupid woman CHEAPSLUT.. i told mel if she even lay a finger on the fuking table i wun even tok to her ever again. mel said its wrong blah blah blah. i noe its wrong. i noe it beta than anyone does. but i stilll do it. why? ppl always tell me dun hide my feelings. show it out. yeah im showing it out now. im pouring water everywhere. crashing water bottles and throwing it all over. yeah thats wad im doing now. cool? no. its FUN. i enjoy every moment of it. but i do not enjoy my frens trying to stop me from doing this. mel walked away after i argued wif her. she got angry. but i din going after her to apologise. i noe im in the wrong for doing stuff to that CHEAPSLUT. but so? u tink i care now if its to her advantage if im angry over wad she did to me? no. i fuking dun care.

den went canteen. steffi and yu yeng tried to cool me down. den after tokin for sso long. i ask steffi "is she a bitch?" steffi said yes. "can i hate her?" she said yes again. "so i have the rights to get angry rite?" steffi oso said yes. SO WADS THE POINT OF THE TOK! now i dun even tink he cares anymore. 2 days, 2 weeks. they were all torturing. lol. but its ok. each time when i cool down. i say i give up. one day when im really tired of all this fuking nonsense. i'll give up totally. like baobao. i got tired of hes crap. so i gave up. he and hes fuking lies. hes another fuking pussy. den benz came to the canteen. i toked to him. over. z z z z z well. somehow tokin to him i felt more relaxed. maybe cause we're both "experiencing" the same prob. but obviously benz is in a better position. for me. tink thats it. its the end. maybe benz is rite. "maybe hes sick of u! sick of seeing ur face!" well. i dun tink its maybe. i tink its confirmed. LOL. see im luffing. i need a shrink.

and now. i have no more tears for u and u. i aint saying who. but both of u can kiss my fuking black ass if u fuking wan to. coz i dun even care of u get shit for lunch and stuff. i would rather fuk myself den to fuking care abt u two. damn the both of u. frm top to the bottom. inside to outside. fuk the both of u.

screw me if u wan.
damn u two.
kalaFADAMOH!

but she will sing.. let everything burns

2005-07-26T16:20:00.000+08:00

hi bloggie. now im tokin on the fone wif manda. yeah shes back. i told her stuff abt wad happened. as in. ok deeep down inside theres still a wound. its not totally healed. im sad. shes sad. we're really best frens. we get sad together and happie together. shes sad over .. and im sad over .. .. .. .. oh dun tok abt that fuking bastard z

but i mean i cant call him a fuking bastard. he doesnt deserve to be one. coz in my eyes. hes as perfect as god. lol. saw him together. wif other gals. well. not sure if he was flirting but i cant stop him rite? lol. hurts to see things going this way. but. i cant do much. really. i only have Ashanti's Foolish.. the song.. i only have that song spinning in my head. need the lyrics? lol. as usual

baby i duno why u treat me so bad / u said u love me, no one above me / and i was all u had.. / and though my heart was beating for u / i cant stop crying / i duno how i allow u to treat me this way but still i stay / see my days are cold wifout u / but im hurting when im wif u and my heart can take no more i keep on running back to u / i trusted u i trusted u. / so sad so sad wad love will make u do / all the thigns thatt we accept / be the things that we regreat / to all of my ladies / feel it c'mon sing wif me / see when i get the strength to leave / YOU always tell me that u need me / and im WEAK coz i believe YOU / and im mad because i love YOU / so i stop to tink that maybe / u can learn to appreciate me / then it all remains the same that/ YOU AINT NEVER GONNA CHANGE.

yeah. remember this song? =) haiya im pretty confused myself la. when hes not ard. my tinking go wild. hope to receive a fone call from him soon. as long as hes there tokin to me. i wun even care if my com gets lock. i wun even care if the sky falls. as long as i can spend time wif him. i'll do anything jus to enjoy that moments. thats how much im crazy abt u. ARGH. KALA WAKE UP!

everything burns.
do u oro?
kalafilochi
XD

kelv stop saying im mad -.-

2005-07-25T16:55:00.000+08:00

hehe. back! jus to inform u guys im kinda back to normal. jus that now. im slightly more evil. heartless. and less be bothered wif certain stuff. now i dun even care if i pass my tests or not. haha.

well today steffi grace and mel keep bugging me. zzz they keep asking me whos the guy i like. lol. they guess and guess and guess. cant get it. den they came to find me during recess. i was slpping. grrace came to wake me up. den i accidentally told her. coz i was rather tired. zzz stupid me. den steffi and mel came. i told them only at the end of recess. when they found out whos that fellow, they started luffing! -.- very funnie meh. pui!

nth much to blog for today. oh ya. kelvin's an ass hole. SEE I PROMISED U I'LL WRITE THIS. he punch my back. my back bone shoulder there. 1st time quite pain. 2nd time FUKING PAIN. he punch 3-4 times today.. u ass hole.! im not ur punching bag! *slap* i told him i become more evil. coz i grab hes neh neh like fuk den he punch me on the back. i din tink he did it wif any force. but hes nuckers. how every its spelt. waaaaa v pain la. i told him stuff oso. abt this fren (its another fren. not the fren i mentioned in my previous blog) i have a feeling that this.. ok i'll give this fren a name. erm.. leila? ok leila might backstab me. thats wad i told kelvin. lol. i told him why. i aint writing it here. im jus gonna avoid leila. actually i din have the idea. its steffi who gave me that idea. she told me "since u dun trust her anymore den dun mix wif her la" i always tell ppl. no trust = no tok.. so i guess i wun be bothered abt all the shit leila does. i cant be a phoney in frlont of her. coz she means nth to me. LOL. so bad. YES THATS ME!

dun like no father..
baby im back
YEAH!
kalafilochi

=)

2005-07-23T22:37:00.000+08:00

nth much to blog today. jus wana thk those ppl who were "supporting" me from the back. thks for ur concerns.. im fine =) even if im not. i will be. at least i noe there are still many frens out ther who really cares for me. thks ppl! =D

muackz! love to everyone
kalafilochi

kalalost.

2005-07-22T14:59:00.000+08:00

i cant stand to fly / im not that naive / im jus out to find.. / the beta part of me / im more than a bird / im more than a plane / more than some pretty face beside a train / and its not easy to be me / wish that i could cry / fall upon my knnes / find a way to lie / bout a home i'll nv see / it might sound absurb / but dun be naive / even heros hav the rite to bleed / i maybe disturbed but wun u concede / even heros have the rite to dream / and its not easy to be me / up up and away away from me / well its alrite / u can all slp sound tonite. / im not crazy. or anything / im only a man. in a silly red sheet / digging for kryptonite on this one way street / only a man in a funnie red sheet / looking for special things inside of me.. / inside of me / im onjly a man in a funnie red sheet / im only a man looking for a dream / im only a man in a funie red sheet / and its not easy.. / its not easy.. to be.. me..

wana noe why i nv ever copy and paste song lyrics? coz when i type out the song lyrics.. i mean wad i type. wad i feel at that period of time. is all simply described in the song itself. yesterday and today. equally rough day for me. why? i've nv been sad for such a long time. EVER. i cant seem to let loose and be happie. i cant go on acting. i would become someone else if i do so.

during history period. i asked miss leong if i could go toilet. i went toilet the 1st time wif yu yeng and i cried my fuking ass out. was sad that my fren was still treating me quite coldly. really upsets me that this day came. cried. yu yeng scolded me. she say im tinking too much. i noe im sensitive. but still. its not a crime to be sensitive. den 2nd time i go toilet myself. i went insidethere and slap myself. my other fren smsed me and ask me why i behaved as if i lost or bf. or maybe worst? how the fuk i noe?! zzzzzzz wasnt really in the mood the whole day. got punished by teacher somemore. this combo simply sux. i kinda give up everything already. theres no pt in life. zz

den after skoool. yu yeng and i. we went round the skool walking for an hr. den she wanted to find sarah. i jus wanted to see that fren of mine. but.. i dun tink he wans to see me. =/ i mean he did tok to me during chinese period. but now. we dun tok as often as last time. theres an awkward gap between us and it just keeps filling up.. maybe he aint feeling the same way as i am. coz maybe to him. he tinks everything is normal. zz i dun wish to comment much abt him. i told harfia b4. when its time to let go. u hav to let go. but look at me? lol. easier said than done. how true. i wasnt in the mood for anything that i actually headed back home.

i walked from skool all the way to the mrt. alone. i told yu yeng to find sarah. so i jus went. when i was walking. i was reflecting on wad happened today and yesterday. i dun even hav the mood to eat anything now. i have not been eating since i woke up till abt dinner for like.. 3days? even now.. when im typing this. im not even smiling. im jus looking at the fuking screen. wondering wad the hell am i doing. writing all this nonsense for u guys to read. so sry. and of coz. im listening to five for fighting - superman. i really wana go up up and away away from here. im only a human being. i cant change wads gonna happen tml or yesterday. i jus hav to accept the fact.

i hope that he would treat me like how he used to. which was tokin to me more. coz he doesnt noe. i've been killing myself softly on the inside. i've nv cried so many times in skool before. jus b4 i reach the mrt station. i almost got knocked down by a car. how could this happen to me? people who watched me grew up say im an alert girl. a v alert person. would almost get bang down by a car today. seriously. wad has happen to me? zz when the car hone at me. i look at the driver. i took one step back. he jus drove pass me. i nnv felt so retarded blur and lost in my life b4. den when i reach mrt station. as in buona vista mrt. i saw one girl. she was holding a stick.. her eyes were looking straight.. she lost her way.. she was a blind. i lead her down to the control station where her fren picked her up. when i saw her walking away. tears keeps building up in my eyes. felt sad for her. yes this is how fragile i am now. jus a lil sad stuff. and there u go see me in tears. isnt it the best time for u to disturb me? come make me cry. im a cry baby now.

when i reach home.. 1st thing i did was bloggged. i was staring into space in the bus and i overshot my hse by 4stops. i had to walk like fuk. four stops. its freaking far. wanted to catch a cab. but couldnt find one. what the hell am i doing? i tink i've lost control of myself.

feeling lost,

kalafilochi.

fuked up day. fuked up world. fuked up kala

2005-07-21T17:34:00.000+08:00

2 nites ago. i tot things would get better like how it used to be after i confronted my fren and thrashed things out. but today. lol. we din even tok at all. not a word of hi, yes, no.. nothing at all. after skool i called him thru hes fren's fone. i wanted to tok to him nicely. but the tone he gave me was like angry.. pissed.. as if he was tokin to someone he dislike alot.. he was like "hello? who are u? wad u wan?" ..den i din dare to say anything. i felt so embarrassed that i told him "err nvm la. u hav fun wif wad u're doing. erm ya. bb" yeah fuking embarrassing after i hang up. i slapped myself when i hang up. den i walk thru this short cut from the labs to the canteen. and i saw him at the canteen wif hes usual group of frens 1st table away from the "short cut entrance" i was like "omg. where shld i hide my face?!" i jus simply walked as fast as i could. made one big round to reach to the other side of the canteen. coz yu yeng left her bag ther. so i had to go there and wait for her.

maybe yu yeng is rite. how can i pretend to act happie when im not? i tried to have all the fun i could in class today. luffing and stuff. but deep down when i joke wif ppl. im jus luffing for the sake of luffing. and im not really happie. it was all an act. AS USUAL. i hate myself for being such a phoney but i dun wan to. i need to move on my life wif or wifout my that fren. because to me. now telling him wad i feel is kinda no pt. coz nth changed. oh yeah things changed. of coz it did.. look at wad happened today. it got worst. -.-.-.-.- im sad that he and me. we're drifting apart but how many times in a month mus i tell him that im unhappie. im jus hes fren and nothing more. but why am i expecting so much from him? if i'm him. i would tink "krystal is crazy.." but i wana spend time wif this fren of mine like how we used to. we could tok on the fone last time for hrs wif funnie conversations. but now? whether its on fone. real life. or online. its all the same tone now.the buay song tone.

sometimes blog can kill ppl too. maybe after reading this. he'll most prob this im too sensitive and that might end our frenship. i care nth no more. fuk everything. i wana get out of here.

2005-07-20T13:32:00.000+08:00

..remember my previous entry. i said i dreamt of one person 3 times yesterday? oh well guess wad. i dreamt of him last nite again! -.-.-.-.-.- hes gd fren told me "if u like him.. go for it." ..i feeel that everyone ard me is trying to make me fall for him.. but why?! of coz i like him. but. .. .. .. why does he keep appearing in my dream. a total record of 9times in my whole donkey life. and still counting..

baby jiu shi ni qing kao jing wo huai li~!
wo fei zhang xi huan ni.. yes i do =p